We have to be content within ourselves, becoming whole and complete again. No one can give that to us and no one can take it from us.
Since quite some days my Masterself showed me situations, where the split between the fe/male energies has been seen clearly, to shine the light of my consciousness there.
I saw how we become needy, a hole instead of whole. Or how we did compete instead of being complete. It happens everytime when we expect something from the outside or when we want to overtrump others.
Expectations/needyness is often expressed through the feminine energies and the competitive/fighting energies through the male energies. But all of us have both in us, what already holds the so(u)lution for this problem.
On monday morning my divine self told me to have a coffee in a nearby café and told me where to sit down, to relax and watch the scenery. What happened to be a fighting couple. An older man with a chinese woman as a mate. He told her he is going to have a Thai Massage and she was totally jealous at the woman he wanted to go to, to have this massage. It´s been interesting, as this guy was totally controlling this woman, told her even how to sit or eat. And she allowed that to happen, while being totally out of her mind and really agressive in all, her body, her voice, words and energy, cause she felt hurt and was afraid to loose this man. I watched it, remembering how a guy once played that jealousy trick on me, when nothing else has been working any more, to control me. Of course he was just trying to control his own inner feminine and I wanted to be valued by my inner male. He had also tried to suppress and control me, as a reflection of his feminine, that he feared. Well, and the woman in front of me that I watched while having my coffee? She started fighting, cause the mans behaviour gave her a feeling of unworthyness. No matter how much she tried to please him, she was not enough for him. She was fighting him, because she was fighting her inner selfworth-issues. Why did my masterself show this to me? Well to heal my past, while sending Love and Awareness towards this man and this woman, so for them a space for their so(u)lution opened. Cause, me sitting there having a coffee, opened a different timeline for that couple. My masterself told me, that the woman will end her relationship what will set both free… Many women will refuse their roles. Many men too, hopefully. I deeply honor those, that dare to bring in the change.
On tuesday my stonepeople arrived, as a gift from beloved Muriel Shickman. They introduced themselves as Mr. and Mrs. Stone. Mrs. Stone told me how she has once been made out of soft wood, but hardened over a long periode with the determined spearhead, Mr. Stone. And well, he told me how much he wanted to be embraced by her and admired for his sharpness and how he has over time lost the tip of his stony head, as it has been rounded by the hardened wood. Well I listened to them and then introduced them to their daughter Jade Stone-Owl, whom had already arrived at christmas. How astonished they had been, that a stone can be hard, piercing and round. How he can be shiny, beautiful and flying. Wise, easy and tough.
Today I have been at my office-job. My direct boss is a guy who has been in military and always remembered me at the crazy military guy in the film “Avatar”. He´s proud in never giving in, always having to be the best. Normally I get along with him quite well. Being respectful, but never devote. I learned much about sovereignity in that job. But of course that guy senses the tiniest bit of “weakness” in others. That´s the moment he´ll try to dominate you. I didn´t get much sleep lately and had a little op at my left foot, so he might have sensed vulnerablility. Today I wanted to leave early and while I prepared to leave, he entered my office and said “Here´s todays post. You´ll not leave, unless it is done.” Always good for jokes this guy. I took the letters, put them in my In-Box and said “I´ll go. I´ve got an aching foot and an appointment.” He answered: “Even more fun for someone who enjoys being sadistic.” I laughingly answered, that he´s free to have his fun and I´m going to have mine, too. Took my jacket and left. And that is exactly the reason, why he likes me somehow, although he hates it that he likes me.
The appointment I have had was with Julian La Erosius from Luxury Masters Academy, for recording a session of the Healing of the Heart series, he´s creating. It´s been absolutely amazing, cause Julian went far beyond the warrior male principle and powergames, but he can open his heart truly without loosing the masculine energy. That is still so seldom and so much needed. We went today in this session beyond the fe/male energy split into the integration of all that we are, to be living examples how to leave all old roles and powergames behind, how to truly love ourselves and others.
We have to be whole and content within ourselves. No one can give that to us or can take it from us. When we love ourselves, and also the other, we will never play games that are no fun, we will never hurt ourselves or corrupt ourselves. And when we are whole again, we´ll treat the other the same way. It´s as easy as that.