Inspired to inspirePosted by Natalie Fri, November 25, 2016 06:36:38
We fear nothing more than our own light. It is overwhelming. Too much.
That´s the reason why our path takes a long, long time. We need to prepare before we are able to trust and open up fully.
The first time I made consciously contact with the light in this lifetime was when I gave birth to my daughter. That happened long ago, February. 2nd 1987. To me that´s a typical kryon joke as it´s been exactly 6 month before the convergence, but it happened the way it happened because there would be the convergence.
I was a young woman of 18 and I really feared giving birth and being a mother. I had absolutly no idea how to make it. Well life doesn´t need us to know how to, it is just unfolding perfectly. It´s been already evening and I had been in labour for 16 hours when a pain hit me that´s been beyond words, I opened my mouth and yelled like crazy – afterwards I felt very astonished and a bit ashamed for loosing control so totally.
It remained the only yell, cause I recieved heavenly birth help. On my inside a picture showed up: A surfer, riding a wave. I understood immediately: Don´t fight the wave, surf it. And I did.
The rest was happening very quickly. The very second my daughter entered earth again, very different things happened simontaneously. I had my feet onto the legs of the midwife, so she could hold against my power. Well actually she couldn´t. She was literally kicked through the whole room and totally stunned as she said something like that never happened in 20 years to her. She couldn´t understand it.
Well, that´s been the power of love.
Cause the moment when my daughter came in the veil was removed for a splitsecond, and I experienced a light, that´s been warm and love and all one. Far beyond all words and the seed of my path as a lightworker in this life.
My daughters father was sitting by my side, holding my hand and he later described again and again that he didn´t understand what was going on. Suddenly the midwife lost balance and was stumbeling through the room and he saw a little grey ball laying between my legs (totally his daughter, she likes soccer just like him 😉 ) and when he looked very puzzled into my face he saw the most happiest and beautiful smile he had ever seen in his whole life. Well, of course – I´ve been in heaven that second. Not only did I birth my daughter out of the light…I also gave birth to my own light.
One might think, that having experienced that, I would hunger for the lovelight. Of course I did. Kept me on the path. Made me study spiritual teachings from all cultures.
But when the light knocked at my door many, many years later I was so afraid that I´ve not been able to let it in fully.
It happened after a Kryon meeting in autumn 2014 in Basel. I left the meeting very quiet and went straight upstairs to my hotelroom and laid down on my bed and opened up. And there it was again. I guess I´ve never been more happy and fearful in my life. I opened up and let it in, cause I wanted it so much, but I couldn´t open fully. It came in so strong, that I´ve been too afraid I might burst into nothingness. So I jumped from love to fear, again and again.
Well, the light is patient. It told me to go to Israel with Kryon 2015. I didn´t understand why and didn´t want to, but of course I followed my inner voice. The best choice ever. Now a path started to unfold, where I´ve been prepared step by step to let it in. Not all at once, but again and again. As much as useful and as I could hold without freakin out or loosing ground. Instead of jumping from love to fear, like a crazy quantum rabbit on drugs, I now let it in slowly, in a balanced way. Others may prefer other ways to find the light.
Each lightworkers journeys is different, all stories are breathtakingly beautiful, but one thing we might mostly have in common:
– Nothing is more overwhelming than the own light. It seems impossible to embody that.
It is us, birthing our own lovelight.
May the surfer help us to go with the waves and not against it.
Shine your light