Posted by Natalie Sun, August 28, 2016 17:48:03
December 6th, 2014 has been a remarkable day in my life. On that day I´ve been at a huge party in Berlin, initiated by the author and coach Veit Lindau. The idea behind that day was to bring together like-minded people, interested in evolving and cocreating a better future, whatever that meant to each and every single one of the crowd.
In the evening the party took place as a huge playground, where everyone played „as if“ they´d already achieved what they were looking for. For example: behave completely as if you are already the bestseller author or the happily married woman you wanna become. It´s been hilarious, watching all the people playing out their dreams! The brilliant idea behind „Fake it ´till you make it“ is to install the feeling, that will attract what you want.
On this day I had an important insight. Of course I would love to see my books on a bestseller-list or experience a happy love-relationship, but I´ve already experienced that success might be a stressful guest and a happy marriage can fail nevertheless. So I had decided to choose a feeling and let life deliver the rest. I simply chose to be „happy“ – and almost instantly exploded with light and joy. A bit later that day I met a Reiki master and she stayed by my side for the rest of the day, not able to take her eyes from me and repeating again and again “You are totally radiant, never seen such.“
This day changed my life, cause I had chosen wisely. Of course I am still recieving my share of tears, but they can´t harm me very long. Because I chose „happy“ life delivers me beautiful moments. People love spending time with me, I receive gifts, postcards, invitations, hugs and lucky circumstances again and again. But I am only able to receive all of that because of my choice.
I´m sure I would never have attracted the money to journey 2015 to Israel and 2016 to the States and Norway, all of that bringing in further change and much growth, if I wouldn´t be the happy person that I am.
As already mentioned I am still experiencing pain and grief. And I am giving space for that. When I´m sad, I allow myself to be sad, when tears show up, I let them clean the system. There is nothing to suppress, nothing to hide, nothing to fix. And there is no reason to not let the sun in again, also.
A month ago someone I really love cut me off without one word of explanation, letting me hanging loose with a business to build up. I had tons of work the last weeks and on my table are 3 tax declaritions to fill in. I´ve gained weight, in summer! And much worse I´ve recieved a few days ago a call that an uncle is in coma and about to die. When I wanted to phone my mother, telling her her brother is going to die, she refused to talk to me. Her millionandfirst time of abandonment in this lifetime.
Well, guess what? Here I am, enjoying a nice white coffee and being nothing but happy. Cause, as I am a happy woman, not loosing herself in grief, the last month brought also unbelievable beautiful moments with amazing female friends, filled with love, laughter and loyality. I recieved healing and initiation and found while a clean-up forgotten money to pay for it. I´ve recieved lots of compliments and encouragement and deep in my bones I feel there is way more to be attracted by this happy woman, that I´ve decided to be.
Life is what we choose!
Shine your light!