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Twin Flames – The purifying Love

Meeting your Twin is the most purifying love experience you will ever have. It will bring up everything in your being that isn´t balanced.

It may seem like heaven and hell at once, as your reactions towards each other can be really extreme and only someone who has met his/her own twin can understand what´s going on. The rest of the world might just think you are crazy.

As we know how unusual this experience is, but also how important on your souls journey, we bring together 3 of us Twins on next Friday, May 25th 2018 for a quantum healing webinar about the topic of the twin flame. No matter if you met your Twin already or want to prepare yourself for this magic moment, you might benefit greatly from this event. Therese Wenk and me are collaborationg again on this event, to work with the participants on an energetic level, as we are both quantum healers. My speciality is more on the emotional level, while Therese is more focussed on the DNA and this combo really rocks, as we can offer you a state of emotional balance and if you choose so, assist you to anchor it on the physical level.

For me personally meeting my Twin was something I didn´t understand at that point in time and that literally brought me to my knees. Although I thought for a while I might be cursed because of the intensity of the experience, it has really been a blessing as it was a major step on my own journey until I finally became the ” healer of hearts”. To meet my twin cracked my heart open and teached me unconditional love. What many people don´t want to accept is, that you have to become whole within yourself, have balanced your own inner male/female aspects to be able to live the heavenly version of the Twin Flame Story. So instead of focussing on what the other is doing wrong or how terrible outer conditions are, it´ll benefit you more when going inside and taking full responsibility for your own Souls Journey. Love yourself unconditionally, integrate all your aspects, including your shadows, is the key to be ready for this epic Lovestory. As it is epic as can be. When two come together, who are already whole within themselves, they can literally move mountains. Nothing is impossible for true love. May you find it…and embody it.

Shine your Lovelight <3

Save your seat, by clicking on this link. For live-participants the replay is inclusive. If you can´t make it at the given time, register anyway, as this is taking place in the quantum field and the replay is just as effective as being a live-participant. To buy the replay later just use the same link. If you prefer to enter live, check out your timezone, to convert 7 p. m. Berlin/Zurich into your local time.

Personal disclaimer

I should´ve been delivered with a disclaimer. But I wasn´t. Not even a tiny note, warning “Caution. Highly transformative.”

So I can´t blame people that they didn´t get it, that they should stay away when wanting to stay the same old, same old. I didn´t get it myself for a lot of years what it was exactly that was wrong about me. I had to meet one of the same kind to understand that we can not spend too much time with people without triggering their shadow-aspects. It´s my nature and my gift…just not everyone likes it. Well, it doesn´t matter, cause I love them anyway. Often with a lot of distance 😉 What is funny for me, as I´m navigating in the quantum field…where exists no time, no space…no distance at all 😉

Well, at the same time people are attracted to my gift, they  always have searched my advise and presence when in trouble, in all areas of life. All people, not just the spiritual ones love to be inspired to find their clarity and soulution when talking to me. I had to find out that it doesn´t even need my physical presence, it´s working via phone, mail etc…it´s the light of my consciousness I am sending out towards them, that activates their own consciousness – when they do not fight it. Or me, cause they blame the light to create the shadow, when not willing to take  ownership of their creations.

That´s why people who do just think or pretend they want to evolve, should really stay away from me!

Now guess what happens when you bring two of that kind together? What is Therese Wenk to name my fellow transformative rocketship that I´m co-working with a lot lately. First of all, we started to understand what´s been going on all of our lifes. And we both started to evolve very quickly and been bringing our skills together to give quantum healing via transformative webinars.

And we found out we have to give a disclaimer for our webinars. Coming together we are better/worse than ever. Even in a webinar format we are “too much” for most. And like a box of chocolates, you never know what you´ll get, not even we know what we will deliver until we did it.

Our webinars aren´t even webinars in the classical sense. There´s not much content for your mind involved, we´re just feeding him what is needed for a general understanding. But our real work takes place on an energetic level, while the participants may just give intend to receive the energies, relax and enjoy the show. What includes technical issues because of the high frequencies we are working with, loosing our speech as we experience the energies and are surprised ourselves, even as we have been working with the topic normally for weeks already. Quantum is faster then the light and we have to stay quite flexible. Our participants too 😉 And having humor helps also.

Our most unusual experience until now we had when giving our “High Vibe Astrology Webinar”. The topic came as an inspiration and we started to work on a quantum level with the planets, to tune into their most pure energetics. The day before the webinar started Therese was busy with other things, but had to think about a song we could use and “The Age of Aquarius” came to her mind. The same time I prepared for the webinar, found a short film to show another perspective on our solar-system, what was a perfect metaphor for our changed perspective on our personal journey and evolution with High Vibe Astrology. And I found a nice version of “The Age of Aquarius” for the beginning and end of our webinar. I did it without speaking with Therese, we often get similar informations and just exchange them for a more precise understanding on our side before the webinar. Well, having all prepared since weeks, we received further information 45 minutes before the webinar started. That there would be the topic of bringing in our Soulstar included as an extra. OK. I had no clue what that would mean exactly and didn´t have time for doing research as I had to get something to drink and eat, to dress myself and do the soundcheck in these 45 minutes left. Same with Therese.

I know that the timing and circumstances are always perfect. I wasn´t suppossed to have more information on the topic of the Soulstar. No concepts, just going with the flow, directed by inner guidance. So we brought in the High Vibes of this Solar System, plus the SoulStar. And we didn´t make this available as a future potential, but had one participant that went into the process of integrating the SoulStar directly. And yes, that´s not for everyone and an intense experience. And it wouldn´t happen to anyone, as one has to be ready for it and has done a lot of preparation before able to go through it. Another person might watch the vid of the webinar and not understand at all what took place. Maybe even get their shadow activated. But that is also perfectly planned by the own soul. Shadow-work is essential for the path. The own soul aspects and that what is seen as angels and guides know about the timing and would not choose anything that is not appropriate, may it be the Shadow or the SoulStar asking for integration. Nevertheless I was almost a bit shocked and deeply, deeply touched that we had been part of the activation process. It felt a little bit like witnessing a birth, what is actually somehow true. Just we have to come into a body a few thousand times until our Soulstar enters the physical.

So yes, I have to give out a disclaimer for our work. It´s highly effective, you never know what you get – but you can trust it will always be for the highest benevolent outcome.

If you dare to, here is the replay available, as all is happening in the quantum field and therefore still active for participants: Webinar “High Vibe Astrology”

And if you want to know what coming soon, just check out my “Heart & Soul Academy-Page”.

Shine your light, precious Soul <3

Rose News & NeuSpace & Valentine´s Day

Well, nothing stays the same and that´s excellent news. Who would want the same old stories being played out again? For sure not my kind ^_^

Last week had lots of distractions showing up and absolutely nothing worked out as planned, but I am overly happy that all that´s been important did work out somehow. And that´s all that really matters.

One of the strangest days has been last tuesday and while I noticed that all signs yelled “distration overload” I almost missed Patricia Farrington having Sienna Lea as a guest talking about Shadow Synthesis. I´m glad Patricia has excellent senses and so I did finally enter with a little bit of her help 😉 <3 I can highly recommend this recording and Sienna Lea, cause to own our unwanted stuff is absolutely crucial on our path. Here you´ll find the replay of the event: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-woqHC7q4ow

Well, distractions kept occuring to such an extreme that it got really laughable and to find the humor in all the occuring, helped to stay balanced while the weekend, where our #metoo threesome healing event about abuse took place. The recording started too early and  didn´t stop when we closed the room, so I beg your pardon for technical issues, but the event itself had shifted things for some participants in a miraculous way, what is really, really awesome. And that´s actually an understatement. We might have struggeled with the circumstances, but the involved persons really had to come together, to co-create something that got outstanding effects. So, if you do not search for perfection, but for results and real change in your life, I recommend to buy the recording by following the link: https://www.edudip.com/w/278326 In case the page shows up in german, just scroll to the buttom and change your language preferences.

I´m lately more and more communicating publicly via the Internet. One of my Healing Co-Hosts, Muriel Shickman, has created “Neuspace”,  a format where monthly Webinars and Interviews related to the new energies are taking place. I´ve attended a few episodes last year and Muriel is really so much new energy, that you can hear the next Shout or Prognost way ahead of time. I love it! And as Love attracts Love, Muriel asked me a few days ago to join her as a Co-Host, what really, really honors me. I´m so looking forward what we´ll co-create together. Smells like fresh air. Well, the next conversation is going to take place on Wednesday 14th of February 2018. And our topic for Valentine´s Day is of course “Energetic Boundaries”. I couldn´t stop laughing a few weeks ago, when Muriel told me about topic and timing. Purrfect, indeed! So, please feel invited to sign in and join us. Find out more here: http://www.murielshickman.com/neuspace.html You´ll also find previous shows in the archive and please read my bio on the page. I´ve “downloaded” it in an instant and it really mirrors my being. ^_^

Have fun, shine bright like a star and be your own perfect Valentine 😉 <3 Much Love :*

 

 

Adam and the feminine split

In the bible there have been two women for Adam. One was created alike him, but he wanted to dominate her, what she refused. So she had to leave paradise (that´s paradise, to be submissive to an entitled dominator, thinking he´s “better”?!), being the representative of the demonized female energies. The witch/bitch, known as Lilith. She will never allow Adam to own her, as this would mean to make herself less than she is.

So Adam got a second woman, Eve. His wife and the mother of his children. Well, she is said to be created out of his rib…. That already speaks volumes. She´s not even an own being, but just created by what he wouldn´t miss at all. And that´s exactly how she´s treated.

No wonder Lilith will never allow Adam to own her. Who wants to give herself fully, birth his creations, nourishes them and is not even being honored for it, but taken as granted? If Eve would break her own heart and leave husband and children, to become free and sovereign again, she would suddenly represent Lilith and than he runs for her. But just as long as she is not present.

The reason for that has nothing to do with Eve/Lilith or however you name these archetypes. The male can just not allow the unity with the feminine as an equal. Why would anyone ever have to belittle someone else? Being better, more evolved than? Only attractive when not present? Because he doesn´t value himself and does not even really dare to be one with the feminine. That´s why he tried to dominate her in the first place, to then make her worthless. It just mirrors the inner conflict.

Honestly, the feminine principle is not honored at all, although nothing could exist, when not coming through her. How weird is it, that she has to become a demon to have some kind of freedom (although always hunted, therefore always haunting Adams shattered mind).

And of course this plays out with outer characters, but it has nothing to do with the outer world, but is taking place within every individual, no matter the gender. Archetypes that we just project on the outside, to declare us independent of them. Make them wrong, to feel right. How you perceive and treat others, shows how you really feel about yourself.

I see it, I hold love and compassion while I know the struggle it´s just an illusion, created by the fearful mind. I do not have to make others less or better. I am content within me. I honor myself and the other. Because this is who I am and that can not be defined by someone else. There´s no split, no lack, no story, no separation at all, unless you create it.

 

Dying to be me

Last year  I experienced 3 major steps on my path.

1.) I wondered why I had still attracted abusive people. The answer was a shock. Literally frozen in time for 40 years and opening my eyes for some ugly stuff around me.

2.) An shadow-aspect returning home and the message that “the Master is in the House”. Too funny, I couldn´t remember to have asked for him to come in, but maybe that´s been the reason why he was able to enter. Well, with the integration of my shadow, things seemed to be already brighter. Until…

3.) I was told by my eternal self that I have to die. And that there´s a choice to be made by me. The choice to be reborn in the same body or to come in again as a newborn. I was shown my potential parents, their energetic body coming together in an act of love to conceive the new life. I saw the energetic body of the fetus in the mothers womb, felt the love she held for the little one – what could be me. I´ve gotta say that this felt really attractive to me, as it´s been the very opposite of this lifetime. A fresh start under conditions that are loving and supportive felt really good. The other option was to be reborn in the same old body. And I was told this would be the harder option, as changing while staying the same is way more difficult. I chose the difficult version. Of course.

I was not sure if the message was understood, as I still felt the new body calling me. So I even wrote a letter adressed at my daughter, just in case…

But my choice was heard, cause when I woke up in the morning, a few days later, my whole surrounding felt totally strange to me. At least I changed my incarnation while sleep-time, that´s been a goodie. But still not that funny, as I had lost all attachment and interest to the things that once have been mine. Loosing attachment sounds nice…it´s not in real. I can hardly describe what was going on with me. I doubted if I might have lost my mind. I was so unattached, that I could walk out of me door the very next minute and never wanting to look back, no thoughts and feelings about the old would arise. My birthchart has had lots of earth in it, so this was really weird for me.

The strangest thing was, that all was the same, but I am not. It is really like a new incarnation. Love is the only thing that remained. I will always love my daughter, no matter what body or incarnation or relationship we have. And I love cats and coffee and the starlight. And Love itself of course.

The real difficult thing was that people expected me to be the same, plus even if I had no real attachments, I still had tendencies for some behaviours, that I had to get rid off. That´s why dying is much easier, than staying in the body. When you die everyone accepts that you are not available. But when they see the same body, they´ll blame you for not being and behaving like you are supposed to – from their point of view. But of course, it doesn´t matter what someone expects, we are the ones who have to take ownership of our behaviours…no one else can be blamed for what is our responsibility. So I tried to look as normal as possible, while unbecoming what I am not.

Dying alive was a hell of a ride, while I am in total peace, holding hands and having a melt-in with all of me, loving all of me. Well and of course a million angels, incarnated or not, trying to assist me. Two of them I have chosen to cooperate with for a quantum healing space about abuse. That´s been done to the most beautiful Souls and we need them being themselves again. Whole and complete. Well today Therese offered me spontaneously to have a look, what´s still missing in my field. She´s an awesome healer. Well actually she´s been a midwife today. She´s been handed the last missing piece to be integrated again. My divine blueprint, the innocent baby child …the aspect, that´s still been missing. Dying, to be reborn. Hallelujah.

The worst thing about abuse…

The worst thing about abuse have in my case not been the abusers. Looking backwards most of these folks have been very distorted and cowardish people, whom have normally been abused themselves.

In most cases abused people become offenders themselves or victims. And believe me it´s not the one chosing the victim-role who is the weak one. Things are seldom as they seem.

I know that I have chosen my life-path with great intend. To stand exactly where I am now!

No, the worst have been the ones knowing what´s happening and going into denial, to not risk their comfort.

The sisters of my abuser, changing the linen of the bed the eight year old shared with an adult man. My mother not wanting to take responsibilty for the life she has brought to earth, so she looked away for more than three years. And it´s been a doctor telling her, he would publicly hold her accountable for having the blood of her own child coming over her, when not taking me out of that household. And it´s not been her conscience, but his authority that saved my life.

Last year, when coming into awareness, leaving victim-consciousness behind, I saw how I still have been emotional and spriritually abused. With such an energetic signature the energy-vampires are always nearby. The Rose itself spoke to me to tell me that “Not all, collecting Roses do it out of love.” Indeed! When I stood up and spoke up for myself, my “sisters” looked away and some even took side for the abusing part. Well, they have chosen and their path is none of my business.

Now that I am at a point where I have found balance in me, against all odds, but with all heavenly forces holding my back, I have received messages myself and through others to help heal the wound that I had to overcome myself. What makes sense of course. I am aware that this brings up all the forces, that benefit from the “divide and conquer”, as I am going far beyond a pitty-party for victims or stupid gender-bashing. I go to the root as I see behind the obvious.

So the newest thing was a porn-vid sended out, with my name and picture on it, via messenger to my facebook-contacs. Pft! Seriously?! How should someone like me, standing so big, strong and tall after all she has experienced, to be offended or silenced with such a scam?! It might damage my FB-friendships or my business, of course. But guess what: That´s working for me, not against me. The ones that are sorted out that way are not the ones I want to have around anyway.

And when I wrote about it in Facebook and made a statement, most didn´t react at all, like always. Not even those that really believed it was me in the porn, found one word! Bravo! The silent masses, that´s what is the worst on this planet. They make all of it possible at all.

It can not touch me anymore. Who I am is not to be defined by the actions or in-actions of others. I have used all on my path to move beyond these games of a distorted duality. But I know one thing: The veil is lifting and the roles people are choosing become obvious. Don´t count on MY silence anymore! I will speak up. My facebook post and my blogpost are not written by someone who is hurt, but by someone who will make the silent m asses visible. I do it for those that have until now not taken their power back, to show them they can find their voice again, too. I do it because of all, who still wish things to be unseen and unspoken, so nothing will change.

To the abusers and enabelers: I welcome your darkness and will weave my magic to make your ways impossible, for a New Earth. The place I decended from to walk my brothers and sisters home. We are many, we are everywhere and nothing will prevent the future as she is already here.

I shine my light, indeed – and whatever you give to me, may it be light or dark, for an Alchema it´s all just fuel. If you stand in the light of my consciousness and see a shadow on the wall, it´s not me being scared and running, that´s for sure!

 

 

 

New Vid out about: Fear, Shadows and Darkness

I´ve made a new vid, that holds a deeper understanding about healing, duality and what balance actually really means. There is a huge misconception around that topic, especially in the lightworker community, where many are quite ignorant when it comes to these issues. Nothing is as absurde as lightworkers whom are afraid of shadows, darkness and in total denial.  If we really want to become whole again, move beyond duality, this has to be faced. I guess I made a real good job, to make it quite easy to digest, but it´s of course not the easiest of all topics anyway.

https://youtu.be/4xcBE4UfiTI

Why we cannot uplift others

I´ve gotta joyful, loving heart and I´m an empath, so I always totally enjoyed it to see people thrive.

The stranger it has been to me, that a lot of people first have been totally amazed by me, to than later start strange games, what normally ended our relationship.

If you are a loving empath who tries to uplift people, what never really works out, this article might be quite helpful to understand what´s really going on in these cases. And it holds a much better so(u)lution at the end.

First of all: We can not uplift someone, who feels down. S/he has to decide to stand up on their own.

If you ever have seen cases of co-dependency, there is always the one trying to help the person that is down. In the end, they are maybe both down, because of the energetic feeding and games that are taking place. When you finally leave, the one who is believing to be down will stand up…or, in most cases, find someone else, who tries to “help him up”.

The same dynamic is taking place when you try to uplift someone. It´s the same game, just a smaller stage. You cannot do anything for a person, but inspire them. If they do not get ignited by your spark, there´s no way to help them, without burning yourself out.

Ok, I will share a typical scenario, that had replays in different variations in my past: I meet someone, we become friends, as I´ve got something that they are missing within themselves. They love my joy, my kind heart or my inner stability. Whatever it has been, they see something inside of me, that they want to have too. Well, when I looked at them I saw their inner light, their being. I knew that they can have that too, whatever it is they see in me. They are one with all that is, they can be whatever they want. I tried to show that to them, to encourage them, remind them. Well, that´s been the moment when things started to go wrong. When comming closer with my light, all they did was focus on their shadow on the wall, getting bigger and bigger. I´ve been too much for them, so they tried to control me, own me, belittle me or turn in some way against me. And in many cases my “friends” became my hidden enemies, even waiting for a weak moment of mine, to bring me down, using everyhing they could find. They did fight me, because they somehow thought me to be above them. They have been the ones believing to be down. No one can change someone elses be-lie-f. People are creating their reality. You can not uplift them, when they think they are down.

And my role in that scenario? I did also only fool myself, believing I can do for people what they are not willing to do for themselves. And as I felt that I am too much for them, I tried to be careful. I´ve got a 12th house sun in capricorn, shining behind the scenes and therefore been targeted from hidden enemies. I´ve been hiding my light and they did hide their darkness until both collided. It´s been breaking my heart a million times – until it just couldn´t, as I understood what had taken place. They did not fight me, but their own shadow, caused by their own light they saw reflected in me and that they couldn´t open up for.

The more funnier and pleasant occasions have been people telling me how much I have evolved, while I thought that I am who I have always been. Well, actually they did evolve and therefore could also see more of my light. But that´s of course very beautiful.

See, when someone has to be uplifted, someone is above them, what is a total misconception. I told you I always knew that we all hold this divine spark. Noone is above. But I did dim my light often, to make it easier and more comfortable for others, to be around me. I wanted to be accepted by them, but just had to learn to accept myself, all facettes of me. That´s why I met so many people with a hidden darkness, as I´ve been hiding my light.

The so(u)lution for all who want to help others is the following:

Stop uplifting, but instead inhabit and shine your light with all your might.

And yes, it might be that a lot of persons will turn their back on you as they cannot stand your shine, but they are at the moment not a match anyway. You would just distract, and struggle with, each other. Won´t help no one.

Shine your beauty with all your might, it will attract the right ones and you will inspire and ignite your divine sparkle endlessly as you are a match and mirror to each other.

 

#metoo The stages of pain, denial and healing

I am one of many women who postet #metoo. The Weinstein-Exposure startet a discussion that comes very late, as the affected have been left alone for so long. But it is a little miracle in itself, that the topic finally entered the collective stage. The hashtag #metoo is already 10 years old, but time wasn´t ripe before…and the names maybe not famous enough.

I wrote a few month ago about my own suppressed trauma from childhood, that suddenly showed up after 40 years. It showed up, when I asked my higher self why I still attracted abusive people after all the healing work I did. The answer was a shock. I asked myself why my consciousness didn´t let it out earlier, as there´s been already quite some other incidences later in my life that I´ve been conscious of. The answer is that what happened to me as a 8 year old, was just too horrible and the remembered episode has been the only one where I was awake, as for some reason the barbiturate wasn´t working that day. It happened over years and normally I was drugged and used and thrown away like a doll, seemingly even selled to others. The whole story showed up in layers to be integrated. My own consciousness is just a mirror of the collective, that denied what it couldn´t deal with. And the collective denial continues and will be unveiled in layers.

The reason why there´s so much dispute in the discussion, are the different stages of processing the involved persons are representing at the moment, as expressions of the collective.

When Pain starts to talk to Denial, there´s no way they can have a proper conversation, not to mention a connection that brings healing.

Out of own experience I want to encourage Pain to express the stages of pain, rage, sadness and whatever it might be you feel. To feel it is needed for the proper integration. Feel it fully, express it…and than give love to yourself. Comfort yourself. Be proud that you were brave enough to express yourself. It is important to value all stages of processing, as only this can bring healing. That goes for the individual as for the collective.

I experienced myself, as a child and this year again, how it feels to be left alone. Or how people even use it against you, to pump up their self-worth and make you “less than”. Yes, this is painful, but I welcomed the clean-up in my life anyway. Maybe you can also try to get a point of view that helps you instead of hurts you.

In later phases, when there´s already peace in the system, there might occur a greater picture. Facts like that the ones that are in denial have not been brave enough to face the topic themselves, to literally step in your shoes. There are many reasons why people deny pain. They might have been victims themselves, they might have been perpetrators, but in both cases they can not deal with the pain. Sometimes they went from victim to perpetrator. It´s a well-known fact that this happens very often. For some reason they don´t have the courage until now to deal with it. And you can not force people to face their shadows, without becoming somehow assaulting yourself. Do not enter the destruction and distraction circle.

Over the last month I learned much about cowardish behaviour. Funny enough the “spiritual” community is the best…in creating forms of denial. And it´s making sense. Most people in the spiritual community still want to be “better than” or somehow special, totally unaware that they are the best when they are just themselves and drop all of that special advanced BS. People just have to be “better than” when they didn´t learn to love themselves and others fully.

The second reason was spoken out loud in Basel from Teal Swan on stage. She said, that most of the spiritual stuff is Novocain, a painkiller. Doesn´t heal anything, just makes people run from one event, book, teacher to the next, to get their shot of release. I couldn´t agree more, been there, done that …until I realized it. Well the second reason has much to to with the first reason, as the biggest pain is the lack of self-worth.

So please, when you have to process pain search for help and stay away from people that are still in stages of denial. Do not waste your time and energy with a fight against other peoples shadows. Use all your energy to face and heal your own shadows. Do also not search for revenge. The best revenge is to be a healed, happy and free being. Go for it. I am by your side and many good men and women are too.

Sending my love and compassion to every one <3

Why the scapegoat was so important for the old earth communities

The scapegoat had an important role in the history of social communities. As people did not dare to look at their not accepted “shadow-side”, they took all their sins onto an animal and killed it or punished it  and sended it into the desert.

It´s been the way how people could still live together, whos characters had a lot of shortcommings. Just pretend it´s not there, than all is well…except for the goat, but well better to sacrifice a goat than to risk that  the community would break apart.

In the old testament, you find the description, that 2 goats were used. One has been slaughtered and her blood brought into “the holy of holy” and sprinkeled onto the “seat of mercy” (you may ponder a bit, who might really own such a place and receive all the worship) and the other goat was sended into the desert.

It is the reason why it is said that Yeshua died for our sins and the reason why we pray to a dead man on a cross instead of seeing in him a living example of the divine. Using a human as a scapegoat has a lot of advantages. You get rid of someone who doesn´t please the ones that are in charge and you make sure the rest of the community behaves to not experience to be a scapegoat also.

A lot of lightworker have experienced this in the past too, when being the shaman or the witch. You had a lot of knowledge and knew also about the peoples sins, because they came to you when they needed help, plus you had the inner knowing. When the community had a bad harvest or another misfortune, you had to pay the price and been their scapegoat.

A scapegoat is a very practical thing, it prevents people from being responsible for their own actions.

I´m a double capricorn, a mountaingoat, and I know all about being the scapegoat. I´ve played this role so often. My very existance in this life was the result of a “sin”. My mother couldn´t stand my presence, that´s why she gave me into an orphanage. There the nuns, never allowed to have a good orgasm, treated me badly, too. I remember, that even just two years old, I´ve been punished for the stuff the “sweet, nice girl” did. I can not count how often that happened in my life. I learned all about the unwanted, suppressed, ignored. And that imprint sticked and brought replays.

The point is that it doesn´t work. It is the reason why mankind runs in circles and nothing ever changes. Whatever you hide in the shadows will come out again and again until it is accepted, integrated, transformed.  If you pretend you do not know that the major is mollesting woman, you will ignore it until you or a loved one become a victim and maybe noone will listen to you than. You´ll be even marked as the one who´s disturbing the peace. That´s how communities are working. It´s the price that has to be paid when being part of a herd.

The shadow of the age of pisces are lies, deception and sacrifice and a lot of people have deeply invested, to hold on to their illusional state.

For me it doesn´t matter anymore. I am bored by all the games and projections and I laugh about the comedy, that will only fool the ones that choose ignorance. I see the true colors and I see who refuses the wake-up calls. I see who wants to stay with the same old, sacrificing others for the own illusional comfort, thinking this will prevent themselves. I see who preaches love´n light and hides the own shortcommings in the shadows, holding everyone else accountable. There´s just one question, that is immediately making the house of cards crumble:

“Why do you hand your responsibility to people that are not even able to be responsible for their own actions?”

Being the scapegoat turned out to be the best role in that comedy. It made me strong and independent to be casted out so often. I had to learn to care for myself. And I prefer it meanwhile. Who wants to be part of such a kind of communities? Not me. The age of aquarius will be the time when free beings and equals are coming together and nothing else suits me. It is the point of view I can offer to all that have experienced to be the outcast. You are not meant to cuddle into the mold of the common lies, you are called to be sovereign, free and search only for company of your own kind. You deserve to be the ones to build the new earth.

It only hurts, when you try to herd. So just don´t. Be yourself and people that are attracted by your authentic self will find you. Quality over quantity. Dare to shine your light, integrate your own shadows and don´t care about others projections and lies. Life is way too beautiful for such games <3