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Rose News for June

My next Monthly Rose Touch is taking place on Saturday June 9th at 6. p. m. CEST. Those that want to be added to the list of participants, just let me know. You can also ask to have your pets added, cats and dogs enjoy the energies a lot. If you want to add your children, please only do it when they are under 14 years. Free will is really important on the Souls journey <3

Those that want to enter live, please feel invited to join the “Rose Touch & Rose Talk”, you have to register on the platform but the Monthly Rose Session is for free, to give everyone access to healing energies: https://www.sofengo.de/w/295456

If you do not live in Europe and want to know what 6 p. m. Berlin time means for your own time-zone, here is a little tool you can use: http://www.thetimezoneconverter.com/

But you can also register and listen to the replay, as my Rose Touch is a form of quantum healing and therefore working outside of time and space. The topic for my Rose Talk will be “Connecting with the Core” and as this is the main focus of my own work, to assist people to connect with their true, eternal self, I will be the one who will talk about the topic this month and my guests are invited to ask questions or share their experiences. If you can´t join live, you can send me a message and you will be included in the discussion and can watch it later. Also you can tune into the replay as often as you like, as you will always have a slightly different experience. Quantum is interacting with your present now-moments and people have great results when entering the quantum room whenever they need a lovebath 😉 <3

On Sunday 10th of June 2018, I will start a webinar that will have 3 sessions,  three sundays in a row, to have an intensive experience and deeper and easier anchoring of the transmitted energies for the participants. The Webinar about the healing of the heart “Herzensheilung – Intensiv Webinar mit dem Rose Touch” is for german speaking people only. If you´d be interested in an english version, please let me know. Maybe I can offer it in english after the german series is over. But for the benefit of the participants, and to manage my own energy properly, I will only have one Intensive at a time.

I am sure this  summer will bring surprises for all of us and to be centered within our hearts, connected with our own I Am Beingness, is the best approach we can take, as it allows us to make wise decisions and to thrive.

As always: Love is the question, option and answer.

So shine yor lovelight and have a happy June <3

 

Rose News – Freedom, Healing and Collaborations

Lately I´m all about collaborations. Well, being part of creation we are meant to be collaborative, just you need the right timing, people, awareness and circumstances to start the ball rolling.

And he did! Together with Therese Wenk and Muriel Shickman we created a threesome healing event about abuse, that really did rock. The feedback of our participants have been absolutely moving and touching. I´m totally happy that we had been so brave to get into such a deep and difficult topic via the internet. As we had to find out, we, coming together, did not only work with our participants, but they have been chosen representatives for mankind, and we together have been working with the collective consciousness. In case you missed it, the replay is available here: #metoo Quantum Healing Space Webinar with 3 Healers.

And when clicking on the following link, you can buy the replay of another amazing co-creation with Therese and Muriel:  Free to be me. We have been working at the individual and collective human, to help them let go of unhealthy bonds and to open up for the own truth, to express it freely. You´ll find it in the media and hopefully in your own life very soon. Every one of us came to earth to bring forth something only we can bring to life, and everyone of us has something beautiful and precious to add to this planet. Please dare it, like we did!

And last weekend the “Rose Talk & Rose Touch” has been taking place, with special guest Muriel Shickman about the topic of the Rising of the Roses. In its core we spoke about the rising of mankind. I´ve decided to put out the replay on YouTube. Even when many people might not really understand what the Rose Touch is and what we´ve been discussing with the guests on this evening, the energies of that call have been amazingly beautiful and everyone benefitting from it, just by tuning into it, is a gift for humanity. So inJoy the leading edge of spirituality…a bunch of giggeling gals, blowing you minds away and gifting you with love and bliss… 😉

What´s next? A NeuSpace Interview on the 10th/11th of March 2018 (depending on your timezone) with Alexis Srsa. She´s giving sessions and webinars and is very much alike Muriel and me, an Artist of life, expressing in a million ways the richness of the own Soul to encourage and assist others on their journey. Well and today, 6th of March is her birthday. And tomorrow, 7th of March, is Muriels Birthday. Happy joyous Pisces-Party, beloved Ladies.  <3 <3 <3

On 14th of March Muriel and I are inviting you to join us for the next monthly NeuSpace Talk. Topic will be Visions and Seeing Potentials’ I´m really looking forward to see you on that call 😉 <3

Well, and March 25th we are starting a new series. As Therese, Muriel and I are global players in it´s best meaning, a very new and beautiful way of working with the collective consciousness and of course very much connected with this lovely planet, we will start a meditation series. We will start with a “Meditation with Mother Earth” And no that´s not a grammatic error, but intent. Just alike every cell in your body is coworking to create the being you refer to, when saying “I”, so we are, collectively seen, co-workers with this amazingly beautiful body, named Gaia. You can not incarnate here, when there wouldn´t be an agreement between Gaia and your beingness to work together. We want to bring awareness into this beautiful collaboration, making it a lovestory of sorts.

We will then move to different parts of this globe, starting with Africa on 15th of April and moving towards India on May 6th, 2018. The fee for the ones that enter live will be only 3,-€ for each event to make it affordable for everyone and to value the contribution of the ones that help to co-create the event.

Have a great time, shine your light and help others to let their light shine, too.

 

The Mary & The Magdalenas

I have described in my last post why the concept of Re-Incarnations can be absolutely limiting and confusing. Shortform: A bit of Chilli in a Soup is just representing Chilli, it is not Chilli.

I am a living Rose, but I am not “the Rose”. Nobody is, a body can be only an expression of a principle and many bodies carry the principle as a potential.  “The Rose” wouldn´t fit in any body. But duality doesn´t understand that. That´s why I and so many others have been mistreated and killed in so many lifetimes and it really doesn´t matter. It´s a joke. Darkness is just stupid as hell. When they killed Yeshua, they could of cause not kill the Christ. Just  the opposite. A little wind became a storm. Every Heart and Soul he has ever touched received the Seed. And every Seed carried Seeds. When darkness realized their mistake, that´s when they changed strategy. They tried to mislead the seedlings. Started to collect them, to “own” the Rose. Oh goodness, how limited and malicious is a linear mind. Trying to darken their lights, so they won´t spread. That´s the reason why so many of my Sisters have experienced abuse, to prevent the buds from blooming. Made a lot of Roses Puppets of hidden Puppet-Masters, as abuse disconnects a person from themselves and their inner knowing.

No Master would follow another Master and no Mary would have ever followed an outer figure, not even their beloved Yeshua. They inspired each other, ignited each others soulfire, but have been shining on their own. Only Duality wants to overtake things. Divide and conquer. And it cannot. Spirit is free and untamed, million blooming seeds are out there and seeding themselves in this very second.

On Sunday the Healing of the Roses has been downloaded in the collective field. It will need time until the ripples arrive at the individual, but nothing can prevent it now. It never could. The outcome was a given.

Time to shine the light. Your own.

#metoo Quantum Healing Space Webinar with 3 Healers

As someone who has experienced all kinds of abuse, I´m quite passionate about this topic. As I have written in this article a uses b abuse has been so normal on this planet, that the non-violent forms are mostly not even recognized.

I am one of the many Souls that came to change that. I´m here to remind people at their sovereign, whole and joyful nature, that is everyones birthright. I want to encourage people to take back what is theirs. Recently I received a very clear message to bring the best healers I know together for a healing session on this topic. And I received that message more than once, so I did it. Here we are 🙂

Both women I chose are outstanding in this field of quantum healers and both gave me an instant yes, before we had made up any details.

Muriel Shickman is living in Colorado and has a huge medicine bundle at hand and I have received myself a great soul healing from her, that had to do with my own past of abuse. It´s always good to know where the healer goes for healing  😉 You can find out more about here, when clicking on this link: http://www.murielshickman.com/

Therese Wenk is living in Switzerland and we have met by divine orchestration, that´s for sure. She is working with the reconnective healing frequencies, that are teached by Eric Pearl. I´ve experienced those also myself and it works amazingly wonderful with much ease. To find out more about her, please follow the link: http://www.healingconnection.ch/

The reason why I have chosen these two Ladies for this collaboration was of course their great abilities as healers, but also their strong character. I wanted to make sure that my co-workers have much integrety, love and compassion in their tool-box, when it comes to such a delicate topic. So well, I´m really happy and proud to offer you the best I found and I know that our abilities combined will be mind-blowing.

It doesn´t matter what kind of abuse you have experienced and where on your healing journey you are, you´ll find yourself afterwards much better. We will not talk very much, as words might even distract from the unfolding process. We do not work with your mind but with your energetic essence, when you choose to enter this event. You do not have to understand the healing modalities and do not even have to believe in it. If you give intend to heal, it will work.

The Session will take place at 8 p. m. CET, what is noon at MST for example and might take roundabout an hour. If you want to check out your timezone to find out what 8 p.m. Berlin time is in your town, you can use this link: http://www.thetimezoneconverter.com/ And if the time doesn´t suit you, you will still receive the replay and can join at your perfect time. For all participants the replay is included in their fee (all others have to pay for it) and in this way you can tune into the healing energies of that session again and again.

When you follow the link to the event page and sign in you will be guided by an automated billing system, what includes a receipt and reminder in your e-mail-box. Other participants will not see your name, to honor your privacy.

Do not hesitate to contact me, in case there are any questions. It´s my joy and pleasure to answer them. My email is: natalie@soulutions.one

The picture of the red Rose in the snow has been taken by Muriel and as this showed up as a perfect symbol for our event she used it for our flyer, that you see above. May all Roses bloom their eternal beauty.

 

 

 

New Vid out about: Fear, Shadows and Darkness

I´ve made a new vid, that holds a deeper understanding about healing, duality and what balance actually really means. There is a huge misconception around that topic, especially in the lightworker community, where many are quite ignorant when it comes to these issues. Nothing is as absurde as lightworkers whom are afraid of shadows, darkness and in total denial.  If we really want to become whole again, move beyond duality, this has to be faced. I guess I made a real good job, to make it quite easy to digest, but it´s of course not the easiest of all topics anyway.

https://youtu.be/4xcBE4UfiTI

#metoo The stages of pain, denial and healing

I am one of many women who postet #metoo. The Weinstein-Exposure startet a discussion that comes very late, as the affected have been left alone for so long. But it is a little miracle in itself, that the topic finally entered the collective stage. The hashtag #metoo is already 10 years old, but time wasn´t ripe before…and the names maybe not famous enough.

I wrote a few month ago about my own suppressed trauma from childhood, that suddenly showed up after 40 years. It showed up, when I asked my higher self why I still attracted abusive people after all the healing work I did. The answer was a shock. I asked myself why my consciousness didn´t let it out earlier, as there´s been already quite some other incidences later in my life that I´ve been conscious of. The answer is that what happened to me as a 8 year old, was just too horrible and the remembered episode has been the only one where I was awake, as for some reason the barbiturate wasn´t working that day. It happened over years and normally I was drugged and used and thrown away like a doll, seemingly even selled to others. The whole story showed up in layers to be integrated. My own consciousness is just a mirror of the collective, that denied what it couldn´t deal with. And the collective denial continues and will be unveiled in layers.

The reason why there´s so much dispute in the discussion, are the different stages of processing the involved persons are representing at the moment, as expressions of the collective.

When Pain starts to talk to Denial, there´s no way they can have a proper conversation, not to mention a connection that brings healing.

Out of own experience I want to encourage Pain to express the stages of pain, rage, sadness and whatever it might be you feel. To feel it is needed for the proper integration. Feel it fully, express it…and than give love to yourself. Comfort yourself. Be proud that you were brave enough to express yourself. It is important to value all stages of processing, as only this can bring healing. That goes for the individual as for the collective.

I experienced myself, as a child and this year again, how it feels to be left alone. Or how people even use it against you, to pump up their self-worth and make you “less than”. Yes, this is painful, but I welcomed the clean-up in my life anyway. Maybe you can also try to get a point of view that helps you instead of hurts you.

In later phases, when there´s already peace in the system, there might occur a greater picture. Facts like that the ones that are in denial have not been brave enough to face the topic themselves, to literally step in your shoes. There are many reasons why people deny pain. They might have been victims themselves, they might have been perpetrators, but in both cases they can not deal with the pain. Sometimes they went from victim to perpetrator. It´s a well-known fact that this happens very often. For some reason they don´t have the courage until now to deal with it. And you can not force people to face their shadows, without becoming somehow assaulting yourself. Do not enter the destruction and distraction circle.

Over the last month I learned much about cowardish behaviour. Funny enough the “spiritual” community is the best…in creating forms of denial. And it´s making sense. Most people in the spiritual community still want to be “better than” or somehow special, totally unaware that they are the best when they are just themselves and drop all of that special advanced BS. People just have to be “better than” when they didn´t learn to love themselves and others fully.

The second reason was spoken out loud in Basel from Teal Swan on stage. She said, that most of the spiritual stuff is Novocain, a painkiller. Doesn´t heal anything, just makes people run from one event, book, teacher to the next, to get their shot of release. I couldn´t agree more, been there, done that …until I realized it. Well the second reason has much to to with the first reason, as the biggest pain is the lack of self-worth.

So please, when you have to process pain search for help and stay away from people that are still in stages of denial. Do not waste your time and energy with a fight against other peoples shadows. Use all your energy to face and heal your own shadows. Do also not search for revenge. The best revenge is to be a healed, happy and free being. Go for it. I am by your side and many good men and women are too.

Sending my love and compassion to every one <3

Facing darkness

As I´ve announced I will write a bit more about shadow-work, as it is crucial at the moment. And Jupiter entering Scorpio tomorrow will bring up a lot of opportunities to face, what has been hidden and denied. I´ve been at an esoteric conference in Basel the last weekend and was very pleased to see that a lot of the invited speakers are not afraid of shadow-issues. I wrote a while ago about the new generation of teachers and yes, they are very real, down to earth and entering  the big stages more and more.

Who enters the earthly realm has to face duality. There´s no way to avoid it. Those that think to be out of that game have a blind spot. When you´re out of the game, you´re not in the arena, but you are here 😉  If you bring in your light, you´ll have to face darkness. All we can do is to be aware and to choose wisely.

I must have a nice light as I had to face a lot of darkness, coming my way. Darkness seldom came “right in my face”, mostly it came as a hidden enemie or as a loss.

For those that are familiar with astrology: I have a 12th house Capricorn sun and the ruler of Capricorn, Saturn, is in my 2nd house in Aries and squares my Sun. Lots of work and hardship, without material security – but lots of hidden enemies on top of it. At the moment Pluto, the helldog, plays with this constellation. I understand that I had to face hidden darkness, as I´ve been hiding my light. I have been badly paid, as I didn´t dare to insist in being paid well, as what I have to give is of value. So things are changing under Plutos influence. So thank you darkness for all your lessons, you are seen and valued for it.

When we are young and darkness shows up, we think this happens to us, we will tend to see us as victims and will try to fix things on the level where they show up: on the outside. When we get older, we understand that whatever occures on the outside, just does so, to stirr us up on the inside.

We are all at the moment in an epic battle between light and dark. Just the way it shows up in our lifes is a bit different, depending on the lessons we have booked when planing our incarnation. Do not get fooled, you´ll win or loose that battle on only one place: Your own heart.

Darkness did everything it could, it throwed everything at me that it had in this lifetime. It broke my heart a million times, it overtook all that I love, including my mother and husband. When team dark overtook my husband, the Repto-Lord that owned him, materialized for my very eyes and grinned into my face. Darkness wanted me to know its power. Yes, darkness brought up an ocean of tears and unbearable pain inside of me. I had periods of deep sadness. But I understood that they can only overtake what is theirs. But I am not and will never be. They can turn people that I love into hidden enemies, (using their hidden dark feelings like greed, envy or jealousy) but they have not the power to take my Love. And their power over their slaves is temporary, but my love for their eternal being knows no end. They took the lifes of people I love, but delivered just a direct line behind the veil to me. Darkness wanted to bring me down, but I´m a stubborn Capricorn, so I made darkness serve me in the end, always. Alchemy of the Soul. Darkness can take my material belongings, but who cares, as long as I own myself. Burn down my house and I find my real home. They can make me the scapegoat, they can abandon me or throw stones at me. I stay untouched in the light of my soul and nothing that is made of an illusion can destroy what is eternal.

I have a seventh house virgo moon. I am highly sensitive to others energies and emotions, while I see and understand very clearly the reason for their feelings. To be able to do my work, my heart has to be an open gate. When someone I love throws hate at me, I can feel it over any distance. Brought me literally to my knees a few times. But couldn´t break me, but purified me. When we are touchable by dark, we still have a shadow not faced inside of us, an aspect not fully integrated. I understand that. So I do not answer darkness with darkness. I turn it around and throw my Light on anyone crossing my path. And those that work against me, get an extradose of Love, as they need it the most. And it works. Darkness runs from me. Of course the running ones told the witnesses, that they can not stand me, as I am the bad girl. Scapegoating and projection. Works, again and again. Well, sorts out the weeds and weaks out of my field, so thank you again.

Darkness played its twisted games so long, that the maincharacter and his many expressions got mad, lost in the game and forgot that it is just a role. Lucifer has been the highest of the angels and he had forgotten, that he is an expression of the divine creation. His role has been to teach through diversity. But he has identified with his role, he believes to be the almighty god and he is a jealous one. He is dependent on worship and when you do not feed him he gets totally angry. You have to fall on your knees and obey to him. And I don´t. He´s just another actor on this divine stage. I honor him and I even love him, as he is my divine brother. Not more, not less. Darkness (Lucifer) has in its core never left the omniverse, where all is in harmony.  And our essence is still there. Darkness is just a way energy is expressed. Darkness believes its polarisation to be more powerful, but its energy is just more raw.

Darkness even thought to own this planet. But I´ve got news for dark: Greetings from home, dear Brother, Lord Darkness, he who is not to be named. Mother Gaia owns herself. She´s married to Father Sky, but not even he owns her. He loves and enjoys her. Its divine love, it knows no distance and no end. You can try to poison Gaia, sell her, molest her as often as you want, you will never own her. Ownership is a joke. You´ve been allowed here, as she allows her children to make their experiences. You are not the ruler of this planet, of mankind or anyone. Rule over yourself, if you can! A wise mother allows her children to make experiences. Mothers that do not allow these, will never have adult children. And Gaia, as an expression of Sophia, is a very wise mother. So thank you dark, for this  lesson, you may now take your seat again. We´ve really enjoyed your show, but life has a few more aspects to itself. You are just a part of all that is.

What you send out comes back to you? Yes and no. When we refuse to answer hate with hate and fear with fear…we become the gamechanger. Team Dark thinks to be in control and invincible. And the reason why they could make eternal free beings their slaves is that everybody believed it, that´s why they worked for darkness at all. When they realize they are not in control and helpless against the power of light, that scares the hell out of them. Team dark runs because it is afraid that when the light wins it would pay them back, that the light would punish them, the same way they have punished the light. But only darkness believes in old testament justice, the light lives in grace.

See, team dark has given all they had, but all they did was to strenghten me. It´s all energy. It now returns to the sender – just a little bit transmuted. They are used to receive hate for sending out hate, that´s an endless self-feeding cycle. But when they receive light in return for darkness, that shows them who the gamechanger is.

And it is a game. There´s no such thing like duality in the heavenly kingdom. Shine your light dear Ones, it will protect you and others in these times of the big change!

Love is all that remains

Today I went to a swimming bath, that is at the other end of my town. I chose this one as nature around there is really beautiful and it is next to the river. I love taking walks along water and wanted to walk after the swim along the shore to the center of my town.

When I reached the path next to the river, I turned for some reason not to the left, my direction, but to the right. I wondered why as I had a real long walk to make anyways, but than thought it might be a nice place to make a picture from the river and shore. Well, after a few steps I stood in front of a tree with the remains of flowers, hearts, letters and the tape thats been used by the police at the crime scene, on it. I stood at the place where a nineteen year old girl has been raped and thrown into the river last year, where she drowned, as she´s been unconscious. Of course people have been talking a lot about it, but I didn´t know where it had happened, as I am not familiar with this part of my city. Well, my subconscious seemed to have led me to this place. Her name has been Maria and I asked myself if she might be still around, when having had such an early, brutal death.

So I went a few meters back and sat down on a bench, praying that her soul might be in divine peace. And really, all that my consciousness did get as an response has been love, compassion and peace. I felt that she had already received help and that her soul could feel all the love and compassion, that people had for her. She was from another city and had studied in Freiburg, but when something like that happens, people react as if they would have known her personally. We connect our own story with the other and everyone has once been a young girl or has friends and family, and can imagine how it must have felt for the people that loved Maria.

When I prayed and received that loving response it was also somehow healing for myself, as I understood that there´s nothing that our soul can not deal with. We are making so many experiences and I know that it doesn´t happen to us, but that we for some reason choose to go even through painful moments on our long, long journey. Finally, still sitting on the bench, I took a picture from the river, what had been my first intend, and you can see the colours that occured on it. They mirrowed exactly what I have felt. I wished her parents would knew that, but my words might be just words for a grieving heart.

Than I started my walk to the center of my town and enjoyed the beauty of nature. I contemplated about the river of life, never stuck, but in an everlasting flow, as all is in constant movement, renewal and change. I asked the river to take with him, all that is no more needed in my life. That´s the reason why I love to take walks along water, I always do that and can really recommend it. Letting go of lessons learned and enjoying the everlasting freshness of life.

 

The freeing of the throat chakra

I am living a life that is filled with wonders. It really is, they are sometimes happening to me, sometimes happening through me or witnessed by me. Often these wonders have had many little steps of preparing before a huge groundbreaking step could be made, that seems like an unbelievable wonder, coming out of the blue. Literally in this case, as the color of the throat-chakra is blue.

I have been silenced and killed for speaking my truth so very often, like so many of us have been. Experiencing to stay in silence when we should have spoken up, or to have spoken, when we should´ve stay silent. Whatever we did, it always had lead into trauma of some kind.

Exactly one year ago I was told by a guy that I should be more careful with my self-expression, as I´d not be aware of the power of my words. I looked at him and thought that he is not aware, that this power he projected onto me, was also his own and that he silenced me so often in other lifes because he struggeled with his own power and voice. Well, this time he didn´t kill me physically, but took my voice in other ways with much cruelty. We were a perfect match of suppressed self-expression. But it could do me no real harm, as I am using all adversities now  as stepping stones and try to transmute all energies. And a lot of it had to do with freeing my throat and taking back my voice.

I have described a few weeks ago in a blogpost, how my creativity had been suppressed in my childhood and how I had started with writing almost 12 years ago. Many things happened to free my throat in these years. Bringing out my first two books the last 5 years, I have had  a writers podcast, I´ve been creating this blog a year ago, in a language that I almost not even dared to speak, because of mean mocking about my abilities to express myself in english. In the beginning of 2017 I even started to have little vids on a YouTube-Channel and I recorded two guided meditations into the “Inner Rosegarden”. Recently I had started a german blog about my childhood abuse and speaking about my true self as a Healer of Hearts. I have started to express myself in many ways, but I never dared to sing, as I´ve been unable to hold the tone and have been deeply shamed for that. I had also described in that blogpost how I nevertheless once have sung a song to my daughter when she was a baby and how she had felt the love in my voice and stopped crying and fell asleep.

But still I couldn´t hold a tone and was very shy even when singing a happy birthday together with others when my voice was hardly heared at all. Well, yesterday I went to an online meeting for “Balancing your throat chakra”.

Today I suddenly starting singing. And don´t get me wrong, I´ll not start a new business and I will not become a great singer. But I used my voice naturally, expressing my feelings openly and not feeling ashamed at all. To prove it I have today recorded the song I have been singing to my daughter as a baby. It was created out of two Elvis-Songs, that came to my mind that night 30 years ago, when I had tried to comfort my crying daughter. Today this song, you hear when opening the link: The freeing of the throat-chakra had closed a beautiful circle. I have just changed the lyrics a little bit.

A deeply felt “Thank you” to everyone, that helped me to become free, like a bird in a tree.

Receiving the Monthly Rose Touch myself

Yesterdays Monthly Rose Touch-Session had so beautiful energies in it. I felt really happy, light and joyful, when the energies where transmitting. And I was sweating really hard, as so much energies came through, it was really an intense experience.

As always, I´d love to hear about experiences from participants, if they feel like sharing, cause I am learning myself every session. But you all felt great from my perspecive 😉

Yesterday the session had overlenght and at the end I received the RoseTouch myself, what is not always the case. The reason why I am sharing my own experience is, that by sharing we are learning and gaining greater understanding.

Being a healer doesn´t spare us ailments and hardship. Just the opposite. Many of us went through tough times as a prepation for our calling. It is important to understand that our ailments aren´t the real problem. They are no punishment and they do not show up to make us suffer. They show up, as a call to release the suffering and pain, that already exists. There is already an imbalance and the ailment brings it into awareness. And very often we incarnate into a family that has that issue since a long time.

I have had a difficult month, as really traumatic suppressed childhood memories showed up. And it´s not only been this memories I had to deal with, but it changed the perspective on my whole life, what felt like totally loosing ground. And that had an impact on my physical body as well, that reacted with all kinds of stuff. I am a healer of hearts, I know not much about physical illnesses. But I experienced again and again that physical ailments have a root in energetic imbalance and therefore healing the emotions, bringing in awareness, changes the body often also.

When remembering the sexual abuse in an already totally disturbing childhood it was literally a shock to my whole system. I really have to thank my daughter, as she recognized the shock and provided first-aid. I learned from that, that nothing is more important after a shocking experience, than to give a safe space where one can process the experience. I didn´t have a safe space in childhood, therefore the shock was frozen (trauma is out of my point of view a frozen state, a time-trap). When it now showed up, there was first the same experience to not have a safe space to process, until my daughter recognized that and helped me.

And I´ve gotta say that in the beginning I really wondered if I would be able to continue my work as a healer without any impact, cause I went through flashbacks and a lot of physical stuff, that´s been typical for trauma. But when I felt inside, the Rose always sended calm, loving signals, so I tried to just relax and trust.

I had a really hard moment when I remembered how my abuser, who died 1981, had contacted me arround 2009/2010. Well, dead people have never been dead to me, but normally I met them in my dream-state at night. His way to contact me was unusual, first showing his presence with inner pictures and than coming through, while I was chatting with a clearvoyant friend in another town. She saw and heared exactly the same I did. I saw it and she typed it. And today I know why she witnessed it. She was the perfect energetic match. Well, when he came through he had a personal message for my mother. In the end, he told me he´s sorry and showed me a Rose and golden Light. I will never forget this experience, because I felt the loving energies of the Rose, what is unforgettable. Just I didn´t understand the Rose he gave me, cause it would take 7 years before I´d experience it again, to than embody it myself. At that time I had accepted his appologize, but now I had to understand what he was really sorry for. I will not go into any details, but it´s been really traumatic. He´s been an alcoholic and I´ve been living alone with him. And than he was the one to show me the Rose-Energy? Hard to  process.

Well, there is always a bigger plan. After my journey to Israel 2015 I had contacted Kahuna Kalei, as I was so often told about my mission while that journey and I could feel it, but didn´t know how to bring it into my life. She told me to do Inner Child Work and that I had chosen this lifepath by intend, to show and teach what I learned. She also said, I had experienced so much sadness in my life out of contrast, as I wanted to bring my true essence, joy, here. She told me my childhood was a preparation for my calling. Just, at that time I didn´t know that it had been worse than I already knew.

So when I went up yesterday morning I was a bit unsure how the first group session would work out. Could I hold the energies as always? Well, yes, I could. And I received extralessons and teachings. I went out in nature, as always when preparing for the group session. The energies where building up beautifully and the picture above was taken under an apple tree. I ended my walk at a place with Rosebushes and benches, that is nearby my home. I sat at one of the benches, recognizing arround another bench there was dirt and broken beerbottles on the ground. I thought how strange it is that people come to such a lovely place to than create such a mess. Well, I looked at the Roses and felt the beautiful energies building up, when a young man came along with a sixpack. He chose the bench where all the dirt was, sat down, opened a bottle and dropped the bottle cap on the ground. I felt a bit uncomfortable as his energy really didn´t fit with the Rose and I always make sure to not interrupt the process of the building up energies. Well, plus I still felt kind of vulnerable, because of my childhood memories with the alcoholic. I felt inside, what to do and received the answer to stay and focus on the Roses, maybe to stand up and take a few pictures for Facebook. I felt better, when I moved arround to find the right angle to make a nice snapshot. Suddenly I recognized a strange movement from the bench with the beer-drinker. As if he would stoop down and hide behind a column. Weird. As he didn´t come closer, I kept on taking pictures of nicely blooming roses. The guy stood up, went to a trash-can to put the empty bottle there and than went away. As I´ve been in a totally other mood, it took me a while until I realized that he had thought, I might take pictures of him and he might get a bill from the municipal for cleaning-up all the mess arround the bench. Same situation, two people, totally other reality. Gorgeous lesson!

Than the Rose started talking, saying she ´s got a message for all victims of abuse or violence of any kind: “The experience is temporary, the villain in a suffering, very unconscious state. Do not join him there. Focus on your Inner Rosegarden, your true core. It stays whole, untouched and pure – always.”

I went home very happy. And later, when the transmission took place I felt so much love, joy and fun. Very high, light vibrations flooding through me to the participants. I was very glad that my memories didn´t create a blockage or anything like that, so I´ll be able to keep on with this beautiful work. At the end of the session, that had overlenght yesterday, I´ve been told to lay my left hand on my solarplexus and the right hand on my sacral-chakra, where I had the most trouble with, and I received the Rosetouch myself. Than the Rose gave me teachings, saying that even the drunken guy felt his behaviour was  not appropriate, when a much higher energy was present. She said the bad boys do not want to be exposed, because they fear punishment, but also because when they are exposed they would have to face their own behaviour and make the unconscious conscious, what they do not want. She than told me it´ll be part of my work in the future to help those woman that want to leave their trauma behind. They have to feel safe and empowered, to leave the victim mentality and build up their lifes out of a state of strenght.

The Rose is bringing to everyone what s/he needs to reconnect with their divine blueprint. Everyone has therefore a very unique experience. Sharing those is perfect, so not everyone has to make the same.

So, these are my insights:

  • We all need sometimes help.
  • The evolvement never stops.
  • All is conspiring in our favour, when we allow it.
  • We choose our frequency and the frequency chooses the perception of a situation.
  • Noone is condemned. No villian will be punished. They even try to help, when they finally really understand what they did.
  • Do not join the perpetrator in his vibration.
  • There is a masterplan at work, to turn even the worst into a blessing.
  • Love is the ultimate Masterhealer.

Thank you to everyone, walking this path and shining the light!