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The I-dentity Game

From the first day when we arrive on earth people tell us

a) who we are

b) who we are supposed to be.

To me that´s been the biggest issue on my spiritual path. a + b used to disconnect me from my true self and spirit.

It´s the cause of all self worth issues on this planet and the root of all the distortions we create.

Until this very day people throw their judgements onto me. My spiritual path makes me “crrrazy” in their eyes. My dedication to my path is seen as “naive”, “pointless”, “unrealistic” by people whom see success only when it comes in titles and money. Oh, and  don´t  get me wrong, being judgemental is not only an issue of everydays people, the spiritual communities are sometimes even worse, as there are a lot of people in it who want to be better in some way. The spiritual role can be totally distorted. They have just changed their topic from youthfulness and versace to yoga-positions and vegan cheese. It´s still an attempt to make the own ways the better and the other as “less”.

And all of it has been just an issue as long as I accepted it. When I look back it didn´t even matter if I still believed in their judgement or later felt into my inner truth and resisted their accusations. It really doesn´t matter if we buy into the ways of the distorted ego, or fight and resist it – we still feed it when we give any attention or energy into it. Until we don´t. End of game.

Dare it. Don´t compromise yourself for false friends. Be true to yourself and it won´t really matter who you loose, all you will win is your time, money, energy and self worth. Someone elses point of view has nothing to do with our own relationship with ourselves. What is the one that really counts on the long run.

All else might come and go, but “you with you” – that´s for eternity.

The ego, what is a huge topic in many spiritual teachings, is only arising when the self is denied. There´s no need to deny or fight the ego, if we allow us to simply be, the ego will no longer be an issue. It´s the ultimate coming home.

Please never feel bad about the human experience. Once we chose to express ourselves in the adventures of physical experiences, where we feel apart from source. There´s nothing wrong about it, we are the bravehearts of the multiverse for going into this density. And when we incarnate we need a kind of identity, so we create roles. But it should be our own creation and choice and we should be aware that we can change it every moment, as we are a fractal of all that is, free to be whatever we choose. The ego is arising the moment when we deny ourselves for the above mentioned a + b of others. It has invested in the lies and holds on to them for dear life. Have compassion for its fears, but choose your true, eternal being.

How can we know if it is a false identity or our true self, that we express? Whenever we act out of our true being, we feel in alignment with creation. We feel at peace and at ease. Often we can experience this kind of flow when we are creative in some way. For me writing for example feels natural, as I am at ease and love this kind of selfexpression. There´s no time when I am in the flow. Also nature works for me and many others to get in touch with the eternal self.

The more exhausting an identity, a role, is – the further it is apart from our real self.

That´s why a job for a paycheck is often exhausting and our true calling is normally fun. Well, and often the pressure is what kills the pleasure. We have to create out of an inner passion and fire, coming from our soul, otherwise we lose even interest in our most beautiful activities.

May you be happy with no ending. One and in love with your true self.

The new New Age – Beyond black´n white

I never fitted in. The “normal” society thinks me to be really weird, although they know not more of my real life, as that I am using alternative medicine and that I meditate. That´s already strange enough for them, but that´s just as much as they can accept. They do not know that I´m working as an energetic healer, as their perception is limited and metaphysics is for them fantasy or deception. Well, when my new book is coming out in a few month, they´ll know it. Might cost me the job that is paying my rent, what feels quite uncomfortable to be honest. But I´ve gotta be me, no matter who likes it or not.

Well, I´ve also never fitted into the New Age Community. I´ve been drinking coffee long before Lee Carroll and Geoffrey Hoppe made that acceptable. I´m wearing black very often, and often with intense colors on it, as black makes them even more shiny, I love that. I´ve been criticized  so often by the ones believing that wearing white would make them purer and better than me. For sure they need to be. Well, Paulo Coelho and Gregg Braden do also prefer black mostly, but noone would criticize them, cause they are famous. Others gossiped because of my overweight and the holy ones may be even more malicious as the normal folks. I´ve recognized it and could love them anyway, cause I know about their low self-worth, that needs to feel better than others. The New Age community often had just chosen other boxes, but until now not so many did really leave them behind.

Whenever I met those of ancient traditions, they never criticised my clothes or my overweight. The Shamans that crossed my path, whatever color they´ve been wearing,  spotted me in the biggest crowd, looked me in the eyes, smiled and nodded while passing by or layed their hand on the heart and bowed. They do not need to be right or better, they know their own I AM, so they can with ease honor mine.

I do also not fit in spiritual groups, as I enjoy the teachings, but sooner or later I will mirror the oppressed shadow of the guru aka teacher, and who wants to see and transmute that? I´ve been an invitation to be whole, instead of playing holy, but they normally chose other and that´s fine for me now. It used to make me feel lonely. But I found out that I´m in good company when being with me and that I will not pay the prize to sell myself, just to be accepted in someone elses box. I´m living in a city near the frontiers to france and switzerland and that mirrors my being, as I´ve always loved diversity. I´ve danced to “Highway to hell” so wild and joyful every devil would´ve felt his forgotten heart and I prayed for the peace of this world with the devotion of an angel and to me that´s not been a polarity, but life unfolding naturally.

I didn´t fit in, cause I represented the shadow, the very thing that society oppressed. The unwanted. But the treasure is in the shadow, as this is what makes us whole again. The normal society suppressed the magic of life. And the wanna-be-holies they´ve suppressed all they assumed as “not holy”, as its been too profane for their holy butts, producing only unicorn-poo.

I do not want to fit in anywhere no more, I came to go beyond it. I am the one knowing that all is holy. The dirt of the earth is divine, a Rocksong may be disturbing, or express the joy to be alive…it´s up to you, what you do with it. I´m going beyond black´n white. I´m the new New Age, as beloved Suzana named it yesterday in one of her many genius moments.

The new New Age is inclusive. It´s not denying the magic and it doesn´t wanna escape in Ivory Towers. I was 20 years old, when I stated: “Going into the Himalaja and getting enlightened is easy. Do it in everydays life, that´s a bit more challenging.” We didn´t come to escape this earth. We wanted to change her, through us. Not by building new boxes.

The wind that is playing with my hair, the sun kissing my rosy cheeks, the child coming along and exchanging smiles with me, the cat on the street, the coffee in my cup, my huge buddha-belly, the bird in the tree and the drunk homeless, they are all holy. Nothing of it is less, as all has the divine in it, otherwise it wouldn´t exist.

The new New Age goes beyond black´n white…it is colorful, just like life itself. I did not write this article to offend anyone, I´ve just expressed myself. I do not need likes, I do not need followers and I do not need approval. But I´ve gotta be me, in all my perfect imperfection. The ones that are my tribe understand that, the rest may do whatever pleases them, they are just as free as I am, shining my light and enjoying theirs.

 

2017 – The year of new beginnings

Welcome everybody in 2017, the year of new beginnings. May all of you fulfill your dreams and experience lots of joy, love,  health and wealth.

Whats in the store for 2017? I´ve received two messages for 2017. The most important key in this year will be to express the true self. I´ve recieved the message that 2017 “people will show their true colors”. In some cases that will be surprising or even shocking, as “people won´t be able to hide”. We all have been educated to behave in a special way, to develop a false persona. It won´t be possible to hide behind this mask in 2017.

In some cases even our own behaviour will be surprising to us, as we don´t like our true self, that´s the reason for the mask. But there´s no other way to become a balanced and healed being, but to do your shadow work. Behind the shadow lies you biggest treasure. And your treasure will also surprise you in 2017. Be who you are, not what the world expected you to be. Love yourself truly, that´s the healing for all shadows. There´ll be a few postings this year about this issue, as this is one of my specialities and might be the reason why I´ve recieved this message.

Another important issue this year will be to “come together with like-minded”. Cooperations, groups and cocreation of all kinds will be very important. There will be lots of opportunities to come together for all kinds of reasons. Life is a rich bufet in 2017. How to choose? Ask your heart, not your mind. That will be very important. And be honest with each other to built healthy relationships of all kinds. It´s not the time to hide your intend, but to express your wants and needs.

May 2017 bring you way more than you can dream of now.

Shine your light!