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Twin Flames – The purifying Love

Meeting your Twin is the most purifying love experience you will ever have. It will bring up everything in your being that isn´t balanced.

It may seem like heaven and hell at once, as your reactions towards each other can be really extreme and only someone who has met his/her own twin can understand what´s going on. The rest of the world might just think you are crazy.

As we know how unusual this experience is, but also how important on your souls journey, we bring together 3 of us Twins on next Friday, May 25th 2018 for a quantum healing webinar about the topic of the twin flame. No matter if you met your Twin already or want to prepare yourself for this magic moment, you might benefit greatly from this event. Therese Wenk and me are collaborationg again on this event, to work with the participants on an energetic level, as we are both quantum healers. My speciality is more on the emotional level, while Therese is more focussed on the DNA and this combo really rocks, as we can offer you a state of emotional balance and if you choose so, assist you to anchor it on the physical level.

For me personally meeting my Twin was something I didn´t understand at that point in time and that literally brought me to my knees. Although I thought for a while I might be cursed because of the intensity of the experience, it has really been a blessing as it was a major step on my own journey until I finally became the ” healer of hearts”. To meet my twin cracked my heart open and teached me unconditional love. What many people don´t want to accept is, that you have to become whole within yourself, have balanced your own inner male/female aspects to be able to live the heavenly version of the Twin Flame Story. So instead of focussing on what the other is doing wrong or how terrible outer conditions are, it´ll benefit you more when going inside and taking full responsibility for your own Souls Journey. Love yourself unconditionally, integrate all your aspects, including your shadows, is the key to be ready for this epic Lovestory. As it is epic as can be. When two come together, who are already whole within themselves, they can literally move mountains. Nothing is impossible for true love. May you find it…and embody it.

Shine your Lovelight <3

Save your seat, by clicking on this link. For live-participants the replay is inclusive. If you can´t make it at the given time, register anyway, as this is taking place in the quantum field and the replay is just as effective as being a live-participant. To buy the replay later just use the same link. If you prefer to enter live, check out your timezone, to convert 7 p. m. Berlin/Zurich into your local time.

Dying to be me

Last year  I experienced 3 major steps on my path.

1.) I wondered why I had still attracted abusive people. The answer was a shock. Literally frozen in time for 40 years and opening my eyes for some ugly stuff around me.

2.) An shadow-aspect returning home and the message that “the Master is in the House”. Too funny, I couldn´t remember to have asked for him to come in, but maybe that´s been the reason why he was able to enter. Well, with the integration of my shadow, things seemed to be already brighter. Until…

3.) I was told by my eternal self that I have to die. And that there´s a choice to be made by me. The choice to be reborn in the same body or to come in again as a newborn. I was shown my potential parents, their energetic body coming together in an act of love to conceive the new life. I saw the energetic body of the fetus in the mothers womb, felt the love she held for the little one – what could be me. I´ve gotta say that this felt really attractive to me, as it´s been the very opposite of this lifetime. A fresh start under conditions that are loving and supportive felt really good. The other option was to be reborn in the same old body. And I was told this would be the harder option, as changing while staying the same is way more difficult. I chose the difficult version. Of course.

I was not sure if the message was understood, as I still felt the new body calling me. So I even wrote a letter adressed at my daughter, just in case…

But my choice was heard, cause when I woke up in the morning, a few days later, my whole surrounding felt totally strange to me. At least I changed my incarnation while sleep-time, that´s been a goodie. But still not that funny, as I had lost all attachment and interest to the things that once have been mine. Loosing attachment sounds nice…it´s not in real. I can hardly describe what was going on with me. I doubted if I might have lost my mind. I was so unattached, that I could walk out of me door the very next minute and never wanting to look back, no thoughts and feelings about the old would arise. My birthchart has had lots of earth in it, so this was really weird for me.

The strangest thing was, that all was the same, but I am not. It is really like a new incarnation. Love is the only thing that remained. I will always love my daughter, no matter what body or incarnation or relationship we have. And I love cats and coffee and the starlight. And Love itself of course.

The real difficult thing was that people expected me to be the same, plus even if I had no real attachments, I still had tendencies for some behaviours, that I had to get rid off. That´s why dying is much easier, than staying in the body. When you die everyone accepts that you are not available. But when they see the same body, they´ll blame you for not being and behaving like you are supposed to – from their point of view. But of course, it doesn´t matter what someone expects, we are the ones who have to take ownership of our behaviours…no one else can be blamed for what is our responsibility. So I tried to look as normal as possible, while unbecoming what I am not.

Dying alive was a hell of a ride, while I am in total peace, holding hands and having a melt-in with all of me, loving all of me. Well and of course a million angels, incarnated or not, trying to assist me. Two of them I have chosen to cooperate with for a quantum healing space about abuse. That´s been done to the most beautiful Souls and we need them being themselves again. Whole and complete. Well today Therese offered me spontaneously to have a look, what´s still missing in my field. She´s an awesome healer. Well actually she´s been a midwife today. She´s been handed the last missing piece to be integrated again. My divine blueprint, the innocent baby child …the aspect, that´s still been missing. Dying, to be reborn. Hallelujah.

A month filled with gratitude

Four weeks ago I started my new webinar-series “The Attitude of Gratitude”. I mirrored these 28 days with short entries in a gratitude-journal, that I posted at the Facebook-page of the webinar. I use this journal on a regular basis, as we tend to forget the blessings we receive on our path. As most people, including me, have been raised in the consciousness of lack, it needs continuity to change such a deeply engrained mindset. It´s also not enough to understand things mentally, we have to change them with our daily actions. We didn´t enter as a thoughtform, but went with intend into the physical body. If we do not embody these thoughts, bring them down to earth with our daily actions, we have not changed anything at all.

When we stay aware, we always learn a lot, even when we are the ones teaching, and so I´m grateful for a lot of insights. One is, that this webinar-series is really needed, as the virus of lack holds this planet in his claws, causing unbelievable pain and distortion. Therefore when trying to move beyond lack, we had to deal with shadows and resistance, that wouldn´t show up if I would sell sugarpills. But I´m here to bring real changes, lead people out of the known, and this is bringing up the shadows. I knew that, but I will focus in my work generally a bit more on that topic and a new category in my blog will be about shadow work. Jupiter is going into Scorpio soon and there´ll be a lot of dark stuff coming up. It can not be other, as we fear and resist change and there´s a whole lot of changin´going on. Rock´n Roll, Baby. Well, one important lesson in my webinar is about the understanding, that all is working for us and therefore we have to value and respect the shadows when they show up. These are gifts, too. Sometimes the biggest.

Another point in my webinar was, that we always have to be clear about the foundations in our lifes. These are areas, where it is very naturally to us, to attract abundance. Everyone has them and they are our basics and related to our gifts. In my case, that´s wisdom, information, insights. They flow to me with no effort at all, because I love to receive and give forth this flow with much love. And so this month was filled with lots of messages and beautiful sharing of wisdom and inspiration. Sometimes in the most beautiful ways. But we must be able to recognize the gifts on our path. Today I went through the city-center. It´s been a rainy day over here, people were hurrying along, as if on a hunt. I could sense their urge to buy stuff, but catched also energies of lack, thoughts about credit-card-limits and more worries about money. In between this scenario I saw how someone had put two huge boxes on the ground and a message “For free”. One box was filled with clothings and another one with books. I sensed into the crowd and wondered, why people worried about money, but didn´t even look at the boxes, if something of value is in it. Well many people do not value what they get for free. When I went by, I looked into the boxes. The clothes in that box were for a small person and I thought: “Well, I´ve got more than enough to wear and to read. I hope someone will see and enjoy it.” I was already past that box, when I got a message from the inner master. “Go back, the book on top, on the left side, take it, that´s for you.” I went back and took that book. It looked almost new, just one huge dog-ear marked one side.  I also mark important sides in a book that way, it´s a pattern. The one that gave the book away, had the same. It marked the beginning of chapter 22. Yes, this book was a divine gift. Thank you, dear spirit-guides, for always leading me perfectly.

And they do. That´s another blessing I receive again and again. I´ve got my 24/7 direct line and this month has been rich with wonder and blessings. No, I didn´t win the lottery, but I found things that are of much greater value, as they cannot be taken.  I even received a promise that I´ll always have what I need. The Israelites had it when walking through the dessert, being fed daily, but complaining for 40 years. I will not, as I feel blessed. Heaven loves me, as I love myself. The master is lovingly benching with his aspects, even with lack. I am blessed and I meet people that are a living blessing. When we are able to stay in our heart and connect with others from heart to heart, that´s a state of being, that´s even far beyond grateful.

How to get there? Shine your light…

Freeing shadows and opening the round table

Every time we experience something that we can not handle and are not able to deal with, an aspect of ourselves is split apart. He is than living in the shadows, holding the unwanted.

When wanting to become whole again, there is no other way but going into the shadows and opening up for these abandoned parts of us. In the shadows are our painful experiences, trauma, anger, fear etc. We do not want them. Especially in the new age community is a tendency to create a holy image of ourselves, that for example does not allow us to become angry. We want to create peace and harmony, therefore we do not allow our angry aspects to exist. I am someone who absolutely loves to focus on the positive in life. I love joy, happiness, creativity and peace. But I have experienced it myself firsthand and witnessed it with others, that there is no way to move ahead and to leave aspects of us behind. And think about it. How cruel is it to not allow all of you to exist? That´s not enlightened, that´s faint-hearted. If you try to escape yourself, you´ll experience these unwanted parts on the outside and they might easily go on a rampage. Whatever shows up on the outside, that you really, really dislike, is something that is also existing in your own shadows. Whenever you point fingers, three of your own fingers are pointing on yourself. And the more you deny them to exist, the more distorted the shadow will show up on the outside, until the issue is “right in your face”. You can than blame the other for all that isn´t working in your life. This is your free choice. Just you will run in circles and repeat the same story again and again. You can put the unwanted even in a box, label and compartmentalize it: “Men are relentless” or “Rich people are thieves” or “Woman are weak”. These will than become your filters of perception and seeing the world through these filters, you will block everything that doesn´t fit into your mental boxes. You will meet a thousand weak woman until you turn your attention inside and meet your own fear of being somehow weak and vulnerable.

In my own case it have had aspects of myself that I somehow saw as male, that I disliked. I couldn´t deal with anger and aggression, as these had caused trauma in my life. Well, when I made contact with my own male aspects a few years ago I realized I have had pastlifes as a warrior and that these aspects have been able to violate others, what is a horror to my sweet, loving aspects. The unwanted has been living inside of me. 4 years ago I decided to marry myself and to bring these “male & female” aspects together. Such an integration happens in many layers, but my aspects became coworkers. My warrior loves and protects “his lady” with all of his might. Cause when we release the unwanted aspects, they free also the gifts and talents they have been hiding in the shadows.

When the lightworker abandons his inner warrior he might fall prey for the wolves and he might lack the power and strenghts to bring out his gifts to this world. The divine makes no mistakes, our soulaspects are in their sum perfect to create exactly the personality we came to embody. So do not doubt the heavenly architect, that builded your house and welcome all the inhabitants.

I´m very glad to give love and acceptance to all of me now, to create my queendom. I was a bit astonished when I saw how my inner male aspect turned out to be a noble knight. He even showed me a round table and seated all the other aspects at this table. This is how we become whole again. So this shadow-aspect became a blessing. My very sensitive female side, when being one with the fiercy bold warrior, knows her path and noone is able to stop her or to make her walk someone elses path. She doesn´t buy others people shit anymore and if others try to harm her, she steps aside with a gentle smile to let them fall into their own traps. The warrior, married to the priestess, knows there are no enemies, but that others need their lessons, too. How else would they ever start to integrate and love all of their aspects?

Outer Authorities or Self-Responsibility

The actual Full-Moon in conjunct with Pluto in Capricorn brings  issues with authorities, structures and rules into the collective consciousness. There´s a great tension between these issues, represented by Capricorn, and its opposite sign Cancer, that represents our emotional side, our feelings, our family and roots. This happens on a global and on a personal level.

It reflects a problem humanity has to face at the moment. Humanity is going through a kind of puberty, it wants to grow up. Outer structures, rules and authorities are holding us back. Unless we decide we don´t let them and do things our way.

Well, we have to, there´s no other way to find our freedom to express ourselves. But one thing is for sure: humanity will make a lot of mistakes until they´ll be grown-up.

I´m a double-capricorn and lots of my close friends and mates have represented the cancer-principle. The opposite always shows what we need to become whole, therefore it attracts each other. I love the emotional, sensual side of Cancer. And they for sure love something about me, maybe a feeling of safety and being grounded.

In the collective Cancer is representing the child, the emotions. And well, in this world full of structures and rules we all have a wounded inner child inside of us, that has not been allowed to express its innocence, creativity and playfulness. We really have to express these aspects of us to heal. We can not grow up when our inner child is hurt. We might “play” adult, what we did for so long now, but we won´t be, unless our inner child is healed.

Each starsign has a distorted and a healed expression. Cancer, when not transmuted, can be the kid that goes totally on our nerves: demanding, moody, passiv-aggressive drama-queens. They feel what they feel and can not understand that others have their own wants and needs. They believe themselves to be the one and only god and all else do just exist to please them. But don´t tell them, cause they are easily hurt, and if so, they might get an anger-attack and destroy all that comes their way.

Well and healed they are very loving, caring, intuitive, nurturing, creative, empathic Artists, having a great love for this Planet. You cannot help it, but love them, and being with them makes this world colorful and joyful, a never-ending sensual party and adventure. We need that to make our next step.

And now you have the distorted Capricorn: the authority, law, cold, rigid, stubborn rule-maker, over-ambitious and running for fame and fortune, diamonds and gold. But don´t tell them, cause they might put you into a prison-cell for the rest of eternity and never again look at you, until you forget yourself, that you ever existed.

Well and healed Capricorns take responsibility, have great awareness and deep wisdom and compassion. They give stability, safety and are able to overcome all obstacles and to create the impossible. They bring things into reality. We need that, to make our next step.

We all blame the rigid structures of the old earth, but it is also the childish egoistic behaviour, that has harmed this planet. When two unhealed aspects blame each other, that´ll bring no solution. Unfortunately we´ll see a lot of childish anger-burstouts and rigid, stubborn authorities…both fighting for power. Happens at Hamburg while the G20 just right now.

We have to be responsible for our own actions, than no outer authority can stop us. Not blaming the other, but learning from them, while focussing on our path. When you want to create a Yoda-Style Zen-Master, one who really rocks, you have to use the healed aspects of Cancer and Capricorn (plus the other 10 signs). Be self-responsible, while you giggle your way through this world, seeing obstacles as a game, that you´ll resolve in a creative way, never loosing the goal, while going with the flow. That might bring a New Earth,  just by using “the force” that exists in all that is.

Why all spiritual teachings fall short

When we teach with words and concepts we come to a point where they can no longer teach. Where the path cannot be described, but has to be experienced without concepts.

First of all because every path and experience is different. There is a reason why the divine took endless roads to return to itself. And second because we have an idea of the meaning of words, what is filtering ideas, but the path goes beyond.

There are teachings that say we loose the I am, while I perceive it as the understanding and integration of the I am.

There are teachings, saying that the ego has to die, while I perceive it the way that it just doesn´t matter any more. No-thing is dead, all is a-live.

There are people describing the nothingness, while I perceive it as the “all”.

Because of the concepts and descriptions people take sometimes strange roads, when they follow them, instead their own inner guidance.

They hunt the ego, wherever they perceive it and so they create a new i-dentity, the ego-hunter. I´m laughing my divine ass off. Yes, I still have an ass that is perceived as mine in this moment although I know it is also not.

They become so holy, that they deny the expressions of divine, that are “not holy”. To me that is a joke, there is nothing that isn´t divine.

They suppress their feelings, cut off what had overwhelmed them, and declare their  robotic state of beingness as evolved. Well, I feel more than ever, I come to my senses, able to feel even a stone on the other side of the town.

They focus on one aspect of their being, the enlightened one, and ignore all else. But god/dess is not ignorant, but present in everything.

There is no right way, just the own way. Someone talking about the own way may inspire others, just like I do, but the own way can only unfold in a unique way. Why would the divine send out endless different aspects? There is no mistake in that. So enjoy your own path, no matter which one you choose to experience.

Shine your light and don´t mind your ego, identity, right, wrong, better, less, holy, unholy. Just be and have fun…or not 😉 <3

Visit your own past and future – How I became my own angel

Our consciousness knows no limits. We have created the limits as we had to focus and function on a 3D-Level. But our heart-consciousness doesn´t know these limits, as I experience while my Rose-Sessions again and again. And recently I´ve even experienced twice a kind of time-traveling, that I want to share this with you, to inspire you to love and heal yourself.

A few weeks ago a disturbing, suppressed memory of an abuse, when I was around 8 or 9 years old, showed up. It´s been a very traumatic experience and in this very specific memory, I was so frightened that I remember to have left my body and I remember that I was astonished that when I opened my eyes again, that I´ve been still alive and in my bed as I had thought to die. Over the next days more details showed up and I was glad that I didn´t had to deal earlier with these memories, as I now know how to handle it.

Some years ago I had been at an event with Alberto Villoldo, who had talked about bringing aspects of the own soul back, that had split apart while trauma. After the event I bought a book about that process for someone I knew to have these splits, without knowing that one day this knowledge would help myself. And  over the last years I had sended sometimes a lovewave or a hug into my own past, as a lot of my childhood has been disturbing, and it felt good to give my child-self the love she had missed. But now when I found this memory of deep trauma I went into a special state of mind and I imagined to go to myself as a child and to hold myself in the arms and to talk to myself while that abuse to give my child-self the feeling of safety and comfort. Well, I did that process late in the evening and fell asleep shortly after that special time-traveling. When my adult self woke up the next morning I had a memory that as a child a presence, that I had assumed to be an angel, had been with me that traumatic night. Isn´t that strange, that I seemed to have changed my past and that I had been my own angel? But very beautiful and healing.

Well I´m training my heart-mind coherence at a class of Shamir Ladhani, who a few days ago teached such a trauma- time-traveling in his “Monday Morning Espresso Shot”, a free webinar he´s giving every monday. His description is pretty close to my shamanic approach and I loved it. He recorded the webinar and so you´ll find how to do it, if you need and want to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A-gwXVDmup0

And it´s been also Shamir who asked his participants while another class to send a loving signal into the future. That´s been the second unusual experience that I had, cause when I did so, I received a loving echo from my own future-self, that felt very light and joyful. Amazing!

One could say, that these experiences are just an imagination. And I cannot prove, that I have changed my past or my future. But I see it that way: When I give my past or future self what they need, I am here and now in a healed and happy state of mind. I´m a pragmatic capricorn, I do not care very much about theories, when I have one fact that really rocks: It works!

Feel inspired and shine your light!

 

The treasure in the dark – New video available

In this video, I am offering a point of view that helped me personally to overcome painful experiences in my past. I´ve been stumbeling a few weeks ago over suppressed traumatic memories out of my own childhood. I´m very glad that these memories didn´t show up earlier in my life, as I know now how to integrate these aspects.

But when dealing with painful experiences, there is often a voice in our heads, that cannot understand the “Why?”. I try to offer you a perspective, that has been helping me on my path immensely and that is strenghtening instead of feeling victimized.

Let it work for you, not against you.