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Transformation – This is not the end

We are constantly changing. If we would refuse to change, this would be death – and there is no such things as death, not really. So even if we would decide to stay the same old, same old, this is just not possible. All that is alive is constantly changing. Your breath is a good example, as with every breath we are transforming oxygen into carbon dioxide. You can not stay in a human form without this transformation. Refusing to transform is literally excarnating you, what is also a huge transformation.

We are mostly not aware of our transformative processes within us and that´s ok, as there would be a total data-overflow if we would witness consciously every cell and molecule changing every second. But becoming aware how all is unfolding perfectly in its everchanging process can be quite stunning and inspiring.

My own path as a healer is quite funny as I thought for a long time I do not have any biological knowledge and I am also not very much interested in learning about all the medical, physiological stuff. Nevertheless my first try with quantum healing had already been amazing, as a man that had suffered from immense pain because of a lumbal fracture was pain-free instantly and overly happy. We really do not have to know about the details to shift energy and I am good at that. But still my own body is my weak-point, or to be more precise, he shows me very clearly any imbalance in my system. So maybe it is only a weak-point as I have not mastered by now to fine-tune this instrument enough to get the message before it hurts or refuses to work properly.

The area where I am a true alchemist is emotion, energy in motion. Here I am really good, what is making sense for being “a healer of hearts”. Actually I do inspire and assist people transforming these e-motions. As everything is “just energy”, we can play with it, like we play on a piano to bringh forth different sounds. It´s always the same instrument, but an endless variety of songs.

Last weekend I have been participating in “Transformation”, a webinar of my dear collegue Therese Wenk (yes, we are visiting each others webinars, only stupid people think they know and have it all). There´s always more to explore and Therese is having her main focus on the physical body, she´s working a lot with the DNA and the webinar is about activating our original blueprint.

Well, transformative processes are not always nice. Everybody loves butterflies, but we are not aware what the caterpillar goes through to become the flying beauty. He is trapped in a cocoon and loosing his old structure totally. In between he is just a slimy green-brownish soup in a closed environment.

Well, as mentioned before, I am having my greatest difficulties in my body, and so the transformation was physical painful to me and all I could do to help it, was to comfort myself while I had to let go and couldn´t work for two days now.

To be gentle and loving towards ourselves is the best we can always do, while the process is unfolding. It is taking the unnessary pressure out of the system. Letting go is very helpful for emotional transformation. When we allow and master it, we can turn fear into excitement. Anger is compressed passion. Instead of fighting others or the circumstances, we can use it as fuel to go towards the things we want.
And we often hold on to things, persons and circumstances, because we think they would somehow serve us. So if something has to go, let it be. We have to let go, to create the void that brings in the new. Feel into the future, where your butterfly-self is sending out signals, that you can receive now. Happened to me, when I watched Therese´s Transmission for the first time. I received a blissful greating from my future-potentials. The butterfly can hardly imagine why he tried to hold on to the caterpillar.

Happy Transformation <3

The worst thing about abuse…

The worst thing about abuse have in my case not been the abusers. Looking backwards most of these folks have been very distorted and cowardish people, whom have normally been abused themselves.

In most cases abused people become offenders themselves or victims. And believe me it´s not the one chosing the victim-role who is the weak one. Things are seldom as they seem.

I know that I have chosen my life-path with great intend. To stand exactly where I am now!

No, the worst have been the ones knowing what´s happening and going into denial, to not risk their comfort.

The sisters of my abuser, changing the linen of the bed the eight year old shared with an adult man. My mother not wanting to take responsibilty for the life she has brought to earth, so she looked away for more than three years. And it´s been a doctor telling her, he would publicly hold her accountable for having the blood of her own child coming over her, when not taking me out of that household. And it´s not been her conscience, but his authority that saved my life.

Last year, when coming into awareness, leaving victim-consciousness behind, I saw how I still have been emotional and spriritually abused. With such an energetic signature the energy-vampires are always nearby. The Rose itself spoke to me to tell me that “Not all, collecting Roses do it out of love.” Indeed! When I stood up and spoke up for myself, my “sisters” looked away and some even took side for the abusing part. Well, they have chosen and their path is none of my business.

Now that I am at a point where I have found balance in me, against all odds, but with all heavenly forces holding my back, I have received messages myself and through others to help heal the wound that I had to overcome myself. What makes sense of course. I am aware that this brings up all the forces, that benefit from the “divide and conquer”, as I am going far beyond a pitty-party for victims or stupid gender-bashing. I go to the root as I see behind the obvious.

So the newest thing was a porn-vid sended out, with my name and picture on it, via messenger to my facebook-contacs. Pft! Seriously?! How should someone like me, standing so big, strong and tall after all she has experienced, to be offended or silenced with such a scam?! It might damage my FB-friendships or my business, of course. But guess what: That´s working for me, not against me. The ones that are sorted out that way are not the ones I want to have around anyway.

And when I wrote about it in Facebook and made a statement, most didn´t react at all, like always. Not even those that really believed it was me in the porn, found one word! Bravo! The silent masses, that´s what is the worst on this planet. They make all of it possible at all.

It can not touch me anymore. Who I am is not to be defined by the actions or in-actions of others. I have used all on my path to move beyond these games of a distorted duality. But I know one thing: The veil is lifting and the roles people are choosing become obvious. Don´t count on MY silence anymore! I will speak up. My facebook post and my blogpost are not written by someone who is hurt, but by someone who will make the silent m asses visible. I do it for those that have until now not taken their power back, to show them they can find their voice again, too. I do it because of all, who still wish things to be unseen and unspoken, so nothing will change.

To the abusers and enabelers: I welcome your darkness and will weave my magic to make your ways impossible, for a New Earth. The place I decended from to walk my brothers and sisters home. We are many, we are everywhere and nothing will prevent the future as she is already here.

I shine my light, indeed – and whatever you give to me, may it be light or dark, for an Alchema it´s all just fuel. If you stand in the light of my consciousness and see a shadow on the wall, it´s not me being scared and running, that´s for sure!

 

 

 

When people are pain(t)ing reality

The title of this article has been created through a typing error. I love it when my consciousness plays with language to give me insights.

Last year I wrote an article, describing  how people literally do to themselves what they do to us. That they reject, suppress and abandon themselves, not us. For whatever reasons we may have activated or triggered their issue, it is theirs and not ours. It is caused by an emotion that is arising within that person. As she cannot stand it, she´s acting out against the people around her.

People are using their environment as a canvas, where they paint their painful feelings onto. Pain(t)ing reality.

It helped me a lot, when I realized that people just express their own feelings when they interact with others. They express who they are. Seen that way we can not have enemies. We only meet people that are their own enemies, as an inner war is happening within them, that they than start to act out in their environment. They are starting to look out for someone that is making a good canvas. I can sense it often within people when their painbody is starting to poison the consciousness of a person. The person that is than, sooner or later, starting to act out, is not aware of that process. It is not the true essence of that person, but a replay of unprocessed feelings in that person, that are taking over. This replay will happen again and again, until the person gets into a state of awareness and processes these painful feelings and gets free.

When we truly understand that process, how can we than someone hate for being in pain? I don´t. They express who they are. It is their self-expression, chosen in a more or less conscious way. You are not responsible for other peoples projections of pain. But you are responsible for your own (re)action. If you feel attacked or blamed, that might also activate your own pain and triggerpoints. If so, your own unresolved stuff comes up. In the end we might than have two people that seem to be opponents…while in reality both only acted out their own inner fight onto the outer world.

How to avoid it? Try to stay aware. Take responsibility for your own feelings. Understand that “the other” just seems to trigger something, that has been dormant in you all the time. Seen that way the other is a co-worker, playing out the unresolved unless you heal it, let go of it. I have seen it often, that the humans that hurt each other deeply, are really loving each other deeply, seen from the souls perspective.

It is key to try to stay aware and to not get dragged into other peoples pain(t)ful projections. If you can, have compassion for their inner hellish state of being. Tune into your selve. What might it be the other has now awaken within you? Why do you feel triggert? Do not feel bad about yourselve. Give yourself love, compassion and acceptance. If you do not like the experience, the picture the other is painting or awakening within you, choose now what picture you want to create. That´s the alchemy taking place, it is the master, walking this earth.

Shine your light!

 

 

Transmute the energies of your birth-chart

One of my beloved Rose-Sisters wrote a very inspiring article http://www.carolineyazi.com/reflections/read-the-signs/  that I recommend, when wanting to know more about your true mission. I love reading signs myself and she mentioned Astrology as one of the tools to use. And that inspired me to write this article, as I am working with astrology sometimes, when I am not sure what the real issue behind a pattern is.

The way I am using astrology is very much soulutions-style-like. I do not linger in the destructive expressions of an energy, but I look at it to find a way to transmute it. Co-working with the energies to bring forth the most constructive expression. Energetic alchemy. The reason for it is that many years ago, when looking at a chart I realized that people have the most difficult energies in the areas of life, where the hidden treasures are. Therefore I do not only see the obstacles, but also the possibilities in it. The first hides the second. Your blockage will lead you to mastery in the areas that are involved, as I mentioned once in another article.

Now astrology is using symbols for very good reasons. A symbol represents an energy, but you decide in which way to use it. Look at your birthchart: what are the energy-imprints, how do they show themselves in your life? You may look at the symbols that you find in a lot of books and articles in the internet to find inspirations what would be a more constructive way to express the involved energies. Tune in, feel what the message is. Play with it.

Here are some examples out of my own chart, to inspire you how that transmutation might work:

  • I´m a double capricorn. Capricorns may be overambitious, running for power or money. Or they might express integrity, gain self-empowerment and find the inner treasure-chamber. Feels way better.
  • I´ve got Pluto at the beginning of my 8th house. When I was 16 years old I realized that sexual energy could bring me all I could ever dream of, but even the idea felt horrible. This position also brought me to a place where I was working with a lot of money and could´ve easily misused the power. Instead of all of that nonsense, I am using my energetic imprint as an ability to transmute dark energies  and assist people to transform and heal. And I wrote a book about new economy.
  • My Virgomoon in my 7th house can easily tune into other peoples energiefield, analysing their patterns and behaviours. One could misuse that to manipulate people. But I use it in a constructive way to understand people and assist them to overcome their patterns. And of course I use this ability as an energetic healer.
  • My Neptun is in Scorpio, near the MC, what made me wonder a long time in my life, what my “mission” might be. Interestingly enough I struggled with the unknown, but didn´t realize at that time how unusual it was that I always knew that I came in with a mission. How about that topic now? Well, I can sense that I´m on my path, but I do not know what tomorrow will bring. And I am very fine with that.
  • My Piesces-Venus could easily be “all over the place”, but instead of loosing myself, I feel a deep love for all that is, I am connected with creation itself.
  • Having very earthly, but also Piesces/Neptun energy in my chart I felt for a long time a deep inner conflict between my spiritual path and the earthly needs. Now I understand that I am perfectly skilled to bring heaven to earth. I am able to find god in the dirt of the earth.

These are just examples. See the energies in your chart like colors that you may use to paint a picture. How you want to use these colors is up to you. You do not have to express these energies in the way they have been showing up until now. You can change your perception and use these colors/energies in a way that feels much better. Be creative and express your beautiful light!

 

The transformed warrior

The warrior-energies have brought forth so much pain, destruction and distortions on  this planet, that they have been shunned and shamed totally. But as an astrologer and alchemist of the soul I know that every energy might be expressed in a constructive or destructive manner. So I looked for transformation and found it.

The warrior energies are living within me. I´ve had many lives as a warrior, but as the female side has been deeply wounded by the distorted warrior, I have had trouble with accepting these kinds of energies inside of me. But when I did, it brought huge changes into my life and anchored peace in my heart. And as a beautiful, wise old soul told me lately, my compassion is rooted in these experiences as a warrior, what really made sense. I know I´ve been it all myself, so there´s a deep understanding arising out of these lessons.

In http://oneblog.soulutions.one/2017/04/09/the-love-of-your-life/ I´ve described that I´ve stopped my own inner war by marrying these both sides of me: my female side has much of a young maiden, she is shy, poetic and innocent. And my inner male side is deep, tough and powerful. Well, together they bring forth my actual persona.

In the past I really had trouble  to accept the warrior energies. I know I´ve done a lot in other lifetimes that is horrible. Inacceptable for my inner female, that´s been deeply hurt by such actions. But I loved the inner male, the warrior, anyway. It´s my nature to love, no matter what. And that changed him, it transformed the warrior. He went inwards, no more fighting against this world, but standing up for own values. Her values of love. They became  the Knight and the Lady, deeply devoted to their united soul path. The transformed warrior is standing his ground. Never giving up, never giving in. The reason why I am writing about it is, that we will need these energies. The transformed warrior has the power of 300, invincible. It is not enough to sing a song and believe in unicorns to change this planet. It really needs much badass braveheartedness to go for the own transformation and to really change deeply.

You will find how this is also the way to generaly heal the male energies on this planet, that are deeply wounded, distorted and feel abandoned and ashamed of themselves. Love, unconditional love will help the male energies to find their inner core and strenght again. The new earth is not only the goddess rising …it is also the unity and cooperation between male and female.

Shine your brave warrior/goddess light!