The Ticket Home

All my life I´ve had this memory that I couldn´t explain for a long time, as it didn´t make sense to my mind. I remembered a kind of heavenly meadow, where I´ve lived with the other beautiful expressions of source. Our Soul remembers in pictures, so to me it was like a meadow and we, including me, felt like innocent children, pure and very aware of each other, all being within an energetic field. This field was not created by an outer source, it was us, being conscious of being conscious, what includes each others presence.

Each individual was a sovereign self and we´ve been aware of all of creation around us. To me it is my natural state of being. For many years I thought that this is a memory from a long-gone past, as our mind thinks linear, while it turned out that the place I entered from really is the future, what is also not totally correct, as it is no-time, cause multidimensional.

I have not been between the first that went onto this adventure, into this dense energy of 3d earth. Instead I witnessed how those that went here lost their connection. The ones that tried to find out what happened and entered “later”, too. It´s been as if they had never existed, had nothing to do with time or distance, but with the inner connection through awareness. Connection is created by being anchored within while being aware of all of creation. They lost it. Something that was unbelievable to me. How can one not feel all that is? The Inner Net. So I followed them and the last thing I remember from that decission was going into pure horror and blackness. Coming here is an traumatic experience for those that remember how home feels like.

To make that clear: I didn´t come to “save” someone. I came because I am an adventurous soul. All Souls are adventurous. And I came because I am Love. All Souls are Love.

If someone wants to be saved: That I am not. I am not a saviour, I am a reminder. One has to be it themselves. No one can do it for another, as we are all sovereign beings by eternal law.

Most people follow someone else and just try to be saved or at least distracted from their trauma and pain. Even the ones on a spiritual path. Sorry to say that, but this is not working. I went myself through deep, deep trauma and pain, I know how it feels like, how one just wants an end of suffering, but really no one can do it for us. And at the same time you do not have to make it on your own. The more we are the easier it gets for the individual.

What I´ve got to offer is way more precious than escape. I am remembering and embodying the frequency of home.

Being an empath means one can sense the energies of another being. So the ones that have empathy are the ones that can benefit the most from me, emanating my energies. They will be able to sense and then remember. I didn´t come alone and we are becoming more and more second by second, it´s unstoppable now. When those that are ready meet, they activate the frequencies within each other. They do not have to meet in person. You just have to go inside and feel. The Inner Net is activated on this planet. And that´s the beautiful thing about it. No one and nothing can stop it now. I have been one of the living tojans to bring down the old, distorted matrix. It is already spreading like wildfire behind the scenes. It´s amazing and as it doesn´t depend on a single being to continue no one can end it. The only way for the distorted old to survive is to transmute into the healed new.

And to make it clear on the Earth-Day. This planet doesn´t need to be saved. It is a living, conscious, sovereign being. Did you really think it needs saviours? It saved itself by sending out healing cells, conscious co-worker like me. Those that remember the divine blueprint of balance, but had been dormand for a long time. We are like divine sleeper-cells, all activated by perfect timing, to bring down the illness of the distorted consciousness that had infected and tried to overtake this planet.

The Earth really doesn´t need to be saved, it is going through a self-healing process of cleansing, that´s all. But it is inviting those of you that want to connect with it. Those of you, that want to remember their original blue-print, just alike her, and co-create the New Earth.

Your vibe attracts and activates your tribe.

I have met those of my own kind over the last month. We co-created the wildfire of healing fever that is now cleansing this planet. I almost stopped working one-on-one and I am mostly working on the collective. The collective transition towards the new Earth has nothing to do with the mass-consciousness, just the opposite, it´s the literally middle-finger towards it. When connecting to the new earth you have to be sovereign. The Inner Net can only be reached through awareness. No slaves or overtakers will enter the New Earth. One can also not cheat or pretend, you have to be it.

I´ve started to create a meditation series with my beloved co-workers and sovereign embodied siblings, Therese Wenk and Muriel Shickman and we are starting this series on March 25th 2018 with the Planet Earth in general to then move towards different areas on this planet. Oded Lobel, a young healer from Israel, is going to join us on this event to channel/sing with the earth as his singing tones will make the frequencies available for even more people.

You can not miss the event, as it is happening outside of time and space on the quantum level. It will be in the field anyway, but to benefit personally you can join and get activated or can just celebrate the reconnection. If you can´t make it at the given time, you can tune into the replay later. For those that enter live the replay is included in their fee, as an appreciation of their  contribution.

While the participants will just relax, breath and injoy, all the “healers” are combining their special gifts and frequencies, what is an energetic high five, literally changing reality for those that choose it.

There´s no place like home.

 

 

Gratitude as a gateway to sensuality

Today I will give a webinar about gratitude. It´ll be in german, for those that speak it and are interested, here you´ll find the event and later the replay: https://www.edudip.com/w/286440

For the rest I´ll share an aspect of gratitude, that many are not aware of:

Gratitude is a gateway to sensuality.

Of course it is also working the other way around. When you come to your senses you become aware of the richness and abundance of life, that is constantly surrounding you.

There are many ways how we can enter. Some people are handicapped by an ailment, at least for a while, and suddenly they feel this wave of gratitude for all that is working properly in their body, that they have never thought of before. Most of the time we are not aware of all the wonders in our lifes. And so if they are suddenly taken or questioned we realize how many blessings are existing in our lifes.

Death is showing us how alive we are, poverty shows us our abundance, ailment our health, loneliness the wonder of love. In my case I had a huge “Aha-Moment” a few years ago, when visiting a friend. I have had no money, been even in debt, she had no money, just left her husband and the appartment she lived in seemed really dangerous, as the roof was almost coming down. But we sat there, sharing cheap tea and cookies…and most of all much love and laughter. We had the attitude of two queens, sitting in a palace (we are both capricornian chicks…we are indeed queens, no matter the circumstances) and I felt everything we shared and enjoyed so intensly, that I understood we have always reason for gratitude. It changed my perspective from lack to abundance.

And with the attitude of gratitude you´ll always be happy. When I returned home I took a shower, something that is very normal for a westerner. But this time I realized how blessed I am to have clean water, even in the perfect temperature and when I did I became aware of the light that touched the cascades of water, that turned into sparkeling diamonds and prism of light in all colours of the rainbow. I´m sure we all have showered under  diamonds and rainbows in our life, but when you are with your mind somewhere else, your bank-account, the results of your health-check next week, the lover that left you three month ago or the business meeting later, you will not be aware of the blessing and the beauty available in this amazing moment.

Opening your eyes for the blessings that you receive in this very second, can be one of the big life-changers. Once you´ll find the right attitude of gratitude you´ll receive so many blessings. They are everywhere and when you open up to injoy them fully, that´s really opening you for sensuality.

Have a blessed, healthy and wealthy day and open up to feel the richness that is always available, under all circumstances. Much love <3

Why the EmPath has to anchor within

Being an EmPath is for many a path of struggle, pain and exhaustion. When we feel everything around us so intensely, that´s just a massive overload, especially when we live in huge cities, meeting lots and lots of people every day.

Therefore it is absolutely crucial that we learn to master our special abilities. In my case my abilities have to do with “tuning into energy fields”, especially emotional energy fields. And this picture of “tuning in” is pointing out clearly how to handle all the energies.

Think of yourself as a radio. One that has not learned by now to choose the prefered station and lets all of them in at once. Plus it might have an issue with its ground wire.

When all radio-stations come in at once, that´s of course just a horrible noise. No wonder when an EmPath is depleated at the end of the day, feeling just stressed out. When I look back I really wonder how I´ve been able to survive under these conditions.

What helped me on my path was to finally realize that I´m able to choose the radio station. When I first heared of that idea I doubted that this is possible and you might feel the same reading this. But it really is possible, just it needs a.) your intend and b.) practise.

There are many tools out there, that help while that process. I personally chose some breathing technics from the Heartmath Institute, as they are very quick, easy and effective to use. Shamir Ladhani offers every monday a free 15 minutes session, the “Espresso Shot” for people to learn about these methods. It helped me to learn to anchor within myself, what is crucial for all people at the moment, but especially for EmPaths.

When it comes to the intend you might stumble over an interesting point: You have to ask yourself, why you chose to open all channels at once. Of course it is somehow part of your being to be empathic, like being a cat or a human is a given and can not be changed. But when your skill is hindering you, makes you struggle even, than it is worth looking at it, how it comes that we overdo it so much. I know that this doesn´t seem like a conscious choice, but even our subconscious choices have a reason and can be changed. There might be a hidden benefit or belief behind it. I can not answer this for you, just share what I found out in my case. Maybe this inspires you or gives you a clue for finding out about your own reasons.

As I mentioned before I didn´t believe that I can have a say when it came to my empathic abilities. I couldn´t imagine, that I can learn to fine-tune them and so I just felt overwhelmed, without a choice. And that´s just not been true.

Another believe that I had, one of my reasons why I lived with all channels open at once, has been that in my childhood I had to be constantly alert, as I´ve been raised in a dangerous environment. I realized that this had imprinted me with the idea to live in a dangerous world, that needs constant attention on my surrounding.

Another obstacle was the strange idea to be somehow responsible for the well-being of the people around me. Many EmPath have that, those on a spiritual path especially. I will explore this topic deeper in an upcoming article, but for todays topic it is enough to realize that this is one of the misperceptions, that cause an EmPath to focus on the outer world, to prioritize “the other”.

When you found out what is the hidden benefit or belief that causes you to overdo your beautiful talent, you can feel into it and decide if the benefit is really worth it and if your beliefs are helpful for your path.

As many EmPath struggle with it, they do not know that they have an option to learn to handle their gifts and still serve mankind.

In my own case I found out, that I serve mankind best when I learn to anchor within myself. Therefore I had to learn to make my own well-being and groundedness my top priority. The reason for that has been my Monthly Rose Touch. I had to understand that  I have to be fully anchored within myself to be able to hold a stable connection to the participants all over the world.

It´s been common sense that made me avoid distractions as much as possible each month while that special day. It didn´t make sense at all to allow someone to challenge my serenity, when dozens people would benefit from my balanced state while the Rose Touch. So I stayed with myself most of that day, to not have outer distractions. And that worked out so well and I benefit so much from it, that I learned to take that centered attitude into the rest of my life.

Fact is, that I always knew how peace, love, harmony feels like, that´s my “home station”. That´s the real gift I brought in. I guess most of the EmPath know how home feels like, that´s why they get stressed by the dissonnant noise here. Fact is also that I came to send out this station, for sure I did not enter this life to instead loose myself in others disharmonious vibes.

What helps anchoring and grounding? Being in nature, meditation and all kinds of arts help me to ground and focus and I know a lot of EmPaths that enjoy these relaxing activities, too. But you have to find out what suits you personally. All I share is just to inspire you to find your own truth.

And I can tell you that the more you practise to fill your cup first, the more you are able to become an overflowing fountain. And that´s what an EmPath is as his/her highest potential. A fountain of Love, Joy and Compassion.

You are precious and much needed in this world. Please treat yourself with much honor, love and respect. That includes to not allow others to feed off you or to bring you down. You help no one when you allow those destructive behaviours, may it be you towards yourself or by allowing outside sources to mistreat you.

When you follow that path you´ll be more and more able to be resilient towards outer influences. But you have to go inwards to be able to go outwards. You have to first take care for yourself. And then inspire others to also take care for themselves. In this way we´ll co-create a world of happy, fulfilled people.

Shine your precious Lovelight.

If you´ve injoyed this article and would like to learn about “Energetic Boundaries“, the recording of a NeuSpace Conversation about that topic might be also helpful for you.

Rose News – Freedom, Healing and Collaborations

Lately I´m all about collaborations. Well, being part of creation we are meant to be collaborative, just you need the right timing, people, awareness and circumstances to start the ball rolling.

And he did! Together with Therese Wenk and Muriel Shickman we created a threesome healing event about abuse, that really did rock. The feedback of our participants have been absolutely moving and touching. I´m totally happy that we had been so brave to get into such a deep and difficult topic via the internet. As we had to find out, we, coming together, did not only work with our participants, but they have been chosen representatives for mankind, and we together have been working with the collective consciousness. In case you missed it, the replay is available here: #metoo Quantum Healing Space Webinar with 3 Healers.

And when clicking on the following link, you can buy the replay of another amazing co-creation with Therese and Muriel:  Free to be me. We have been working at the individual and collective human, to help them let go of unhealthy bonds and to open up for the own truth, to express it freely. You´ll find it in the media and hopefully in your own life very soon. Every one of us came to earth to bring forth something only we can bring to life, and everyone of us has something beautiful and precious to add to this planet. Please dare it, like we did!

And last weekend the “Rose Talk & Rose Touch” has been taking place, with special guest Muriel Shickman about the topic of the Rising of the Roses. In its core we spoke about the rising of mankind. I´ve decided to put out the replay on YouTube. Even when many people might not really understand what the Rose Touch is and what we´ve been discussing with the guests on this evening, the energies of that call have been amazingly beautiful and everyone benefitting from it, just by tuning into it, is a gift for humanity. So inJoy the leading edge of spirituality…a bunch of giggeling gals, blowing you minds away and gifting you with love and bliss… 😉

What´s next? A NeuSpace Interview on the 10th/11th of March 2018 (depending on your timezone) with Alexis Srsa. She´s giving sessions and webinars and is very much alike Muriel and me, an Artist of life, expressing in a million ways the richness of the own Soul to encourage and assist others on their journey. Well and today, 6th of March is her birthday. And tomorrow, 7th of March, is Muriels Birthday. Happy joyous Pisces-Party, beloved Ladies.  <3 <3 <3

On 14th of March Muriel and I are inviting you to join us for the next monthly NeuSpace Talk. Topic will be Visions and Seeing Potentials’ I´m really looking forward to see you on that call 😉 <3

Well, and March 25th we are starting a new series. As Therese, Muriel and I are global players in it´s best meaning, a very new and beautiful way of working with the collective consciousness and of course very much connected with this lovely planet, we will start a meditation series. We will start with a “Meditation with Mother Earth” And no that´s not a grammatic error, but intent. Just alike every cell in your body is coworking to create the being you refer to, when saying “I”, so we are, collectively seen, co-workers with this amazingly beautiful body, named Gaia. You can not incarnate here, when there wouldn´t be an agreement between Gaia and your beingness to work together. We want to bring awareness into this beautiful collaboration, making it a lovestory of sorts.

We will then move to different parts of this globe, starting with Africa on 15th of April and moving towards India on May 6th, 2018. The fee for the ones that enter live will be only 3,-€ for each event to make it affordable for everyone and to value the contribution of the ones that help to co-create the event.

Have a great time, shine your light and help others to let their light shine, too.

 

Free to be me

Therese Wenk, Muriel Shickman and myself have co-created another Quantum Healing Webinar. This one shall help you to let go of all of your old stuff, may it be physical or emotional luggage that you carry or unhealthy bonds to people and circumstances, that hold you back.

There´s nothing wrong with our past, things have been perfect, even if they wasn´t. We have been in training and allowed people and circumstances actually somehow to hold us back.

But 2018 brings in fresh air. Things are changing really, really quickly. To make these changes as smooth and comfortable as possible we have to go with the flow, not against it. Therefore we have to let go of all that is no longer needed.

I can assure you that you will not loose anything that belongs to you and that is connected in love. So, there´s really nothing to fear, but so much beautiful things to explore and open up for. What will enter your life, as you become a sovereign, is really in alignment with your essence.

We will assist you on a quantum level in this process. As our last event #metoo Quantum Healing Space has showed, our energies and modalities are adding in a perfect way to the great benefit of our participants.

To sign up, please follow the link: https://www.edudip.com/w/283424 In case the page shows up in german just scroll to the bottom and change the language setting from “Deutsch” to “English”. The fee for the event is only 12€ and includes the replay. In this way we express our gratitude towards the people that help to create the  event, as they contribute as representatives for mankind. The normal price for the replay afterwards is 36€. And as this is taking place in the quantum field, the ones that tune in lazer, into the replay, will still have the complete experience and effect.

We have created a Facebook-Eventpage, where you can ask question, discuss topics and get inspired all around the event. Feel free to connect there, if you are interested.

 

 

 

The next Monthly Rose Touch on March 3rd, 2018/ Rose Touch & Rose Talk “The Rising of the Roses”

The next monthly Rose Touch is taking place on March 3rd, 2018. As always you can message me to be added to the list of participants of the loving frequencies of the Rose. The transmission will take place at 6 p. m. CET, what is 5 p. m. in London and 10 a. m. in Denver. To check out your local time, please use this link: http://www.thetimezoneconverter.com/

As the Rose Touch is happening in the quantum field, you can join and experience these energies at any time and any place.

The Rose Touch itself will be working as he always did. You message me or sign in at the FB- event-page and tell me you want  to be included as a recipient of the quantum-energy-transmission. At the given time, or your own chosen time, you give intend to receive the energies and try to relax in your own way. For the ones, that would prefer to be guided into the Meditation, I´ve recorded a visit into your own inner Rosegarden as an extra offer. To download the meditation klick on the colored Link: Monthly Rose Touch Medi. Or explore my YouTube-Channel for a vid that suits you, for example “The sacred Rose Garden”.

The transmission will take place at least 30 minutes, but some participants stayed for hours in this field, so trust your own feelings what suits you best. Free will is king/queen, so you can only subscribe for yourself, your pets and your own children under 14. You have to message me every month anew if you want to receive the  energies again.

Well and there´s now also the option to enter the Rose Touch & Rose Talk, taking place live via FreeConferenceCall. You have to go to my website, the page of the Rose Touch and fill in the subscribe formula at the end of the page to receive your personal link for this event. It is for free for the live-participants, as they are adding to the field with their presence. The Mail with the link and introduction how to enter will be sended out a few days before the event, so please sign in soon if you want to join already for the 3rd of March.

The schedule of the Rose Touch & Rose Talk: I will start with my normal transmission of my Rose Touch at the given time for about 30 minutes and I will be not speak very much, as I am focussing on holding the field for the participants. After that, we will have a short break of 5 minutes to grab some water and move the physical body to than start the Rose Talk. I will invite every month a special guest, related to the Rose and have a talk with my guest about a special topic. It is my great pleasure and joy to have Muriel Shickman with me this special date of 3rd of March 2018 and our topic will be “The rising of the Roses”. The picture I have chosen for this event has been painted by her a few weeks ago, as she did already catch the topic via the quantum field. It will be really awesome to have this talk with her and I highly recommend to sign in, to hear the news about the Roses 😉

Once you have signed in via my website for the Rose Touch & Rose Talk you will receive every month via mail the link and the topic and guest to listen in, if you choose so.

Stay happy, healthy and have a loving, blooming time @-;–

 

 

 

 

A journey into embodied enlightenment

These are my experiences, my path; it is unlike everybody’s elses path, so no need to agree or disagree about it. I share it for those that find a little nugget in it and all else I have no interest in. No more need of people mastering others, instead of themselves. I do not follow another master, nor do I want followers. We are all equals, just on our own unique path, with its own unique perspective. And while I follow no one else, I benefit from those that really help me on my path, as they have mastered themselves and therefore share with a tender, loving hand. I hereby thank them very much, you are recognized and appreciated with much love. No one can do it for us and at the same time no one can do it totally on his own. So bless you, as you have blessed yourself and others.

I went through a process this week,  where I went back to my origins. I saw myself in other places, other worlds, other forms, until I saw that I started as a beam of light from source itself, together with other children of  the sun we played when seeing the colors, created by a prisma. That’s where I came from and in truth I never really left this place. And here at the same  time I go through a process where the light comes in more and more into my earthly expression….many go through it, most of them in silence. But I´ve also been  shown, that I´m one of the witnesses and writers, that’s why you see me share my unique perspective.

There are some things that most of us have in common and others where everyone has other experiences. Where my path is a bit different from others around me is physical pain. I experience it too, but not in such extreme ways as the ones that are younger undergo it. I recognized three reasons for it, they are not complete and you might find some truth in it – or not:

  1.  I´ve done that before. It´s not my first time. Your first time hurts, but being very loving and tender might help.
  2. I´ve been brought to my knees so often in this lifetime, that I became an empty vessel (almost) when my process started. I lived many lifes in this lifetime, while the younger ones that have a much faster road still need to integrate things. In my case, being 49 years old, there’s not been very much left, that has to be removed or that is unlived. When having outlived my illusions, it’s much easier to let them go now.
  3. No resistance. As long as we fight for power, trying to be better, overtrumping others, think we know it all or dislike what life delivers, may it be on the inside or outside, we will suffer. Pain is caused by resistance, it’s as simple as that. That’s why it’s no fun at all to share the presence of someone fighting with the own demons, especially when projecting them on the outside. Oh we all do this and did this, me too, indeed, that’s why I share it for the benefit of all. It’s all fine and it takes as long as it takes. But some of it can be easier, when we accept all that is, with much love, compassion and surrender towards ourselves and others.

Not our circumstances are the issue. It’s our attitude. The BS in our mind. All the strange ideas, the judgement, the stories, projections and interpretations. Our mind tries to make sense out of it, while that is not possible at all, as the mind is creating non-sense. A computer collecting data, can connect dots, but these are just stories. Awareness is very different from the mind. Awareness doesn’t need to collect data and connect dots. It just is.

This morning more light came in and I witnessed how my mind still mumbled in the background, because coffee is ready. Who would let the eternal light in, when coffee is ready? Hahaha, it’s all too funny, when witnessing this adventure. All has to be welcomed, but it’s the master making sense out of all of it – or not 😉

Shine your beautiful light <3

What free to be me means for me

I have taken a lot of steps over the years in my life, to free myself from my past and to finally be able to be myself. The last one occured in 2017 and brought total destruction in the area of my personal relationships, especially with “friends”.

I had to realize that I still had people around that tried to dominate, control and feed off me, just they´ve been more subtil meanwhile. When I refused to feed these behaviour patterns, they tried to give me a hard time, but all it did was to open my eyes. And I did. Plus I opened my heart for myself and I opened my arms to embrace life. The funny thing was that when I felt inside of me I just felt free, although my whole area of relationships went down, down, down, all at once. I looked around and instead of feeling beaten up, I felt happy and free. For the first time in my life I had plenty of time and energy for myself. I lived in a kind of vacuum, just me with me. And one day I suddenly opened my mouth and a melody just came out of me and I literally sang “I am free, I am free, I am free to be me. I am free, I am free, I am free just to be.”

Since then everything changed for me. I am open for everyone, but at the same time I became very choosy and picky whom to give something of my precious time and attention. Everyone can do and be whatever s/he chooses, but not everyone is a match to the energies I want  to express. It’s as simple as that.

When we “loose” something we often think we did something wrong, while it is a sign we did something right. We started growing and our old life is no more fitting. Let go and welcome what comes next.

I express this freedom in all areas of life. Whatever comes my way I feel inside, how it feels to me, if I want to interact, engage, how to react in alignment with my true being. I am a very tender, loving person. But free to be me means to also stand my ground and to not give in to games others play in their life. Free to be me means to play all melodies from klassic to rock, as a perfect dance in alignment with my own being. I always find happyness, love, fun, wisdom, in every situation, no matter what comes my way.

We shall never ever corrupt ourselves, to please someone else. Feel inside what is your own song, vibe, melody? What makes your own heart´n soul sing, dance, jump for joy? And then just do it.

If you could need a bit assistance with your own energetic clean-up, than join me and my lovely coworkers the 4th of march 2018 on edudip. If you can not make it at the given time and date, the replay will also work for you.

We are three Masterhealers, co-working on the quantum-level for these webinars, and combining our skills we move mountains out of the way, when you give intend to really be free.

Shine your light beautiful Soul!

 

Why true love scares the sh*t out of people

Everybody talks about love. But what most people mean by love is that they want to have, own, consume something. True Love, the way I see, feel, express it, is something totally different for me and it really scares people. It´s too much. That´s why I have been too much all my life and why I have been hiding my true being for so long.

When I am talking about Love I speak about a feeling that is living inside of me, it is awakened when something or someone reminds my of my essence. Can be anything or anyone. A cat strolling along the street, a toddler reaching out to a flower, a twinkeling star on the nightsky, the laughter of a woman, the smile on a face, the tender touch of a hand, the way someone plays the piano or jumps into a puddle. It touches my heart, the Rose inside of me. I enjoy what I witness, but I do not need to own it, grab it, consume it. I am that I am. Noone can take anything from me, therefore I do not need anything and can enjoy all along my way.

To step into the awareness of my lovelight brings out extreme reactions in people. Some start crying, because they are not used to it to be really seen, loved, valued. It´s a release and surrender into the truth of their beautyful eternal being.

And some start to attack me, searching for my imperfections as they can not accept that they are perfect in my eyes. Not because I turn a blind eye. I´ve got a virgomoon in my natal(ie) chart. I see all, every “imperfection”, believe me. And even more, my pisces venus feels your discomfort, my mercury in aquarius just knows about your judgements. But see, to me all of the above doesn´t matter. It is not what you are, but a momentary state. It´s the way the divine chose to express itself, so I am fine with it. The one attacking me and/or denying himself not. You wouldn´t believe what BS people tell me, why they are not worthy or they look at me and tell me why I am still not good enough to be a master. Says it all, why they can not be a master in their minds eye. And so they go on another rampage, another run, another round of denial and it´s all fine with me. It´s all perfect.

It´s been the reason why I have been hiding my true nature for so long. I wasn´t ready to deal with it, it broke my heart a million times and time just wasn´t ripe before. Now it is, I will no longer hide to make it more comfortable for those that might get a spiritual sunburn, or loveburn. This world needs more love, not less.

I write this to remind you, that you are not better or less than I am. Nobody is. Just be yourself, shine the way the lovelight wants to express itself through you. You are beautiful beyond measure and you are dearly loved. That´s all and it´s all that is.

Healing the fe/male distortion

It´s the biggest tragic-comedy of all times. The fe/male split, expressed by so many heart-breaking stories. Different names, faces and places, all playing out endless variations of the same story.

Do you know what men search? (Yes, I know sex, the orgasm…but what is an orgasm, but total unity and melding of sorts?). What is it that makes them so intrusive? It´s the longing for total acceptance through the surrender of the feminine. Being themselves and being admired for their being. That´s why they always have to “be the best”, as only than they will be adored and experience the female surrender.

And what does the feminine look for? For admiration, of course. She wants to be adored for her worth. That´s why women wear absurde things and torture themself to be beautiful enough to be admired and “wanted”.

And that´s why men pay women for sex. To make her accept him, and may it be for 3 minutes behind a trash-can. And she will give it to him, cause the pennies she collects prove her beauty.

In most cases what is called a lovestory are two people, that feel lack, coming together to heal lack. Codepency. That´s why there is so much drama in our Love-Stories. We fight with the other, so s/he gives us, what only we can hold for ourselves.

We might play all kinds of drama on the outside, but they all are a reflection and projection of our own inner Story. The hide and seek, the hunt and withdrawal are just the externalization of the fear of surrender towards the own inner unity and melding. Pretending to search for Love that is unavailable, to distract from the refusing of the own inner ultimate melding and union. As long as we do, the show must go on on the outside.

A man who doesn´t love and value himself enough to feel safe, will never be able to give a feeling of safety to the women he chooses. So they will never feel valued or trust him and open up fully. Instead they will learn to behave more male around him, to not get overtrumped.

A woman who has not found her selfworth will never find the one who will give her the feeling to be worthy. No matter how many flowers she receives or how rich her husband is.

All that we search in the other is what we have abandoned in ourselves. We just externalize it, project it on the outside and create these unbelievable tragedies, comedies and crimescenes that we call Lovestories.

And also on the collective level it is just the sum of all the individuals, that are struggeling with their not integrated “other half”. I used to fight against authority figures, when I was younger, until I realized I am my own ultimate authority. I do not have to fight patriarchy, just give them a “no” once in a while, when they do not pay me the respect that they want from me also. And the rising of the feminine? It is true. Women take back their power. But this will not work out by fighting the male, that they carry within themselves, too. Don´t blame “the other”, become responsible yourself.

Why fight with a guy in a relationship or on a global scale with men about my worth? I love my own inner male and female aspects totally. I became a tender loving badass, able to deal with every guy coming along my way. If they can not handle me, that´s where they are not complete within themselves. Has nothing to do with me.

And that´s it. When I see how women still try to please men I know they are still codependent. And a guy running after a woman, still not knowing he is worthy all the love and beauty of this world. And holds it within himself, not needing anything from anyone. Just alike the woman that searches for Love in all the wrong places, as she is not loving herself without any compromise.

We have to become complete within us. You can not become a master and not have healed your inner split. Start the most awesome Loveaffair with yourself, including all of your aspects, male, female and child. Become your own holy family. Your aspects have to be integrated within yourself, then you are absolutely whole and complete and will be free to react on the outer world just as you choose to.

You have no idea how adorable these beings are, may they have a male or a female body, that own all of their being. Beautiful beyond words, no matter the looks. That´s how we were created. Breathtaking awesome. Return to it.

Shine your eternal, integrated Lovelight <3