The silent riot in cell block no. 9

One day on my way to work I realized that mankind was free from slavery. The director of the prison was no more in charge. Wow! A huge event, but… noone noticed it. I mean…come on, the hottest news in the multiverse, and not a single word in the newspapers, tv?! OK, that´s not that surprising…but, why was there also no word in the internet, the spiritual comunity, not even the conspiracy guys, noone recognized that planet earth was free. Everyone stayed in their boxes.

Than I understood. Many people do for example not realize, that they are dead and keep on going to a workplace, that they always disliked. I have had relatives, that I visited in the 4th dimension, and all change they perceived was that they thought to have now a better appartment or job.

Suddenly I had a vision of a crowd of dead people entering my office building every morning. The walking dead. Just they´ve not been very different from the living. As everyone did what he always did, I did so, too. Just I knew I do not have to. For a moment I thought I might tell people that they can do whatever they want, but I looked around and knew they would just think I have lost my mind. Too funny, all was upside down. The  sane are to believed to be insane. The living behaved alike the dead. The free believed to be prisoners. I looked around and thought: “It´s because of the repetition. That creates a kind of automatism, a pattern. Free beings do not like repetitions, as this is against life and its rich diversity. But prisoners are addicted to repetition. It´s their safety point in a fearful surrounding. Do not take their safety, when offering freedom.”

How to stop a system? Bring in change. So I started to behave on my work place as if I was on a holiday. Making fun, being filled with joy, refusing to complain that I´m on work. I realized, that I have to be careful, as the others will subconsciously react when the system is challenged and try to protect it. Like in the film matrix. The ones in the system, will be used by the system, to protect the system. Even when the programmer did disappear, the programs still keep on running. Don´t be an opponent, cause they will fight you, instead be a trojan horse, showing up and running your own agenda, instead of a program. On the outside, I didn´t change that much, so the system can not grasp it, but my attitude is that of a free being. Try it out. It is infectious, dear ones. And it has to be, if we want a smooth transition into a free collective.

The “lightworker” did once leave their families, friends, normal society, to heal and cure themselves. Maybe it´s time to now to come back and to offer some “out of the box” attitude to the ones, that didn´t realize by now that it´s all just an illusion…unless you believe in it. It´s not about fighting the old, but about living the new, the fresh, the free life. Just by showing up, by being ourselves we will change our surrounding. We will infect them with our love, compassion, joy and gratitude.

Shine your light!

My shadow believing to be imprisoned 😉

A month filled with gratitude

Four weeks ago I started my new webinar-series “The Attitude of Gratitude”. I mirrored these 28 days with short entries in a gratitude-journal, that I posted at the Facebook-page of the webinar. I use this journal on a regular basis, as we tend to forget the blessings we receive on our path. As most people, including me, have been raised in the consciousness of lack, it needs continuity to change such a deeply engrained mindset. It´s also not enough to understand things mentally, we have to change them with our daily actions. We didn´t enter as a thoughtform, but went with intend into the physical body. If we do not embody these thoughts, bring them down to earth with our daily actions, we have not changed anything at all.

When we stay aware, we always learn a lot, even when we are the ones teaching, and so I´m grateful for a lot of insights. One is, that this webinar-series is really needed, as the virus of lack holds this planet in his claws, causing unbelievable pain and distortion. Therefore when trying to move beyond lack, we had to deal with shadows and resistance, that wouldn´t show up if I would sell sugarpills. But I´m here to bring real changes, lead people out of the known, and this is bringing up the shadows. I knew that, but I will focus in my work generally a bit more on that topic and a new category in my blog will be about shadow work. Jupiter is going into Scorpio soon and there´ll be a lot of dark stuff coming up. It can not be other, as we fear and resist change and there´s a whole lot of changin´going on. Rock´n Roll, Baby. Well, one important lesson in my webinar is about the understanding, that all is working for us and therefore we have to value and respect the shadows when they show up. These are gifts, too. Sometimes the biggest.

Another point in my webinar was, that we always have to be clear about the foundations in our lifes. These are areas, where it is very naturally to us, to attract abundance. Everyone has them and they are our basics and related to our gifts. In my case, that´s wisdom, information, insights. They flow to me with no effort at all, because I love to receive and give forth this flow with much love. And so this month was filled with lots of messages and beautiful sharing of wisdom and inspiration. Sometimes in the most beautiful ways. But we must be able to recognize the gifts on our path. Today I went through the city-center. It´s been a rainy day over here, people were hurrying along, as if on a hunt. I could sense their urge to buy stuff, but catched also energies of lack, thoughts about credit-card-limits and more worries about money. In between this scenario I saw how someone had put two huge boxes on the ground and a message “For free”. One box was filled with clothings and another one with books. I sensed into the crowd and wondered, why people worried about money, but didn´t even look at the boxes, if something of value is in it. Well many people do not value what they get for free. When I went by, I looked into the boxes. The clothes in that box were for a small person and I thought: “Well, I´ve got more than enough to wear and to read. I hope someone will see and enjoy it.” I was already past that box, when I got a message from the inner master. “Go back, the book on top, on the left side, take it, that´s for you.” I went back and took that book. It looked almost new, just one huge dog-ear marked one side.  I also mark important sides in a book that way, it´s a pattern. The one that gave the book away, had the same. It marked the beginning of chapter 22. Yes, this book was a divine gift. Thank you, dear spirit-guides, for always leading me perfectly.

And they do. That´s another blessing I receive again and again. I´ve got my 24/7 direct line and this month has been rich with wonder and blessings. No, I didn´t win the lottery, but I found things that are of much greater value, as they cannot be taken.  I even received a promise that I´ll always have what I need. The Israelites had it when walking through the dessert, being fed daily, but complaining for 40 years. I will not, as I feel blessed. Heaven loves me, as I love myself. The master is lovingly benching with his aspects, even with lack. I am blessed and I meet people that are a living blessing. When we are able to stay in our heart and connect with others from heart to heart, that´s a state of being, that´s even far beyond grateful.

How to get there? Shine your light…

The false light

I have had the pieces and parts of the puzzle since a while, but a few days ago, they started to make really sense.

I knew that the matrix was actually two matrixes: the “natural one” and the Matrix in the matrix. A kind of prison and deception. First the good news: It´s no more a prison, but you´ve gotta realize that you are free, to leave it.

How to leave it? Take your power back and stop thinking you´d be better or less than someone else. Stop handing your responsibility to others. Relax and just be yourself.

I never fitted into normal society. But very often I did also not fit into spiritual groups. Something felt strange. The games have been the same, just more subtile. From agressive, to passive-agressive was one step, but there was only one thing to top it all and that was the righteous lightworker. I felt how some people fooled and manipulated really beautiful souls and wondered why noone recognized it. It´s the kind of sweetness, that has something strange about it. Like Aspartam. It´s not really sweet and makes you ill.

When you piss me off, I´ll show it. But no matter how off I think you to be, I never stop honoring and loving you. But that kind of person pretends to be at peace (while you feel their hatred). If you piss them off they will talk love´n light, but they will use anything they have, to bring you down. Cause that´s the signature of the false light: It has to be better, holier, more evolved than you, so it has to make you somehow wrong and less.

The false light is hierarchical. It excludes. The secret order. The inner circle. And if you enter, they believe to own you. You have to obey to their laws, to the decission of the bosshoss, or holy highpriestess of the highest of all high. The false light is a trap, installed by darkness to fool those that try to leave the dark/old paradigm.

The false light has copied everything that ever was of the real light. It is everywhere, it has overtaken all governments and religions. They used the real christ, buddha, mohammed, maria, gaia, sophia and made a surrogate. Look around. That´s why in the name of the christ the biggest crimes of all times have been commited. That´s why the false copy of god is a jealous one. That´s why there are banks that make people poor, why a part of the food industry poisons people and some pharmarcies make people sick with intend.

They have created a problem and than they offer a false solution. They create the pain and sell you pain-killer, but they do not help you to regain your health, that is your birthright. They don´t care about you and your rights, they just make sure that the sheps never leave the flock.

And do not get fooled by wonders. They are masters of deception. A false jesus showing up at night next to your bed, so you may fall on your knees for worship and sending you on a mission. I can tell you that the real light respects your free will, it helps you on your mission and it knelts down to wash your feet. I had mine been washing often and with so much love lately, I know exactly what I´m talking about.

I knew a lot of the above, but recently I stumbled accidently over one guy that had some missing links for the whole picture. His name is George Kavassilas, you´ll find him on youtube. The drawing you see is inspired by him, but I do not pretend to show his truth, this is just how I understood what he explained. Please check out his work and make up your mind on your own.

The truth shall set you free. You are free. It´s up to you to realize it.

 

Lack of selfworth

You can not give someone else selfworth. And you can not love someone else enough, that he loves himself. It´s impossible. I´ve tried it all my life…and in many others before.

All that happens is that you get dragged into their distorted games and stories. And again you can not see clear enough, to make them see. It´s impossible. We can not be someone elses god. And no one can become ours.

This is the root of all illusion. That someone else can make you happy, healthy, rich or important. Only you can. Because you are already. But you have to realize it yourself.

So I started my journey to be whatever I want. To integrate my aspects and be myself. A sovereign being, taking fully responsibility. I can not take responsibility for someone else, for glorious gods, pretending to be worthless beings, who need my attention and admiration. It´s not working. They are like a black hole, sucking up all your light. I know their state of being, been there, done that. The only way out is selflove and selfworth. They go hand in hand.

All I can do is becoming whole again and inspiring those, that are also on this journey. I can not walk it for someone else, I can not carry them. And every time they demand it, they show me, that they are still slaves and prisoners. They have all my love and all my compassion, but they need their own. They have it inside and that´s a truth they refuse to understand. They´ve been handed the key a thousand times…and are still refusing to use it. We can not make others understand, that they are themselves all they have ever searched for.

The eye and the observer

Today has had some coincidents and discussions about the symbol of “the eye” in the Facebook group of my “Monthly Rose Touch”, as two people had this symbol occuring today. I had to think about the difference between the illuminati-eye and the eye in the center of the storm and felt inspired to write this article.

Coincidentely I have recently been in a deep and interesting discussion about the topic of “neutral observation”, hosted by Patricia Farrington. She invited Bjorn Simonsen, who´s all about neutral observation. You can watch the vid of this conversation on youtube, when clicking on the link. This observers state of mind is for me related to this topic with the eye, which is an old symbol for awareness, but also been misused by BigBrother, as the distorted version.

The eye stays the eye, no matter who uses it to observe. We can use everything in a constructive or destructive manner. To see things, to observe them,  is the process of making things conscious. Only when being conscious, are we able to evolve. Whenever I have to do with shadow-aspects, they are the “blind spot”, the thing we refuse to see. Why do we refuse it? Because we are afraid to be drawn into the storm of emotions, coming along with the experience. And this is the root of the distorted “allseeing eye” of bigbrother.

When we are afraid, we have to suppress things, that we than have to control. In its core that means that bigbrother is watching his shadow self, as he is unable to see his blind spot, that he tries to control through observation. But he never will, as it is his blind spot. Only when he becomes truly aware, he will no longer be distorted. Unless he is aware, he will never see, what he tries to see/control.

I have spent most of my weekend, letting stuff of the global (un)conscious through my own consciousness. A lot of lightworker did. A whole storm of pictures from mostly unknown places and people, running through me. I just watched them, without getting involved in it. It´s been a neutral and loving observation. Some of the pictures have been quite disturbing and I know how people can get mad, when they open their consciousness before they are ready to deal with things like that. (Hands off from drugs, folks ;))

When we are ready to process this, we become “the eye of the storm”. We stay literally untouched, no matter what happens around us…it never happens to us. That goes for the inner as for the outer world. A few years ago I have received a masterlesson, when a storm hit my hometown, and I have been almost uneffected by it. It´s another story, that I will not tell again as I had posted it before, but I had many coincidents and been totally safe, while other have been in deep trouble. The only difference was our state of mind. When you stay calm you see opportunities and get help, that you can not see when you panic.

I feel that we have a huge renovation project going on right now on this planet. Harvey and Irma have not been the last storm we will go through, on many levels, until the human unconscious will be cleaned-up. But the more we stay in a consciousness that is able to assist the process, instead of being dragged into the turmoil, the easier the process will be.

Open your eyes and send love to all that you witness.

Shine your light!

 

 

The Monthly Rose Touch, September 9th, 2017

In September 2017 the free Group-Session will take place at the 9th,  at 10 p.m. my time (Germany). Here you can find your time zone: http://www.thetimezoneconverter.com/

When you can´t make it at the given time, just join at “your perfect time”, as this happens in the Quantum Field.

How does the Monthly Rose Touch work?

The Sessions take place in the Quantum field. At the given time you find yourself a nice place and make sure you won´t be disturbed for at least 30 minutes. Make it a comfortable experience, maybe lit a candle, burn incense, play relaxation music or whatever helps you to get into a calm, meditative state. Breath calm while you focus onto your heart, as it is your gate. Imagine to open your heart and enter a holy place, where you sit between roses to receive the high frequencies of OneLove delivered to you through the Inner Net. (The Inner Net is connecting all that is. You enter it through your consciousness, no devices needed.)

The Rose Touch is a quantum experience and the only things required is your intend to participate, to open your heart and to receive these high frequencies. While the session every subscriber is adressed as a part of the group, but I am also focussing for a moment on each participant at the end of the session, to send him what s/he might need personally.

If you want to participate put your name under this post or message me. Please don´t put someone elses name to the list, as free will is very important in this case. Sole exceptions are your own children that are under 14 years or your pets, as you are their care-takers. For each month you´ve got to sign in anew if you´ve enjoyed it and want more.

Guided Meditation: For the ones, that would prefer to be guided into the Meditation, I´ve recorded a visit into your own inner Rosegarden to receive the Rose Touch as an extra offer. To download the meditation klick on the colored Link: Monthly Rose Touch Medi

Everybody else may just use his own music and meditation practise. The Session will take place at least 30 minutes, but some people enjoyed it for many hours. Trust your own feelings, how long you want to stay in the field.

A personal statement: I´m honored to be able to hold this field and deliver these outstanding energies. But this is not about me or my human persona. I want to make that very clear. It is  a coworking of the human with the divine and activating the pure Loveenergy that resides in all living beings. It is your own essence you´ll experience, what creates the blessings and healings. Please feel invited to share this message with likeminded, cause every participant is adding to the choir of energies and strengthening the field, although s/he benefits from it. Welcome to the New Earth. Let´s love it into life!

Shine your light precious soul!

Grouping instead of herding

My Higher Self sended me the last two years to places, that I thought I do not know… and my human self had no idea why to go there. It sended me to Israel, Colorado and Norway. Well, it turned out I knew all the “unknown” places I´ve been sended to. I do not remember much details from my pastlife in Colorado, but the Rockies have helped me to reconnect with a greater eternal power, that I had natural access to in that pastlife. And of course I have been living in Israel. Finally in Trondheim I stood even at our own grave from another century, together with my pastlife husband next to me. Who wasn´t realizing at all, he was supposed to be dead. Too funny. So I learned to trust my Inner Guidance totally, when sended on a task.

This year I have been sended to quite different “unknown” places. Going public and doing group-work. First I´ve been told to do the Monthly Rose Touch Session and now lately I received the topic of a webinar-series to give. Both is group-work of course and I always thought I am not good at grouping. I never fitted into groups and now I should be even the one leading group-sessions?

I can sense energies and therefore the dynamics and hidden intends in groups have always been very obvious and frustrating to me. I saw how people tricked and manipulated each other, how fractions have been builded, destroyed and how goals have been sabotaged. Everyone had his own selfish agendas and all together they´ve been used by their leaders. The many following the ideas and interests of the few, that pretended to know what´s best for all, while moving people around on their chessboard. And of course it´s been energy-feeding of the worst kind. Even when I did not know this terminology at that time, I saw it happen all my life. It was “normal”, like so many distortions on earth…but it has always felt absolutely wrong to me.

I remember being in an urban gardening group and people spoke their mind until one of the leaders spoke another…and all people, believing they are of the new consciousness, just dropped their own thinking in a splitsecond, when the brainbug made a choice they thought to be totally stupid two minutes before.  It´s never been understandable to me, how people become in groups totally mindless…and heartless.

I´ve once been a trainee in a company with a very strict boss, whom everyone feared. When the boss disliked a person, noone made friends with the outsider, that would be dismissed soon. I was also often the outsider, but by own choice, being friendly with most people, but staying independent. One day a young woman, red hair, strong, proud Leo, has been sended into the office of the boss. The young woman seemed to have lots of friends in the company and they spend their lunchbreak together, went out shopping and often even spended the evenings together. Well, it broke my heart when this young woman came out of the office of the boss, sobbing like a little child. I would have thought it to be impossible, that she could be broken in an instant by a few cruel words. Well it´s not been the words, it´s been the energy behind them, as I recognize in hindsight. And I was even more shocked when no one of the “good friends” dared even looking at her. I couldn´t believe what I had to witness. I knew I would need a reference from that big boss very soon, but I knew I had to look into the mirror even sooner, so I stood up, went to her, hugged her and gave her a tissue. Than I pulled her out of the room, into the kitchen, to calm her down.  No, group-dynamics of the old energy are for sure not for me!

I listen to everyone, as everyone is holding some wisdom. And I love to co-operate, but I take no orders, but those from my own source. I am following the truth of my heart, as the beloved sovereign daughter of the divine. No one is allowed to rule over me and I need no membership to give love and support to others. It is my very nature.

I love to see people thrive. Happy, healthy people make me jump for joy. And more happy, healthy people are the only option for mankind to coexist with Gaia. That´s why I accepted to work with people instead of watching out for a cabin and a cat in the woods.

But of course I am confronted with the old energy herding issues when being present in social media or when working with groups. People often have zero awareness how they are used. They believe to express their own thoughts, while they are manipulated by those that want to be fed and admired. Divide and conquer is still working.  And so I had to ask my higher self: “I want people to be independent and free. What the heck is going on that you want me to herd people?! Or why do you want me to deal with the distortions of those wannabeanimportantleadersheps, that feel challenged by me and my unshepishness?” The answer was: “Quite the opposite! These are the reasons why you have been called to do groupwork. No follower, only sovereigns.” The rest came not as a thought or sentence, but as a complex understanding; all the answers at once. Source is multidimensional…to put it in words in a row is limiting for it.

I have been shown my memory from a higher realm, a kind of heavenly meadow, that I have mentioned before: I remember being at a place in perfect harmony with my surrounding and the other beings, each an individual, but all aware of each other and connected on the inside, through our consciousness, but we were free beings. No obligations, no leadership, no agenda, no brainbug. Just being ourselves and coexisting. That´s how the law of nature is working, bringing together the perfect mixture of diversity. I was told while my download that it is also the blueprint of the Age of Aquarius.

And a few weeks ago, a former shadow aspect, that turned out to be a knight, has shown me the picture of a roundtable, where he placed all of my inner aspects. That´s grouping as it should be. At a roundtable all have a voice. One is opening it, but everyone is just as important as the other. They want the best for all, not just for the king or queen, but for the whole queendom, so everyone will be accepted in it, to thrive in it and be worthy and valued for being himself.

I understood that I am among those, that are holding the inner knowledge how to bring in some tools of the new earth. In fact it is not new, but the original creation, before it went into total distortion under the service to self, herding here the human sheps for so long and fooling all people. And in the spiritual community it had been just a bit more sophisticated, tricky and subtile, but it has been just the same mentality. Mind-control and power-games. Someone called it New (C)Age, and there´s much truth about it. All eating the same, dressing the same, thinking the same, acting the same and be lie ving this is their party, while they had de-live-red the food for the wolf, who´s still been herding them.

Total loss of the own sovereign creator self. I know it seems to be not easy, but I know the only way to be a sovereign, is to be a sovereign. In the example where I have dared to comfort the crying woman, I received my  reference. I went to the boss to tell him that I need it as I  am going to leave and he answered: “Write it and I´ll sign it!” This guy was known to never ever sign anything without lots of changes. So I wrote myself an almost perfect reference, as I knew I have been a real good worker. I went to the office of my boss, he read it and signed it without to hesitate even for a splitsecond. When I came out of the office, smiling and head-high, all came running to me, and almost collapsed when they saw the signature. When I look back, I seldom had trouble with the big boss. They know a sovereign, when they see one. It´s been the wannabethetopsheps, that did cause me trouble. But they are living proof that my work is needed, as people need to reconnect with their original, sovereign being to create a new earth with their gifts and talents.

Whenever you and your truth is not valued, whenever someone else claims to know your path, as they claim to be better, more evolved or holy, than you are fooled. Whenever you have to obey to the rules of others, than you are fooled.  Never take others power or give yours away.

The grouping of sovereign beings only occures to enjoy each others beauty, to learn from each other, to encourage each other, while everyone is free to be himself, to come and go by free will. Noone has to be held accountable for others demands, when everyone is able to take full responsibility for the own being.

Whatever someone is telling you, including me, has to resonate with something inside of you. Than you know it is of value for your individual path. And no, you do not have to walk him alone. I am myself much more connected than I have ever been. Your vibe attracts your tribe. And sends the others away.

All of my work, may it be a one-on-one session, the monthly Rose Touch, a webinar or my books and articles have one and the same intend: to assist you on your own journey. Do not follow me, but get inspired to follow yourself. The only reason why I shine my light in the public is to remind you to:

Shine your light!

 

 

The end of lack

Nothing is as destructive as the idea to not be good enough, save enough, rich enough, beautiful enough, smart enough. Your eyes are than filled with lack and whatever you look at will mirror this lack. It is the root of evil on this planet.

“Not enough” is destroying the own self-worth, the relationships, families, communities, companies, cities, countries, cultures and the whole planet.

It makes people mean, poisonous, envy, jealous, greedy, needy, violent and aggressive.

It creates the shadow-aspects, that are than projected on the outside, onto other people, religions, races and countries.

And as not feeling good enough makes us feeling not good enough, it creates an endless loop of lack, that we do not want to look at. Cause we hate this feeling of not enough. And when we recognize we feel bad, it has to be “the other” who is responsible for us, feeling bad. It is totally nuts, an endless circle of destruction, a virus of madness. The only antidote is created by loving and accepting us and all around us in their perfect imperfection.

And no, the spiritual community is not “better”, cause here people are still trying to be more right, evolved, enlightened as the other. Lack covert in love´n light is still lack.

That´s why all of my healing, teachings, writings have the same topic: They bring people back to themselves. Help them to reconnect with source and to relax into their core. When we are truly connected with source, there is no lack, no better, no less. Just love, peace, joy, compassion and abundance. And all of us that is not connected with source will simply begin to dissolve. The end of lack. The era of peace.

When you love yourself you become free

Today its been four years ago, that I decided to “love, honor and respect myself”. I married myself and started a journey to integrate all of my aspects and to create peace within. I acted spontaneously, because I had enough from the distorted games between men and woman. I understood that searching for fulfillment through someone else was madness. I had always taken other people way too serious and that made me vulnerable and undermined my self-worth. Others had been able to fool, manipulate or dominate me…in the name of love. I realized that to “need” another being to be happy, was pure madness. It´s been normal, everybody played these distorted games, but that didn´t mean that their normal was healthy for me.

To “marry myself” not only changed my point of view on partnering, but on all kind of relationships. I hereby freed myself and those around me. I started to accept myself more and more, to bring back my own aspects and I started to live the only eternal lovestory we all experience, the one with my divine core, my essence, my soul self.

When we need “the other” to be our fairy tale, s/he has to behave as we wish and expect them. That´s not love, that is slavery. You are the one to make yourself happy, to fulfill your dreams. To love ourselves is the end of all excuses. If we are not happy it is because of us, not because of someone else.

Most of my relationships of all kinds became much better the last four years. As I do not need others, I can really enjoy being with them. I love to co-operate with others, to exchange wisdom, points of view,  experiences…or to just be with them, to enjoy our being together. That doesn´t even need a reason at all.

Of course there are still people I do not get along with very well, but I just let them be. Everyone is as free as I am. The only real trouble I experience once in a while is with needy people. They will try to hold me accountable for all they do not create themselves in their lifes. As they are no sovereigns, they will try all: domination, manipulation, lies, demands, blame, shame, guilt, scapegoating, projection, denial and revenge. And they find a thousand reasons why I have to be, do and act as they want me to.  But it all comes to one point: They need slaves to fulfill their needs, as they do not dare to be sovereigns and to take responsibility for their own being.

Please do, as to love, honor and respect yourself will free you <3

Freeing shadows and opening the round table

Every time we experience something that we can not handle and are not able to deal with, an aspect of ourselves is split apart. He is than living in the shadows, holding the unwanted.

When wanting to become whole again, there is no other way but going into the shadows and opening up for these abandoned parts of us. In the shadows are our painful experiences, trauma, anger, fear etc. We do not want them. Especially in the new age community is a tendency to create a holy image of ourselves, that for example does not allow us to become angry. We want to create peace and harmony, therefore we do not allow our angry aspects to exist. I am someone who absolutely loves to focus on the positive in life. I love joy, happiness, creativity and peace. But I have experienced it myself firsthand and witnessed it with others, that there is no way to move ahead and to leave aspects of us behind. And think about it. How cruel is it to not allow all of you to exist? That´s not enlightened, that´s faint-hearted. If you try to escape yourself, you´ll experience these unwanted parts on the outside and they might easily go on a rampage. Whatever shows up on the outside, that you really, really dislike, is something that is also existing in your own shadows. Whenever you point fingers, three of your own fingers are pointing on yourself. And the more you deny them to exist, the more distorted the shadow will show up on the outside, until the issue is “right in your face”. You can than blame the other for all that isn´t working in your life. This is your free choice. Just you will run in circles and repeat the same story again and again. You can put the unwanted even in a box, label and compartmentalize it: “Men are relentless” or “Rich people are thieves” or “Woman are weak”. These will than become your filters of perception and seeing the world through these filters, you will block everything that doesn´t fit into your mental boxes. You will meet a thousand weak woman until you turn your attention inside and meet your own fear of being somehow weak and vulnerable.

In my own case it have had aspects of myself that I somehow saw as male, that I disliked. I couldn´t deal with anger and aggression, as these had caused trauma in my life. Well, when I made contact with my own male aspects a few years ago I realized I have had pastlifes as a warrior and that these aspects have been able to violate others, what is a horror to my sweet, loving aspects. The unwanted has been living inside of me. 4 years ago I decided to marry myself and to bring these “male & female” aspects together. Such an integration happens in many layers, but my aspects became coworkers. My warrior loves and protects “his lady” with all of his might. Cause when we release the unwanted aspects, they free also the gifts and talents they have been hiding in the shadows.

When the lightworker abandons his inner warrior he might fall prey for the wolves and he might lack the power and strenghts to bring out his gifts to this world. The divine makes no mistakes, our soulaspects are in their sum perfect to create exactly the personality we came to embody. So do not doubt the heavenly architect, that builded your house and welcome all the inhabitants.

I´m very glad to give love and acceptance to all of me now, to create my queendom. I was a bit astonished when I saw how my inner male aspect turned out to be a noble knight. He even showed me a round table and seated all the other aspects at this table. This is how we become whole again. So this shadow-aspect became a blessing. My very sensitive female side, when being one with the fiercy bold warrior, knows her path and noone is able to stop her or to make her walk someone elses path. She doesn´t buy others people shit anymore and if others try to harm her, she steps aside with a gentle smile to let them fall into their own traps. The warrior, married to the priestess, knows there are no enemies, but that others need their lessons, too. How else would they ever start to integrate and love all of their aspects?

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