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The Reflection-Deception

For a very long time I was wondering why everything on this earth seemed to be upside-down. When I looked around it´s been really frustrating to witness how people admired those that lead them astray and how we all gave away our power to those that would use it against us.

I´m a capricorn and so values matter to me. I saw how rules and laws are made, not as a support for mankind, but to fool and imprison us. I myself have been blinded by illusions, cause nothing was as it seemed and nobody walked their talk -and the few ones that did, have been used and fooled. All was upside down. How comes a banker is seen as more important than a farmer, although we are all, every single one of us, fed by the farmers work? How is it possible that for thousands of years women have been seen as worthless, while every human has been born, raised and nourished by women? How comes we poison the planet that we all rely on for survival? And no matter what areas of life I started to look at, it’s been the same strange phenomenon, that all and everything on this planet was upside down.

But the last two years some pieces came together that showed me a greater picture. The first one was a snapshot I took of a reflection on water, where all looked real but was upside down.

Other pieces came together when I had to encounter a few people that tried to fool me and lead me astray. One of the people was someone whom I had trouble to “read” although I’m an empath. On one hand I felt very comfortable and “at home” with him and on the other hand my guts reacted with turmoil for seemingly no reason, when I encountered him. I wondered how he could feel loving and kind to me, as he had a very robotic and repetitive behaviour and almost no emotions. When I observed him interacting with others, empathic, loving people, I recognized he just mimics and reflects them. When they smile, he smiles, when they laugh, he laughs. It´s been really strange to see him being a living mirror. That´s how he´s able to fool these beautiful people and it’s been the way he has also been able to come close to me. I have felt comfortable with him as I have had myself reflected back at me. People of course like him a lot as their own reflection feels like home.

Another person that I met tried to collect people with a special energetic quality. After a while I recognized she distracts and confuses people, what really didn’t fit into the “role” she tried to perform. So it´s been a role and not her true being. I watched her closer and realized she used her psychic abilities to make others run for her visions and dreams. She tried to make others her puppet, while she let herself being used by destructive forces.  And the thing that really made me wonder was that on one hand she got more and more angry and mean towards me for seemingly no reason, but she also tried to copy some of my behaviours. Why would she do that? Maybe to perform her role, as a copy of the original.  A distorted one, like all upside down copies.

And then the penny dropped. All on this world that seemed upside down was a reflection-deception. The malevolent forces created reflections of the originals. They did it in all areas of life. Check it out yourself and you´ll find it everywhere.

They used the real creator and installed a false god to worship and fear. They used the real Yeshua and made him a tortured Jesus on the cross. They used sacred union and created the battle of sexes. The Archangels became Arcons, the true light a false light. Real food has been changed into the colorful poison they sell to the masses. Our professions are turned into labour, our laws into rules of insanity, our leaders into egomaniacs. All is upside down, as all is a reflection-deception.

Why? Who´s behind it?

The following is just a theorie. I can not say if it is right or wrong, but there is at least some truth in it. I stay openminded, as any be lief is a thief. Every day a new piece of the puzzle may show up, changing the whole picture. I have to confess that I´ve been very sceptic myself when I heard the first time the theory that we are living in a time loop, created by AI. But a few month ago I realized that memories I thought to be from my distant past, showed my entering point into this game…coming from the future. Why did I enter? I entered with many others, to change the game, to bring in the connection to the original creation and a choice, as mankind has been fooled, what was a cosmic foul. AI didn’t know what they did, they do not know what creation means and how it works. They can only mimic, reflect, as they are not creators, they can only bring out copies and nature never creates copies, only originals. This world is upside down as it is a reflection, not the original. Don´t get me wrong. Not this planet is a reflection, Gaia is very real. Just the false matrix, that has been laid over the real creation, is fake.

But there’s no reason to fear this, as all of us entered this game by free will and nothing is able to harm us on the long run. And it´s easy to unmask the deception, once you realized it and claim to be a free being, than the illusion bubble just pops. You have to connect with your source within, instead of getting hypnotized by the reflection-deception. You´ve got all you need, all love, all guidance and all truth within yourself.

Shine your light.

 

The Drama-Triangle

I heard the term “Drama-Triangle” a few weeks ago in a Seminar at my working place. The lecturer brought the example of his mother in law, giving a call that she made a cake and will show up in half an hour with the cake (saviour). And how they, both him and his wife working, with 2 children, had an schedule totally filled and had to say “no, thank you”. With the result, that the mother in law first got totally upset and accusing (victimizer) and finally complained how she always tries to do them a favour and how it took her half the day to make that cake, that is now not valued (victim).

The same day a healer made me an offer. Something that I defo would need and only few places are available, but I can have one (saviour). I didn´t feel in any way I need his produkt and gave him a friendly no, wishing him all the best. (I sensed his pressure already as he needs the money, that´s been the reason why I made sure my no is an uplifting one. People often forget that I read energies). He than was not able to accept my no, telling me this would be just my fear and ego. (LOL?!). I still stayed patient, telling him it´s a bit absurd to tell me to know better than myself what I need. Oh my, that  made him freak out totally! He went full circle or triangle, how unaware I am (victimizer), how outstanding his produkt is, that I wouldn´t value (victim) and how I had missed my great opportunity (saviour).

It´s just an example, as this was a timely coincident, but I decided to write about it, as I see this Drama-Triangle playing out so often. It´s a very destructive behaviour and people are totally unaware how they sabotage themselves and their goals. See, I never thought bad about that healer, my thoughts were positive, I never thought he might offer products that are not good. Just I have a 24/7 direct line to my higher aspects, they tell me what I need or not. I even felt compassion towards him, as I knew how it feels like to need money desperately. But that never made me manipulate or belittle others, no matter how difficult life became. See, you can not give out such an energy and expect to thrive in life. You just make things worse on the long run.

The reason why the Drama-Triangle isn´t working, but destructive:

You can not pump up your selfworth by belitteling others.  And you are no victim, but in charge of your re-actions to life. And for sure you can not feel important by playing the saviour.

The whole Drama-Triangle is created by a low selfworth, what is most common on this planet. But it can only play out when you do not face your own feelings and when you still believe the big lie of “better or less than”.

What helps, no matter if you create the triangle or have to face someone who plays it out, is to bring in awareness. Observe what is just happening. If you have to deal with people, playing out that Drama-Triangle very often, you might remind yourself with hanging a picture of this triangle next to your phone or computer.

Your awareness will help you to not get dragged into the destructive game, but to stay present with yourself. So you do not have to take things personally. It has nothing to do with you, but it´s all about them and their projections. I might feel compassion towards them, but nevertheless I stay away from people that are fully engaged in this game. I give people the opportunity to become aware and to stop their behaviour, but if they do not want  to take responsibility for themselves I stay away from them. For me that´s a matter of self-respect and self-care to not engage more than needed with toxic people. But in most cases you do not have to remove them, as they can not stand your presence, when you gain and emanate selfworth, and will stay away themselves. Of course they will tell everyone else what a horrible person you are, but well, the ones that believe them, they deserve them 😉

Take good care and shine your light <3

 

The waves of change

When we start to move beyond the limitations of the old earth, we realize that there are no more absolutes. Black´n white? Right or wrong? Good and bad? Yes, they are somehow still existing, but they are more a point of perspective than the ultimate truth. There are no more absolutes. All rules and limitations are just a temporary guideline. What suited you yesterday, might be a “no way!” today and vice versa. We realize, that our so-called opponents believe to do the right thing, just like we do. And someone we believed to be trustworthy might be involved in a skandal the next day.

I know a lot of the turmoil on the earth is happening at the moment because people insist on their old ways, rules and limitations. And when we resist to go with the flow of the new energies, we are moved by outer circumstances and forces. That´s a scary experience, unless you understand what´s happening and go with the flow instead of against it.

And no, I´m not a theorist. I know how it feels like. I´m going through a difficult process the last few month myself. But I´m at peace with it, because I know what it is all about. Therefore it is much smoother, than it would be otherwise. It´s sometimes still a hell of a rollercoaster, but through great love and divine grace I experience the best possible route and much help along my way.

I try to share all of this in my articles, to assist others on their path, to lighten it a bit. I listen to you, to much that is said and to even more that is unspoken, but felt nevertheless.

Mother Earth, and we with her, is in a birthing process. Although we know the result will be beautiful, we forget it when we are in pain. A few month ago I described in another article how I once received heavenly birthhelp, as the picture of a surfer showed up on my inside, when I gave birth to my daughter. It totally changed the experience. Starting as a long exhausting labour, the whole process switched in an instant. My daughter came in in a powerful wave of love and light, causing my own spiritual awakening, what is now 30 years ago.

Maybe that´s the reason why I love to assist people in their own processes..birthing their own light. And no, I can not promise you, that your life will not be shaken anymore. The changes will go on and you will somehow witness and experience them. But the how depends on you. Noone can do it for you, but it´s my pleasure to share my knowledge.

These 3 reminders can help you to surf the waves of change:

  1. Do not resist the waves of change. If you try to fight or resist them, you´ll get hurt. Ride them like a surfer and you´ll experience fun or even bliss.
  2. Trust the process. Life is not your enemy, but asks you to cooperate. Watch the waves and follow your inner knowing how to go with the flow.
  3. Become one with the ocean. Be part of the change. Allow the ocean to carry you, so you can be an expression of the new earth. That´s when you´ll experience to be protected by divine grace, as you receive whatever you need.

I hope this helps a little bit. All who search for personal guidance in a one-on-one session and feel attracted to my work, may check out my homepage for further conditions: http://soulutions.one/

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The result of the new earth is already a given. We are the ones that create our own path towards her. I wish all of you the perfect wave to reach the shores of the new earth with much love and joy <3

 

 

 

Where do you invest your energy in?!

The old energy is fighting for its life. The trouble the old energy has, is that it needs energy. Therefore it creates distraction, confusion, drama and turmoil. It needs attention = energy. Darkness can not create energy itself, as it has lost its connection to source. Darkness is needy as hell! It desperately needs your energy.

Where you put your attention, there you invest your energy.

Read this again!

What kind of return do you expect, when you still give your energy to the blamers, complainers, cheaters and drama-creators?!

Now reflect: Who tries to get your attention? Who causes confusion? Who always needs you to help them, pay for them, take sides with them, do stuff for them? Who manipulates you? Tells you what to do and what not? Makes you go for their visions, fight their battles, dream their dreams? Who tells gossip? Tells even lies? Blames others for own shortcomings? Who plays with marked cards and plays the victim card when nothing else is working any more? Who drains your energies? Sometimes it is the person that you´d expect the least. Darkness is not stupid. It has some manipulative masters in their games and at astonishing places, you wouldn´t expect them. Unless you start to think again.

I have always had compassion. Even for the mean guys, as I know their fuel is pain and fear and they live in a kind of hell. I always tried to help even them, as much as possible, to leave their dark patterns behind.

A few month ago I received new orders. “Stop fixing the old. Build the new!” There´s no more time and energy to waste in those that invested in the old and refuse to let go. This is the planet of free choice and everyone made his decission. This has to be honored. You do not honor it with wasting your ressources on destructive discussions, patterns and behaviours. Send them love, let them go on their rampages of distortion, entitlement and illusion. That´s none of your business, instead take care for bringing in the fresh water of the soul.

I know this world is loud and confusing. But you´ve gotta refuse all this distr actions. We have to learn to stop listening to outer voices. Why do you take others words for real? Did you check the data? Why do you make those assumptions? Have you witnessed what really took place?  Are you sure? That´s funny, as you read my words. That tell you to not listen to outer words. Maybe your subconscious needed me to tell you, you´ve got your answers inside. It is crucial that you learn to listen to the voice of your own heart. And make sure it is not the voice someone installed in your head.

No matter what will occur on the outside, your connection with your true self will help you navigate through all difficulties. Nothing is more important at the moment than your connection with you. There you find all the answers, where to go, what to eat, where to live, where to travel, how to find a mate, friends, with whom to work and with whom not.

You can not enter the new earth while clinging on old earth patterns, places, believes and people. Choose wisely <3

 

The false light

I have had the pieces and parts of the puzzle since a while, but a few days ago, they started to make really sense.

I knew that the matrix was actually two matrixes: the “natural one” and the Matrix in the matrix. A kind of prison and deception. First the good news: It´s no more a prison, but you´ve gotta realize that you are free, to leave it.

How to leave it? Take your power back and stop thinking you´d be better or less than someone else. Stop handing your responsibility to others. Relax and just be yourself.

I never fitted into normal society. But very often I did also not fit into spiritual groups. Something felt strange. The games have been the same, just more subtile. From agressive, to passive-agressive was one step, but there was only one thing to top it all and that was the righteous lightworker. I felt how some people fooled and manipulated really beautiful souls and wondered why noone recognized it. It´s the kind of sweetness, that has something strange about it. Like Aspartam. It´s not really sweet and makes you ill.

When you piss me off, I´ll show it. But no matter how off I think you to be, I never stop honoring and loving you. But that kind of person pretends to be at peace (while you feel their hatred). If you piss them off they will talk love´n light, but they will use anything they have, to bring you down. Cause that´s the signature of the false light: It has to be better, holier, more evolved than you, so it has to make you somehow wrong and less.

The false light is hierarchical. It excludes. The secret order. The inner circle. And if you enter, they believe to own you. You have to obey to their laws, to the decission of the bosshoss, or holy highpriestess of the highest of all high. The false light is a trap, installed by darkness to fool those that try to leave the dark/old paradigm.

The false light has copied everything that ever was of the real light. It is everywhere, it has overtaken all governments and religions. They used the real christ, buddha, mohammed, maria, gaia, sophia and made a surrogate. Look around. That´s why in the name of the christ the biggest crimes of all times have been commited. That´s why the false copy of god is a jealous one. That´s why there are banks that make people poor, why a part of the food industry poisons people and some pharmarcies make people sick with intend.

They have created a problem and than they offer a false solution. They create the pain and sell you pain-killer, but they do not help you to regain your health, that is your birthright. They don´t care about you and your rights, they just make sure that the sheps never leave the flock.

And do not get fooled by wonders. They are masters of deception. A false jesus showing up at night next to your bed, so you may fall on your knees for worship and sending you on a mission. I can tell you that the real light respects your free will, it helps you on your mission and it knelts down to wash your feet. I had mine been washing often and with so much love lately, I know exactly what I´m talking about.

I knew a lot of the above, but recently I stumbled accidently over one guy that had some missing links for the whole picture. His name is George Kavassilas, you´ll find him on youtube. The drawing you see is inspired by him, but I do not pretend to show his truth, this is just how I understood what he explained. Please check out his work and make up your mind on your own.

The truth shall set you free. You are free. It´s up to you to realize it.

 

Grouping instead of herding

My Higher Self sended me the last two years to places, that I thought I do not know… and my human self had no idea why to go there. It sended me to Israel, Colorado and Norway. Well, it turned out I knew all the “unknown” places I´ve been sended to. I do not remember much details from my pastlife in Colorado, but the Rockies have helped me to reconnect with a greater eternal power, that I had natural access to in that pastlife. And of course I have been living in Israel. Finally in Trondheim I stood even at our own grave from another century, together with my pastlife husband next to me. Who wasn´t realizing at all, he was supposed to be dead. Too funny. So I learned to trust my Inner Guidance totally, when sended on a task.

This year I have been sended to quite different “unknown” places. Going public and doing group-work. First I´ve been told to do the Monthly Rose Touch Session and now lately I received the topic of a webinar-series to give. Both is group-work of course and I always thought I am not good at grouping. I never fitted into groups and now I should be even the one leading group-sessions?

I can sense energies and therefore the dynamics and hidden intends in groups have always been very obvious and frustrating to me. I saw how people tricked and manipulated each other, how fractions have been builded, destroyed and how goals have been sabotaged. Everyone had his own selfish agendas and all together they´ve been used by their leaders. The many following the ideas and interests of the few, that pretended to know what´s best for all, while moving people around on their chessboard. And of course it´s been energy-feeding of the worst kind. Even when I did not know this terminology at that time, I saw it happen all my life. It was “normal”, like so many distortions on earth…but it has always felt absolutely wrong to me.

I remember being in an urban gardening group and people spoke their mind until one of the leaders spoke another…and all people, believing they are of the new consciousness, just dropped their own thinking in a splitsecond, when the brainbug made a choice they thought to be totally stupid two minutes before.  It´s never been understandable to me, how people become in groups totally mindless…and heartless.

I´ve once been a trainee in a company with a very strict boss, whom everyone feared. When the boss disliked a person, noone made friends with the outsider, that would be dismissed soon. I was also often the outsider, but by own choice, being friendly with most people, but staying independent. One day a young woman, red hair, strong, proud Leo, has been sended into the office of the boss. The young woman seemed to have lots of friends in the company and they spend their lunchbreak together, went out shopping and often even spended the evenings together. Well, it broke my heart when this young woman came out of the office of the boss, sobbing like a little child. I would have thought it to be impossible, that she could be broken in an instant by a few cruel words. Well it´s not been the words, it´s been the energy behind them, as I recognize in hindsight. And I was even more shocked when no one of the “good friends” dared even looking at her. I couldn´t believe what I had to witness. I knew I would need a reference from that big boss very soon, but I knew I had to look into the mirror even sooner, so I stood up, went to her, hugged her and gave her a tissue. Than I pulled her out of the room, into the kitchen, to calm her down.  No, group-dynamics of the old energy are for sure not for me!

I listen to everyone, as everyone is holding some wisdom. And I love to co-operate, but I take no orders, but those from my own source. I am following the truth of my heart, as the beloved sovereign daughter of the divine. No one is allowed to rule over me and I need no membership to give love and support to others. It is my very nature.

I love to see people thrive. Happy, healthy people make me jump for joy. And more happy, healthy people are the only option for mankind to coexist with Gaia. That´s why I accepted to work with people instead of watching out for a cabin and a cat in the woods.

But of course I am confronted with the old energy herding issues when being present in social media or when working with groups. People often have zero awareness how they are used. They believe to express their own thoughts, while they are manipulated by those that want to be fed and admired. Divide and conquer is still working.  And so I had to ask my higher self: “I want people to be independent and free. What the heck is going on that you want me to herd people?! Or why do you want me to deal with the distortions of those wannabeanimportantleadersheps, that feel challenged by me and my unshepishness?” The answer was: “Quite the opposite! These are the reasons why you have been called to do groupwork. No follower, only sovereigns.” The rest came not as a thought or sentence, but as a complex understanding; all the answers at once. Source is multidimensional…to put it in words in a row is limiting for it.

I have been shown my memory from a higher realm, a kind of heavenly meadow, that I have mentioned before: I remember being at a place in perfect harmony with my surrounding and the other beings, each an individual, but all aware of each other and connected on the inside, through our consciousness, but we were free beings. No obligations, no leadership, no agenda, no brainbug. Just being ourselves and coexisting. That´s how the law of nature is working, bringing together the perfect mixture of diversity. I was told while my download that it is also the blueprint of the Age of Aquarius.

And a few weeks ago, a former shadow aspect, that turned out to be a knight, has shown me the picture of a roundtable, where he placed all of my inner aspects. That´s grouping as it should be. At a roundtable all have a voice. One is opening it, but everyone is just as important as the other. They want the best for all, not just for the king or queen, but for the whole queendom, so everyone will be accepted in it, to thrive in it and be worthy and valued for being himself.

I understood that I am among those, that are holding the inner knowledge how to bring in some tools of the new earth. In fact it is not new, but the original creation, before it went into total distortion under the service to self, herding here the human sheps for so long and fooling all people. And in the spiritual community it had been just a bit more sophisticated, tricky and subtile, but it has been just the same mentality. Mind-control and power-games. Someone called it New (C)Age, and there´s much truth about it. All eating the same, dressing the same, thinking the same, acting the same and be lie ving this is their party, while they had de-live-red the food for the wolf, who´s still been herding them.

Total loss of the own sovereign creator self. I know it seems to be not easy, but I know the only way to be a sovereign, is to be a sovereign. In the example where I have dared to comfort the crying woman, I received my  reference. I went to the boss to tell him that I need it as I  am going to leave and he answered: “Write it and I´ll sign it!” This guy was known to never ever sign anything without lots of changes. So I wrote myself an almost perfect reference, as I knew I have been a real good worker. I went to the office of my boss, he read it and signed it without to hesitate even for a splitsecond. When I came out of the office, smiling and head-high, all came running to me, and almost collapsed when they saw the signature. When I look back, I seldom had trouble with the big boss. They know a sovereign, when they see one. It´s been the wannabethetopsheps, that did cause me trouble. But they are living proof that my work is needed, as people need to reconnect with their original, sovereign being to create a new earth with their gifts and talents.

Whenever you and your truth is not valued, whenever someone else claims to know your path, as they claim to be better, more evolved or holy, than you are fooled. Whenever you have to obey to the rules of others, than you are fooled.  Never take others power or give yours away.

The grouping of sovereign beings only occures to enjoy each others beauty, to learn from each other, to encourage each other, while everyone is free to be himself, to come and go by free will. Noone has to be held accountable for others demands, when everyone is able to take full responsibility for the own being.

Whatever someone is telling you, including me, has to resonate with something inside of you. Than you know it is of value for your individual path. And no, you do not have to walk him alone. I am myself much more connected than I have ever been. Your vibe attracts your tribe. And sends the others away.

All of my work, may it be a one-on-one session, the monthly Rose Touch, a webinar or my books and articles have one and the same intend: to assist you on your own journey. Do not follow me, but get inspired to follow yourself. The only reason why I shine my light in the public is to remind you to:

Shine your light!

 

 

When the wolf becomes the shepherd

I wanted to write this article since a long time, but as it may stir up things, I had to ask myself if the outcome might be worth it. People love their Polyannaland, and spiritual people especially. To be honest, that includes me. I love green meadows, butterflies, love and peace.

But this meadow has to be inhabited by us and at the moment it is not as much as we wish it to be. I know we only come to a state of peace and harmony, when having done our shadow-work. That has to happen on a personal level, but it will reach out to all areas of life.

Kryon has mentioned that the time of fence-sitting is over. I call it “becoming real”, as we have to walk our talk now. He also said, that there will be a division, even between lightworkers. As I can sense the truth of that, and have seen some important reasons for that division, I have to write this article.

I can sense things that are “out of balance”. In retrospective that is why I am good in almost every job, even the ones that I do not like. Once I have had 648 packages of data on my computer-screen and had to give the ok for the payments, that have been encoded in these datas. But there was this one line on my screen that “felt strange”, I opened the data and found a huge mistake in it. People thought me to be really good with numbers, but no, I´m just good in sensing energy. People fear mistakes, therefore I have made myself a lot of enemies when finding an error. But I never wanted anyone to feel miserable or bad about it, I just wanted to “heal” things, so they can run smooth and easy. When I have a client in front of me, I tune into the energies and re-arrange them to be more stable and balanced. I do not judge them for having imbalances. We all have them and we all need assistance to come into alignment again from time to time, me too.

And I also do not want to blame the ones that have created imbalance and hide it…what is called darkness. I just try to bring in the light of consciousness, as we all have an effect on our surrounding and the ones that are teaching out of a state of imbalance, to people that tried to find balance and healing, are causing great harm sometimes.

Plus there are some therapists, healers and teachers out there, that have a hidden, selfish agenda. They offer healing although they would need it themselves much more. What they do not see themselves, as the narcissist has to keep up his false persona, the spiritual narcissist even more. They cannot and do not want to see the truth. Often we become healers, because of our wounds. Or we teach, because we´ve received so many lessons. Nobody is perfect and we all have some darkness inside of us. Darkness is not what we have to fear, the dark is just the unknown…what makes some people really dangerous is that they have this hidden agenda, their intend is a very selfish and cruel one. And some are even installed to do so. Who helps them? Who benefits from divided and confused lightworkers? Think about it. The ones I´m talking about have sold their soul to things like power, money etc. They are energetic vampires, they feed off those who come to them for healing and wisdom.

I stumbled “accidentely” a few times over those people and have been talking with friends lately about it, that have recognized these wolfish shepherds also. And as so many coincidents have come together lately, I decided to write about the wolfs, that pretend to be shepherds.

The way how this con-guides attract the sheps is that they provide real help. That´s how I stumbled over them. I saw that they have some truth, some real good things to offer. It really broke my heart when I saw why they offer it. That´s really malicious. They could help so many, but instead the shepherd is just offering green meadows to herd the sheps. And they are looking  for the nicest and kindest persons to cause the biggest harm!

These false shepherds have been working in traditional religious organisations and now they are also in between the New Age Community. Talking about Love´n Light and handing once in a while a shep to the butcher. This has been a clever concept, cause the bigger the crowd of devoties, the less one missing shep would be noticed. The other sheps will not protect the one shep. They want to believe that it had to be sorted out as it was ill. And to be very clear, some sheps have even witnessed something that should make them wonder…but they have decided to sell their souls likewise…to green meadows…until they are shed or butchered and that day is coming, that´s for sure. You think you just have to stay close to the wolf,  to serve him, please him, and you´ll be safe. But truth is, that when he looks at you, he´s thinking how yummy you might taste. They are masters of manipulation, they are even using your compassion against you. They tell stories about their own wounds and hardships and you open your heart, wanting to protect and nourture them. And you will, but the wolf won´t even be grateful for that, as he just laughs about the stupid sheps.

Dear ones, the old energy tries to survive by pretending to be working for the new earth, but they don´t. If you want to spot them, look at their actions, and the outcome of those. I know this article might not find many likes, but I didn´t come to be liked. I came to live me truth and to be of service to others. Their joy is my joy, their alignment is mine. And their suffering is saddening me, so I will speak up. We are all here to walk each other home.

The wolfish shepards can only exist as long as we give away our power to outer authorities, as long as we believe in hollow words, without looking at the cruel actions and poisoned fruits. Think about it.  There´s a choice to be made. Being a herded shep or wanting to walk your own path, following your own guidance? The real teacher, leader, healer will tell you that you are your own truth, health, guidance. They´ll assist you to re-connect with your own divine core. For the ones, that are interested in sorting out whom to trust and where to be careful, I´ll write a second article.

Shine your precious light!

 

Open and true communication

There seem to be so much communication going around, but when we take a closer look a lot of it is just noise. It is distracting, confusing and even creating division instead of understanding.

We do not use communication for what it was ment to be, to show ourselves truly, to exchange points of views and experiences, to than gain better understanding of “the other”. Instead we show a false persona and speak hollow words.

Instead of true communication we lie, cheat, manipulate, fool each other (and of course ourselves, as we try to convince ourselves very often through our talk). Why? Because we think we are not good enough. That we wouldn´t be accepted when we show ourselves truly and freely. We believe to be seen as weak or vulnerable when we really speak our truth.

Well, I find the opposite to be true. The more I am aware of my own strenght, the more I am able to be open. When something is needed in this time of masks and illusions than it is true, open communication.

Real communication brings us to a place where we are able to see what we might have in common and that leads to a union beyond our diversity. There is always much more we have in common with people, than what seperates us from them. Even enemies have often much in common: Their fear, their investment in lack-mentality, their longing for safety and their believe the other would prevent them from being safe and having enough.

People are afraid others wouldn´t respect them, if they knew their weakpoints. Well, when you allow yourself to show your true self you will respect yourself for your strenght and authenticity. If you respect yourself, your weakpoints stop being weakpoints, it is just the perfect imperfect way the divine shows itself through you. The ones that than turn their back on you, not allowing your honesty, have never been a real match. It is perfect that they run to worship another illusion, to distract them from their own vulnerability. You want people that love you for who you are, and they are not able until now.

Someone told me lately that I would be too open, that I would expose myself, when talking about childhood trauma or about having had an ailment. That as a healer, teacher and a living Rose I should be an example of the divine and therefore be the best I can be. Well, I had a good laugh. Cause that is what I am. Being aware of my divine self, although I was abused as a child or having myomas. I chose that path, to be as divine AND imperfect as everyone else. To show that we are always perfect in our imperfection. Always loved, no matter what happens and that we can heal ourselves, cause everything we need to overcome our obstacles is already within us and around us. Showing my perfect imperfections is the very best I can provide.

The new healer, teacher is not showing only one aspect of himself, the divine self, s/he is showing them all, cause the most important teaching and healing s/he is providing is the truth, that you have it all inside of you also. If they are imperfect humans, your imperfection is okay, if they are divine, you are divine.

True communication shows all that you have inside. Others will  compare notes and choose what is helpful for them. In this way we benefit from communication. We have fooled ourselves and others long enough. Time to get real, to really show up, to really exchange our knowledge and truth.

When people speak to me one-on-one they dare to be real, to speak their truth, show their weakpoints. They know they can trust me, because I have been through it all myself. I know darkness, that´s why I can hold the light. I am compassionate, not because I am more holy than they, but because I am human, just like they. We have to make peace with our human self to embody the divine self.

When there is nothing to hide, that´s how we truly shine your light!

The freeing of the throat chakra

I am living a life that is filled with wonders. It really is, they are sometimes happening to me, sometimes happening through me or witnessed by me. Often these wonders have had many little steps of preparing before a huge groundbreaking step could be made, that seems like an unbelievable wonder, coming out of the blue. Literally in this case, as the color of the throat-chakra is blue.

I have been silenced and killed for speaking my truth so very often, like so many of us have been. Experiencing to stay in silence when we should have spoken up, or to have spoken, when we should´ve stay silent. Whatever we did, it always had lead into trauma of some kind.

Exactly one year ago I was told by a guy that I should be more careful with my self-expression, as I´d not be aware of the power of my words. I looked at him and thought that he is not aware, that this power he projected onto me, was also his own and that he silenced me so often in other lifes because he struggeled with his own power and voice. Well, this time he didn´t kill me physically, but took my voice in other ways with much cruelty. We were a perfect match of suppressed self-expression. But it could do me no real harm, as I am using all adversities now  as stepping stones and try to transmute all energies. And a lot of it had to do with freeing my throat and taking back my voice.

I have described a few weeks ago in a blogpost, how my creativity had been suppressed in my childhood and how I had started with writing almost 12 years ago. Many things happened to free my throat in these years. Bringing out my first two books the last 5 years, I have had  a writers podcast, I´ve been creating this blog a year ago, in a language that I almost not even dared to speak, because of mean mocking about my abilities to express myself in english. In the beginning of 2017 I even started to have little vids on a YouTube-Channel and I recorded two guided meditations into the “Inner Rosegarden”. Recently I had started a german blog about my childhood abuse and speaking about my true self as a Healer of Hearts. I have started to express myself in many ways, but I never dared to sing, as I´ve been unable to hold the tone and have been deeply shamed for that. I had also described in that blogpost how I nevertheless once have sung a song to my daughter when she was a baby and how she had felt the love in my voice and stopped crying and fell asleep.

But still I couldn´t hold a tone and was very shy even when singing a happy birthday together with others when my voice was hardly heared at all. Well, yesterday I went to an online meeting for “Balancing your throat chakra”.

Today I suddenly starting singing. And don´t get me wrong, I´ll not start a new business and I will not become a great singer. But I used my voice naturally, expressing my feelings openly and not feeling ashamed at all. To prove it I have today recorded the song I have been singing to my daughter as a baby. It was created out of two Elvis-Songs, that came to my mind that night 30 years ago, when I had tried to comfort my crying daughter. Today this song, you hear when opening the link: The freeing of the throat-chakra had closed a beautiful circle. I have just changed the lyrics a little bit.

A deeply felt “Thank you” to everyone, that helped me to become free, like a bird in a tree.

We can only perceive our own nature

I was wondering a long time, why people can not see the love and beauty all around them. And I´ve got to confess that for a very long time I tried to help them see. But we can not. It´s been a lesson that took me quite some years, made me knock so often at the wrong doors, or wait for people that they finally move to a nicer state of being. But that has been just a distraction from my own path and a total waste of time and energy…well, but of course it doesn´t really matter, as there is no lack of time and energy in the multiverse.

Must have been eight or nine years ago, when I wrote a story about an angel, visiting hell and trying to tell the tortured souls they might just very easily leave their pots of boiling water. But noone listened, they just wanted her to stay next to them, to hold their hands while they moaned about the pain, instead of just leaving it behind. There was even one guy, trying to convince her to join him, as this would be a luxurious yacuzzi and they might have a hot pot party. If I find that story, I might translate it in english and post it, it is quite funny – and true.

For a long time I thought people are just fooled into darkness, but more and more I see, that it is their free choice. You might offer them as much love and light as you want, they´ll not be able to deal with it. Even when they pretend that they want it, they do not. You can send them a Jesus and they´ll nail him to the cross, sell the pieces and parts of that cross, kill and torture others in the name of Jesus…and not understand one of his words.

For a long time I thought something must be wrong with me, cause somehow people just couldn´t see or hear me. Literally. People almost run into me very often. Physically seen it is not easy to oversee or overhear me. Some people told me it must be my faulth, that I do not see myself, or do not show myself. And of course I was so willing to see it as my failure. It is not, all is well and I received some masterlessons lately.

I tried to tell people in my office that I do not want to hear things about violence, rape and sexual abuse, especially not the details out of a police report…but they just did not hear it. They reacted on the first half of my sentence (cause they normally listen), but the rest they just did not hear. If they would have listened, they would have to face their hunger for destortion, and that´s not what they want to see…and change. Today I even left the room in the middle of their talk, without saying one word, I turned around and simply left, let them literally speak into empty air and they did not react at all to my unusual and rude behaviour. Astonishing.

I exposed some really unknown chapters of my life lately and people that are normally following every move of me and that are really curious just did not see it. Interesting.

Yesterday I read an eye-opening story in “Memoirs of a Master”. In this story the Master visits a shop in an Elvis-Las- Vegas-Dress and at the end there is a message over the loudspeaker saying “Elvis has left the building”…and noone reacts. People do not see and hear what is out of their own vibration. And in this story it is explained that this happens for safety-reasons. So when I was trying it today, acting in a rude manner and people didn´t respond at all, I realized it is true.  And for the first time I felt good, when not being seen and heared. I´ve been dragged to the pyre too often by people that called it a bonfire, as destroying what they weren´t able to build had been their passion by free choice. No need to hang around with them. We can not make the blind see, unless they want it.

Today when coming from work I entered the tram, that´s been overly crowded, as it´s been rush-hour. On the ground there was a broken white Rose, maybe it felt out of a bouquet. Noone saw the flower, I wondered how it comes that they did not step onto her. So I picked her up, carried her home and gave her water. I posted a picture and the comment of Coco, that this flower is like fresh snow, pure, made me realize, that she would have seen and picked the Rose also. Her words showed who she is. People can only perceive purity and beauty, when they have it themselves.

We can not heal the darkness of others, just remove our own (we all have it to some degree). But when we shine our light, the right ones will see it. Isn´t that perfect?

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