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Personas, stories and the own path.

We i-dentify with our story. The stories we have collected, about us and others, are shaping our personality and the way we look at life. And everybody has different stories, that are than creating what we see as the own his(s)tory. In the end every person is walking through life in an own kind of reality-bubble. We tend to identify with this bubble, but it is just a way we chose to express our selves. The trouble on planet earth starts when we believe to be the bubble. Or maybe worse, when we want to overtake others.

From my point of view there is nothing wrong with everyone having an own bubble, cause we came here to live our own life, that´s the fun-factor of creation. We incarnated with the intend to play with reality creation. Just know it is nothing to cling on, but always evolving, flowing. So please tell me why people act and behave as if their story is more “right” or “true” than the bubble of someone else? Why would people need to tell someone else where to live and how to live? ? What to wear, eat, work, write and be?!

I always used to question my own point of view, as so many would share theirs with so much certainty. But that has changed meanwhile. I know that my point of view is just my point of view and may change…but it has to be my own point of view and noone elses. The god-self has created all of these fractals with intend. Being “one with all-that-is” doesn´t implicate, that we shall not experience different shades of real-i-ty. I listen to everyone, as everyone has to share something that might resonate with me and I value and love every-bodies story. But noone owns the ultimate story. Life is evolving, the journey never ends, so we change our perspective and personality. And it should be the own path we follow and not someone elses. My “mistakes” are mine alone, I need no excuses and noone else to blame. I am a sovereign creator – and so are you!

I am receiving messages, that are “channeled”. But I know that every channeled message is somehow influenced by the bubble of the channeler. A channeled message doesn´t necessarily be more accurate than your own “inner knowing”. So whatever I share,  has the intend to inspire those that find meaning in it. I do not need to give meaning to it and I would never impose my meaning onto someone else. My channelings and writings hold some wisdom, but are not “the ultimate truth”. And I never, ever tell other people how they should live their lifes. Yes, people are comming to me for guidance and advice, but I always try to assist them in finding their “own message”.

This is what I came for, to help others to be themselves, so no priest, leader or channeler will be able to overtake someone elses life, as people are able to live their own truth.

No outer authority is higher than your own inner wisdom. As coincidents are happening in a row lately to me, I listened today to the astrologer and channeler “The Leo King” and he said, that noone, really noone has really “figured it out” totally. And that, if someone says he has, he´s lying. And these words really resonated with me. Some might do it with intend, to manipulate others. And some just do it, as they are not even sure about their own path, so they think walking with others in the same bubble (what is not possible on the long run anyway), would make them feel more safe. Only people that are no sovereigns need followers.

There´s intend in having an own life. We all have our bubble, our story.  But please stop imposing yours on others. I met people that have been totally confused by others and their assumptions and stories and it is strange as always the wrong persons question themselves. It is difficult enough to find the own path, even when noone tells you what to do. So first thing I do is to help them reconnect with their own guidance.

Some take the word “wayshower” too literal. Dare to walk your own path, that´s enough. Walk your talk, and it´ll be a Masters path. I´ve incarnated in this lifetime in Germany (what made me wonder a long time). But now I know that one of the important lessons in my life is the difference between a leadership, that is forced by pressure and/or manipulation and that of someone who is in alignment with the own self. Than you do not need to convince others. You will inspire them to be them selves, also. Just be – your self…shining your light!

 

The Mind-Behaviour-Gap

While  chatting yesterday with an always inspiring friend, I wrote: “People are not who they want to be.” Well, that´s something, that I´ve seen quite often in my life. People talking about how much they enjoy harmony, while behaving passive-agressive. They are preaching about truth and authenticity, while behaving manipulative. Seeing it within others has always been a reminder for me to stay grounded.

I guess that´s what Kryon means when he spoke about  the “fence-sitters”. Cause in theory everybody wants to have peace, but when it comes to daily interactions it gets difficult, as long as there´s no peace inside. And people want of course a clean environment, while still buying cheap products, wrapped in tons of plastic. In psychology that´s called the mind-behaviour-gap, describing the difference between thoughts and actions.

Everybody does it. I´m doing it. And I think that´s ok. Nobody´s perfect. Having an ideal is like watching the north-star as a navigation mark, to know in which direction to go. We know we can never reach him, but we´re on track. From my point of view we´re only getting in big trouble when we identify so much with the star, the ideal, that we refuse to reflect and therefore accept our human self here on earth. The one that is experiencing the journey.

This disavowed behaviour is causing a kind of self-inflation, together with pain and trouble, ending in total denial and infatuation. Interestingly enough, people with high standards and ideals have a much higher risk, to walk that path of illusion. They are longing so much for an ideal, that they can not deal with reality as it is. But only when we are facing reality, we are able to create change.

Therefore I really, really ask people to accept their flaws and shortcommings. When we love our messy selves, we have a much higher chance to really evolve and change. When we pick on ourselves, we are becomming destructive and therefore maybe create denial. From my point of view, that´s how we create shadow-aspects. We will than project our inner war onto the outside world, blaming others for the flaws and shortcommings that we can not accept within us, as they are not mirroring our “wanted reality”. Think about it as if life would offer a GPS, you can give in your goal until you are blue in the face, when you do not also allow to see your position in the now, the GPS will never ever be able to find your route. And you can than curse the GPS, but it´s the one using it, that has made the mistake. We all make them. Laugh about it and start anew. Just where you are. Be the change.

Distractions on our path

Sometimes I receive teachings while my sleep-time. I guess that´s happening quite often, but I´m not always able to transfer these transmissions into my conscious mind. But this one came in quite intense, as I´ve been told it is really important at the moment:

When you think of all that is happening as a kind of game, than you can understand that distractions are a way to make a team not score as good as it could otherwise. Team Light is winning anyways…or seen from a non-dualistic perspective it has always prepared for winning, even when it´s seemed to have lost sometimes…But sometimes we seem to get lost in distractions, Team Dark (as it is unconscious) is using distractions to keep us off track. I´m an empath. I´ve got to confess that I´ve been easily distracted. Someone might need help, a friend calling in tears, or a guy showing up and making things somehow complicated…I used to be falling for all of that.

I realized that I´ve gotta be really aware what my priorities are. Here are some distractions I have faced, that seem to be quite common:

  1. When someone might really need help, that´s important. But I´ve spend a lot of time with people that just caused drama, to make sure, they will not have to evolve and still get attention. Where´s the point in joining them in this borrrrring repetition mode? Focus on those that are really moving forward.
  2. Or other people have no goals and priorities at all, but are distracting themselves and others to not feel the void in their life. Why join them onto their road to nowhere, nonsense and nohope?
  3. When a guy doesn´t know what he wants…he for sure doesn´t want me. Love isn´t complicated, only games are.
  4. Yes, I need to earn my living. But I´m living to express what I love. We shall not allow 3d stuff to get too serious.
  5. Yes, we have to clean-up our energy-field. But we have lived thousands of lifetimes on this planet, even in other galaxies, we killed each other a million times, been misused, traumatized, abandoned endlessly. Where´s the point in re-living all of that in this lifetime? Find the root-feeling, like abandonment or powerlessness, go into that and love it into the light. And than go out and have fun and not re-activate all experiences again and again.
  6. Yes there´s a dark agenda out there. But you cannot figure it out in all details anyway. Going too deep in conspiracies is just making people becoming confused. Stay aware, question things…but spend way more time focusing on what you want, instead of the unwanted.
  7. Do not resist circumstances you can not change at the moment. Use your energies for things, that are running smoothly. All that is in the flow is on your path. All that isn´t moving, you shoudn´t force. Might be it will move at another point in time, but don´t sit there waiting for it.
  8. Going within,  finding inner peace and clarity, is creating outer changes. It´s like magic. The outer world is reacting on our inner feeling. So instead of running around, go and meditate or breath calm, have a walk in nature. Things will sort them out afterwards much easier. And even when the outer world should still insist to be stressful, we can through a change in perception make things go much easier for us anyway.
  9. Do our possession own us or do we own our possessions? When you enjoy taking care for a castle with 50 rooms, than keep it. When you dislike all the work that stuff is causing, than let go of all the unused things, rooms, possessions.
  10. The same goes for relationships, memberships and everything we perceive as hardships.

You might find even more points…but I think, it is important generally to become aware what we really want.Does what we are spending our time, money, energy on really mirror our true values in life?

Do what is fun and joy, that´s never a distraction, but on your path and it´s creating good vibes.

Shine your light!

Why all spiritual teachings fall short

When we teach with words and concepts we come to a point where they can no longer teach. Where the path cannot be described, but has to be experienced without concepts.

First of all because every path and experience is different. There is a reason why the divine took endless roads to return to itself. And second because we have an idea of the meaning of words, what is filtering ideas, but the path goes beyond.

There are teachings that say we loose the I am, while I perceive it as the understanding and integration of the I am.

There are teachings, saying that the ego has to die, while I perceive it the way that it just doesn´t matter any more. No-thing is dead, all is a-live.

There are people describing the nothingness, while I perceive it as the “all”.

Because of the concepts and descriptions people take sometimes strange roads, when they follow them, instead their own inner guidance.

They hunt the ego, wherever they perceive it and so they create a new i-dentity, the ego-hunter. I´m laughing my divine ass off. Yes, I still have an ass that is perceived as mine in this moment although I know it is also not.

They become so holy, that they deny the expressions of divine, that are “not holy”. To me that is a joke, there is nothing that isn´t divine.

They suppress their feelings, cut off what had overwhelmed them, and declare their  robotic state of beingness as evolved. Well, I feel more than ever, I come to my senses, able to feel even a stone on the other side of the town.

They focus on one aspect of their being, the enlightened one, and ignore all else. But god/dess is not ignorant, but present in everything.

There is no right way, just the own way. Someone talking about the own way may inspire others, just like I do, but the own way can only unfold in a unique way. Why would the divine send out endless different aspects? There is no mistake in that. So enjoy your own path, no matter which one you choose to experience.

Shine your light and don´t mind your ego, identity, right, wrong, better, less, holy, unholy. Just be and have fun…or not 😉 <3

The new economy

How can I describe the new form of economy in one sentence? Everybody coming in with their gifts, for the benefit of all.

It is a female form of energyflow and in fact it isn´t new, but the oldest and most successful form of exchange at all, as the new economy will look at mother nature, sucessful since eons.

She brings together all kinds of creatures, everyone of them very imperfect and vulnerable. But in their coming together, in their co-working, they create this beautiful-amazing planet we live on.

I tell you how I realized it: I´ve been working in the money-sector for many years, when I left my hometown Frankfurt with it´s many skyscrappers and more and more relentless energy field. My new place to be became Freiburg, more eco and progessive. Here I entered in the beginning a group of people, meeting once a week, to cook something fresh and vegetarian. We normally didn´t know what it´ll be, we didn´t make up who brings what, just trusted we will have yummy food. One was bringing tomatoes and onions, the other peppers and rice and so on. We looked at the vegetables and decided if we want it as a soup, a stew or fried and what we would use for the salad, as he was a given each week. I´ve eaten good and yummy food since than very often, but I can tell you the best salad in my life I had there, because of the diversity in it. Of course it was never the same, but always the best. There I realized how the new economy will work and that this has been the way woman have been making business since the beginning of time. Just noone realized it or appreciated it the last few thousand years, as its been just “womans business”. It doesn´t seem important, but it nurtured everyone until this very day. All you have to know about new economy is in my description of these people coming together for healthy food. You also get a sense of the richness and diversity. No boss, very few rules, all naturally unfolding.

Translate the principle to everything else in society: Bring people with their gifts together and let all involved persons benefit and you´ll know how to make business in the new earth.

I was hesitating if I should add how this fairy tale ended, but you´ve got to know the whole story, to be aware of the pitfalls:  A guy was entering, playing tricks with the woman, causing jealousy and turmoil, he was bringing few, but taking much while playing the enlightened master. No other opinions allowed and everyone that opened the mouth was “not so evolved” and blackmailed. People that no longer wanted to come than, demanding people, neediness, imbalance. Fear that was arising, thoughts of lack, rigid, controlling and excluding behaviour. All just old energy, shadows that were arising. And the reason why I added it at all: I saw it quite often since than, destroying something that was amazing beautiful. We have to be very aware to create long lasting so(u)lutions: It´s not enough to have a good idea, an intend that is pure, we have to live it than, day by day, week by week, not afraid to look at the shadows and to be open and true. That´s much more difficult, but so worth it. The new economy will be very diverse, colorful and abundant. Just like our beautiful Mother Gaia.

Shine your light, share your gifts, come together, just as she does!

 

Why we have to come together

I am coming more and more to a place in my life where I do what I never did before. I thought I would never recommend coworking and gatherings, but I do now, and for very good reasons.

It is your own path, you have to follow and there are two sentences that are true:

  1. Noone can do it for you.
  2. You cannot do it on your own.

Isn´t that a contradiction? Nope.  The first sentence is the reason why  I´ve been an independent person, wherever possible, all my life. And as finding a partner was already difficult in the old energy, groups have been a total nightmare to me. In the old energy people were trying to force or convince each other of the one and only truth (their own) with domination and manipulation. Felt so wrong to see one was leading and the other(s) had to follow. But I am unable to be a devotee and for sure don´t want to have devotees around me.  That´s been the old earth. The problem.

Well, what´s the so(u)lution of the new earth? Independent persons, walking their own path, but coming together to encourage and assist each other, while everybody is totally free and independent. I realized lately that this is what I am doing since years. You´ll only find people of my own kind close to me. All very strong personalities and often very different persons, sharing some interest, while having also other that don´t fit with mine. Everyone on his own path. No need to save someone. Noone to save me. But I also realized that I wouldn´t have made it without them…or at least my path would have been unbelievable long and hard.

It is the year one of new beginnings and it´s time to come together. I´ve made huge progress the last few month while working together with my Rose-Sister Merita Bat Shoshan, to name just one example of many. In the old energy the wounded healer, Chiron, was quite normal. Maybe the reason why I never really stepped fully into this field in the old times. In the new energy the healers cooperate for a fast-track of evolution, sharing insights, methods, laughter, healing and inspiration. A neverending party of joy it is.

But I also realized the huge potential of groups lately, as I gave a group-healing for free. I thought I would give a gift, but suddenly realized that we will all benefit from the energies coming together. I was curious how it´ll work and asked a few people that could feel the difference. And really the energies have been stronger than normally and carried by the high frequencies of the participants. This is the dawn of the Age of Aquarius. As I´ve got a daughter that is Aquarius I know they are very individual persons, but love to come together. And that is what we´ll have to learn. Nobody is so evolved that s/he won´t benefit from assistance and from others.

Go out and bring out what you have, share it with others, encourage each other, assist each other.

Shine your light to inspire and attract others!

The space between the years

The signature of the current time quality is fitting perfectly for a conscious transition from one year to the other.

I´m someone who´s very aware that we can change our lifes every minute, if we choose so. But time has also a quality, why the concepts of timelines seems much more real to me than time as a given in a linear sense. I can sense energies  and my conclusion is:

a) There exist something like cosmic “weather”, energetic conditions  that influence you somehow. That´s why astrology is a scientific artform.

b) Another timeline has another “taste” of energies. You match your timeline through vibration. Sometimes we change them very often in just one day.

Paracelsus called Astrology “the queen of arts”. And that is true, as reading the signs, knowing about the weather is very helpful. But now we see even that there is the possibility to go quantum, to give intend and tune into a frequency of joy or love, to choose a timeline that we enjoy more.

Let´s use that to make a good transition from 2016, the year of endings, to 2017, the year of new beginnings. Here are three steps, that might be helpful for you:

  1. Be grateful for all. I´m using the retro mercury and the capricorn new moon to go inside and I´m making a list of all I´ve experienced, that I´m grateful for. Being grateful is very important as it makes us aware of all the blessings we experience and all the beautiful people in our lifes. If you even write it at a piece of paper, it´s almost unbelievable how much blessings we experience in one year. Being grateful brings you also in a good vibration, to bring in more good things and people. I´m also grateful for the not so nice experiences, as they teached me important lessons. I want to be aware of these lessons, to not recreate them.
  2. Let go of the old. The old means all that is no more needful. Be aware, cause it´s not possible to escape your unwanted stuff. As long as you didn´t get the message, learned your lesson, you won´t be able to let go.  Make sure you  found the hidden treasure in your obstacles. Than take the treasure and let go of the obstacle. The cause for the obstacle is always inside of us. A strange pattern or a believe. Some of these believes may look nice, for example that being a kind person fits to a lightworker, but they might harm us. Well if someone is just unconscious, you are waking them up when you are nice and kind. But if someone is so unconscious that he invested deep, deep in darkness and chooses darkness with intend, being nice isn´t the right answer. That´s one of my lessons this year. You may also write down all that is no more needed in your life and for example burn it at the new years eve as a symbol to send it to the light. I also smudge my home at the end of the year, to clean it from all old energies.
  3. Give intend for the future. What is it inside you, that wants to be lived and experienced? Follow your passion, what is it your heart is yearning for? Make contact with your higher self if there is something that wants to show itself now. Write it also down or even create a visionboard, what is really fun. Hang it somewhere you see it often as a good reminder what you really want, while the new year moves on and  a lot of distractions will show up. From my point of view it´s better to write down the feeling you want to experience, for example “Love” or “Abundance”. Don´t insist it has to be Peter Brown or Betty Smith that has to give you this feeling. And letting abundance or love into your life in a thousand different ways is a much better experience. That won´t exclude Peter Brown and Betty Smith, if they feel the same for you. It will just make your life much richer and fulfilling to choose the energetic taste you want in your life and not care too much about the details. Hand it to your Higher Self and the Devine Service Team.

Wishing all of you a beautiful, joyful and abundant experience while crossing the markers of the years. I´m wishing you lots of love and celebration! May you feel happy and blessed!

Shine your light!

 

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Birthing our own light

Inspired to inspirePosted by Natalie Fri, November 25, 2016 06:36:38
We fear nothing more than our own light. It is overwhelming. Too much.
That´s the reason why our path takes a long, long time. We need to prepare before we are able to trust and open up fully.

The first time I made consciously contact with the light in this lifetime was when I gave birth to my daughter. That happened long ago, February. 2nd 1987. To me that´s a typical kryon joke as it´s been exactly 6 month before the convergence, but it happened the way it happened because there would be the convergence.

I was a young woman of 18 and I really feared giving birth and being a mother. I had absolutly no idea how to make it. Well life doesn´t need us to know how to, it is just unfolding perfectly. It´s been already evening and I had been in labour for 16 hours when a pain hit me that´s been beyond words, I opened my mouth and yelled like crazy – afterwards I felt very astonished and a bit ashamed for loosing control so totally.

It remained the only yell, cause I recieved heavenly birth help. On my inside a picture showed up: A surfer, riding a wave. I understood immediately: Don´t fight the wave, surf it. And I did.
The rest was happening very quickly. The very second my daughter entered earth again, very different things happened simontaneously. I had my feet onto the legs of the midwife, so she could hold against my power. Well actually she couldn´t. She was literally kicked through the whole room and totally stunned as she said something like that never happened in 20 years to her. She couldn´t understand it.
Well, that´s been the power of love.
Cause the moment when my daughter came in the veil was removed for a splitsecond, and I experienced a light, that´s been warm and love and all one. Far beyond all words and the seed of my path as a lightworker in this life.

My daughters father was sitting by my side, holding my hand and he later described again and again that he didn´t understand what was going on. Suddenly the midwife lost balance and was stumbeling through the room and he saw a little grey ball laying between my legs (totally his daughter, she likes soccer just like him 😉 ) and when he looked very puzzled into my face he saw the most happiest and beautiful smile he had ever seen in his whole life. Well, of course – I´ve been in heaven that second. Not only did I birth my daughter out of the light…I also gave birth to my own light.

One might think, that having experienced that, I would hunger for the lovelight. Of course I did. Kept me on the path. Made me study spiritual teachings from all cultures.
But when the light knocked at my door many, many years later I was so afraid that I´ve not been able to let it in fully.

It happened after a Kryon meeting in autumn 2014 in Basel. I left the meeting very quiet and went straight upstairs to my hotelroom and laid down on my bed and opened up. And there it was again. I guess I´ve never been more happy and fearful in my life. I opened up and let it in, cause I wanted it so much, but I couldn´t open fully. It came in so strong, that I´ve been too afraid I might burst into nothingness. So I jumped from love to fear, again and again.

Well, the light is patient. It told me to go to Israel with Kryon 2015. I didn´t understand why and didn´t want to, but of course I followed my inner voice. The best choice ever. Now a path started to unfold, where I´ve been prepared step by step to let it in. Not all at once, but again and again. As much as useful and as I could hold without freakin out or loosing ground. Instead of jumping from love to fear, like a crazy quantum rabbit on drugs, I now let it in slowly, in a balanced way. Others may prefer other ways to find the light.

Each lightworkers journeys is different, all stories are breathtakingly beautiful, but one thing we might mostly have in common:

– Nothing is more overwhelming than the own light. It seems impossible to embody that.

It is us, birthing our own lovelight.

May the surfer help us to go with the waves and not against it.

Shine your light

We can´t loose what we love

We can´t loose what we love

Posted by Natalie Tue, August 30, 2016 02:50:15

We can´t loose what we love

The picture below portrays the physical manifestation of two miracles in my life, both illustrating very clearly that all that we really love comes back to us.

On this pic you see the first side of a childrens book. It´s been a story obout a little witch named „Amalia“ and I loved this book, cause as a little girl I´ve often been called „little witch“, but not in a nice way. The little witch in that book was very alike me. Very compassionate and nice, but didn´t fit in the world of the humans and also wasn´t accepted by the other witches. But she finally achieved happiness, choosing to live the best of both worlds. What has been an interesting prophecy of my own life.

I had received the book 2nd or 3rd hand. The girl, named as the owner on the left side, I had never heard of. And the dedication next to it, saying it´s been a gift of the „Schneider-Family“ totally confused me. I knew this book, like the most books on my shelf, had a publisher named „Schneider“. So reading this dedication I was wondering what a happy girl that must be, knowing the publisher of all these books. Children think that way and I didn´t know there are many Schneiders in this world.

Well my childhood was a bit…let´s call it „unstable“ and when I was 11 years old I had to leave my home very unexpected and all my belonging stayed behind me.

25 years later my daughter told me about an online-portal where people could search for books to exchange. I putted this childrens book on my want-list, not really expecting I might find a copy, but thinking it might be worth a try. I was overly happy when someone messaged me he´ll send me this book. I was joyful like a little child on christmas eve when I opened my parcel with the book in it. Well… I don´t find words to describe what I felt, when I looked at the first page and realized not only had I received a copy – it´s been my copy I´ve been holding in my hands. It´s been as if all the pieces of the universe would crumble for a splitsecond to just fall back on their perfect place to be. I felt, that all is always perfectly unfolding.

Well the second miracle has been about the gem in the picture and this story is even more magical. The black stone is a tourmaline and I´ve recieved the necklace as a common christmas gift from two soulmates: my daughter and a guy who´s been very close to me at that time.

It would be way to long and complicated to explain why this present had a deep deep meaning and therefore is very dear to me.
Well the guy and me had a really strong inner connection, but soulmates are our hardest task and so he and me finally parted and didn´t have any contact when the following happened:

I had to go to a medical and there I had to lay down all my jewelery on the doctor´s couch, that had a black cover. I remembered the moment I laid it there, already thinking a black background for a black gem isn´t that perfect. But there had been a lot of turmoil and I had to leave the room quickly for the next patient.
Later, already at home, I recognized I didn´t wear the necklace and was alarmed that I couldn´t remember to have taken it with me. I hoped that I might have putted it into my handbag, without conciously being aware of it, but although I searched the handbag again and again, the necklace wasn´t there. I called the doctor´s office, hoping someone might have found it there, but noone had seen it. To me it´s been a symbol of the lost love and I felt regret.

Quite a few month later, it´s been late in the evening and I´ve already been quite tired, but sitting at my computer and doing some writing, what is often a channeling-like state of mind. Suddenly, out of the nowhere, I had the strong impulse to go up. I really did and went to the wardrobe, took the handbag, that´s been in use all the time almost daily, and opened it. The second before my hand went into the handbag I already knew what I would touch. I almost couldn´t believe it when my hand came out of the handbag again, opened and there laid the necklace. If someone would ask me, how this might be possible, I would have to answer that we are living in a holographic universe. From this time on I knew, we can´t loose anything that is close to our heart. It´s entangeled with our energyfield and will return to us, whenever appropriate, no matter how unlikely the circumstances are. Not even time and space can stop it.
Yesterday an uncle died. May he be with all the loved ones already on the other side of the vail, having a gorgeous, heavenly party. We´ll all meet again.

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