As I´ve announced I will write a bit more about shadow-work, as it is crucial at the moment. And Jupiter entering Scorpio tomorrow will bring up a lot of opportunities to face, what has been hidden and denied. I´ve been at an esoteric conference in Basel the last weekend and was very pleased to see that a lot of the invited speakers are not afraid of shadow-issues. I wrote a while ago about the new generation of teachers and yes, they are very real, down to earth and entering the big stages more and more.
Who enters the earthly realm has to face duality. There´s no way to avoid it. Those that think to be out of that game have a blind spot. When you´re out of the game, you´re not in the arena, but you are here 😉 If you bring in your light, you´ll have to face darkness. All we can do is to be aware and to choose wisely.
I must have a nice light as I had to face a lot of darkness, coming my way. Darkness seldom came “right in my face”, mostly it came as a hidden enemie or as a loss.
For those that are familiar with astrology: I have a 12th house Capricorn sun and the ruler of Capricorn, Saturn, is in my 2nd house in Aries and squares my Sun. Lots of work and hardship, without material security – but lots of hidden enemies on top of it. At the moment Pluto, the helldog, plays with this constellation. I understand that I had to face hidden darkness, as I´ve been hiding my light. I have been badly paid, as I didn´t dare to insist in being paid well, as what I have to give is of value. So things are changing under Plutos influence. So thank you darkness for all your lessons, you are seen and valued for it.
When we are young and darkness shows up, we think this happens to us, we will tend to see us as victims and will try to fix things on the level where they show up: on the outside. When we get older, we understand that whatever occures on the outside, just does so, to stirr us up on the inside.
We are all at the moment in an epic battle between light and dark. Just the way it shows up in our lifes is a bit different, depending on the lessons we have booked when planing our incarnation. Do not get fooled, you´ll win or loose that battle on only one place: Your own heart.
Darkness did everything it could, it throwed everything at me that it had in this lifetime. It broke my heart a million times, it overtook all that I love, including my mother and husband. When team dark overtook my husband, the Repto-Lord that owned him, materialized for my very eyes and grinned into my face. Darkness wanted me to know its power. Yes, darkness brought up an ocean of tears and unbearable pain inside of me. I had periods of deep sadness. But I understood that they can only overtake what is theirs. But I am not and will never be. They can turn people that I love into hidden enemies, (using their hidden dark feelings like greed, envy or jealousy) but they have not the power to take my Love. And their power over their slaves is temporary, but my love for their eternal being knows no end. They took the lifes of people I love, but delivered just a direct line behind the veil to me. Darkness wanted to bring me down, but I´m a stubborn Capricorn, so I made darkness serve me in the end, always. Alchemy of the Soul. Darkness can take my material belongings, but who cares, as long as I own myself. Burn down my house and I find my real home. They can make me the scapegoat, they can abandon me or throw stones at me. I stay untouched in the light of my soul and nothing that is made of an illusion can destroy what is eternal.
I have a seventh house virgo moon. I am highly sensitive to others energies and emotions, while I see and understand very clearly the reason for their feelings. To be able to do my work, my heart has to be an open gate. When someone I love throws hate at me, I can feel it over any distance. Brought me literally to my knees a few times. But couldn´t break me, but purified me. When we are touchable by dark, we still have a shadow not faced inside of us, an aspect not fully integrated. I understand that. So I do not answer darkness with darkness. I turn it around and throw my Light on anyone crossing my path. And those that work against me, get an extradose of Love, as they need it the most. And it works. Darkness runs from me. Of course the running ones told the witnesses, that they can not stand me, as I am the bad girl. Scapegoating and projection. Works, again and again. Well, sorts out the weeds and weaks out of my field, so thank you again.
Darkness played its twisted games so long, that the maincharacter and his many expressions got mad, lost in the game and forgot that it is just a role. Lucifer has been the highest of the angels and he had forgotten, that he is an expression of the divine creation. His role has been to teach through diversity. But he has identified with his role, he believes to be the almighty god and he is a jealous one. He is dependent on worship and when you do not feed him he gets totally angry. You have to fall on your knees and obey to him. And I don´t. He´s just another actor on this divine stage. I honor him and I even love him, as he is my divine brother. Not more, not less. Darkness (Lucifer) has in its core never left the omniverse, where all is in harmony. And our essence is still there. Darkness is just a way energy is expressed. Darkness believes its polarisation to be more powerful, but its energy is just more raw.
Darkness even thought to own this planet. But I´ve got news for dark: Greetings from home, dear Brother, Lord Darkness, he who is not to be named. Mother Gaia owns herself. She´s married to Father Sky, but not even he owns her. He loves and enjoys her. Its divine love, it knows no distance and no end. You can try to poison Gaia, sell her, molest her as often as you want, you will never own her. Ownership is a joke. You´ve been allowed here, as she allows her children to make their experiences. You are not the ruler of this planet, of mankind or anyone. Rule over yourself, if you can! A wise mother allows her children to make experiences. Mothers that do not allow these, will never have adult children. And Gaia, as an expression of Sophia, is a very wise mother. So thank you dark, for this lesson, you may now take your seat again. We´ve really enjoyed your show, but life has a few more aspects to itself. You are just a part of all that is.
What you send out comes back to you? Yes and no. When we refuse to answer hate with hate and fear with fear…we become the gamechanger. Team Dark thinks to be in control and invincible. And the reason why they could make eternal free beings their slaves is that everybody believed it, that´s why they worked for darkness at all. When they realize they are not in control and helpless against the power of light, that scares the hell out of them. Team dark runs because it is afraid that when the light wins it would pay them back, that the light would punish them, the same way they have punished the light. But only darkness believes in old testament justice, the light lives in grace.
See, team dark has given all they had, but all they did was to strenghten me. It´s all energy. It now returns to the sender – just a little bit transmuted. They are used to receive hate for sending out hate, that´s an endless self-feeding cycle. But when they receive light in return for darkness, that shows them who the gamechanger is.
And it is a game. There´s no such thing like duality in the heavenly kingdom. Shine your light dear Ones, it will protect you and others in these times of the big change!