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Adam and the feminine split

In the bible there have been two women for Adam. One was created alike him, but he wanted to dominate her, what she refused. So she had to leave paradise (that´s paradise, to be submissive to an entitled dominator, thinking he´s “better”?!), being the representative of the demonized female energies. The witch/bitch, known as Lilith. She will never allow Adam to own her, as this would mean to make herself less than she is.

So Adam got a second woman, Eve. His wife and the mother of his children. Well, she is said to be created out of his rib…. That already speaks volumes. She´s not even an own being, but just created by what he wouldn´t miss at all. And that´s exactly how she´s treated.

No wonder Lilith will never allow Adam to own her. Who wants to give herself fully, birth his creations, nourishes them and is not even being honored for it, but taken as granted? If Eve would break her own heart and leave husband and children, to become free and sovereign again, she would suddenly represent Lilith and than he runs for her. But just as long as she is not present.

The reason for that has nothing to do with Eve/Lilith or however you name these archetypes. The male can just not allow the unity with the feminine as an equal. Why would anyone ever have to belittle someone else? Being better, more evolved than? Only attractive when not present? Because he doesn´t value himself and does not even really dare to be one with the feminine. That´s why he tried to dominate her in the first place, to then make her worthless. It just mirrors the inner conflict.

Honestly, the feminine principle is not honored at all, although nothing could exist, when not coming through her. How weird is it, that she has to become a demon to have some kind of freedom (although always hunted, therefore always haunting Adams shattered mind).

And of course this plays out with outer characters, but it has nothing to do with the outer world, but is taking place within every individual, no matter the gender. Archetypes that we just project on the outside, to declare us independent of them. Make them wrong, to feel right. How you perceive and treat others, shows how you really feel about yourself.

I see it, I hold love and compassion while I know the struggle it´s just an illusion, created by the fearful mind. I do not have to make others less or better. I am content within me. I honor myself and the other. Because this is who I am and that can not be defined by someone else. There´s no split, no lack, no story, no separation at all, unless you create it.

 

What we value

It´s been funny that I am all about Love…and at the same time have always received Masterlessons around money and been working with money to earn my living, many years. Now it´s starting to make sense to me, how these two areas have been perfect on my path.

I realized lately that earning my money with something I have no real passion for was for a long time hard for me, but making money with what I love seemed even absolutely impossible.

There are 2 reasons for it:

1.) Many people are willing to pay a high price for things that are worthless and do not value what is priceless.

2.) I have paid such a high price for being a loving being, no one can even imagine how much I have paid. It´s been the reason why I refused my path so long and stayed in the background. I´ve payed the bloodprice so often for being of service. But the broken heart has been way worse than the destroyed bodies. Truth is that we can not love enough, to make the frozen hearts melt. We can not be conscious enough to make the blinds see.

A lot of money-issues have of course to do with self-worth and who doesn´t have issues there? It has also to do with giving and receiving. I´ve written an article once, that might be interesting for you: http://oneblog.soulutions.one/2017/01/09/giving-and-receiving/

I´ve had so many people in my life trying to take advantage. The human hunts, deceives, steals, lies…and all  of it s/he does to him/herself, as a Master just wouldn´t. Not because of good and evil, but because that´s not working and why would a master do that to him or others? That´s just not what s/he is.

And I have also so much given and received for free. Honestly, I couldn´t have earned my mastery on a money-level. I got so much for free, in some cases I paid just what I could and in other cases I paid a hugh fee. The reason why I am that I am is my awareness, my love, compassion, joy and soul-driven passion. I make the best out of everything, so even if someone offers crap I´ll transmute it into wisdom, fun or something useful.

There´s still much to learn when it comes to money for me and all others in the spiritual community. That´s a weakpoint. Worth and value…I´m still not absolutely clear here, but I know these 3 things

  1.  That we can not give to receive and experience real abundance.
  2. Some things are priceless. I didn´t feel good, when I couldn´t afford it although I highly value it, so I assumed it´s not for me and felt better.
  3. We always pay somehow. The universe has it´s own balance-sheet.

What does that mean for my own work?

Yesterday I´ve received the message, that whatever price-tag I want to put on something is the price.

People from this day on can not receive things for free although some things are for free, for example my Monthly Rose Touch. This is a generous, loving universe. Everyone should have access to healing or wisdom. And if you take energy to bring in healing into this world, pay it forward to others, add wisdom, or just be happy and grateful, there´s absolute balance in this and I love to be of service. Love is absolutely priceless, you can not earn it, steal it or destroy it.

In this very second I receive the information, that people have never received things for free. When they have taken from me, without adding something of value to this world, they have always paid a price. The same goes for everyone, and subconsciously knowing that, might have been the reason why I always tried to make as much as possible out of everything.

I am working in divine service. He charges, if I don´t 😉

 

 

Dying to be me

Last year  I experienced 3 major steps on my path.

1.) I wondered why I had still attracted abusive people. The answer was a shock. Literally frozen in time for 40 years and opening my eyes for some ugly stuff around me.

2.) An shadow-aspect returning home and the message that “the Master is in the House”. Too funny, I couldn´t remember to have asked for him to come in, but maybe that´s been the reason why he was able to enter. Well, with the integration of my shadow, things seemed to be already brighter. Until…

3.) I was told by my eternal self that I have to die. And that there´s a choice to be made by me. The choice to be reborn in the same body or to come in again as a newborn. I was shown my potential parents, their energetic body coming together in an act of love to conceive the new life. I saw the energetic body of the fetus in the mothers womb, felt the love she held for the little one – what could be me. I´ve gotta say that this felt really attractive to me, as it´s been the very opposite of this lifetime. A fresh start under conditions that are loving and supportive felt really good. The other option was to be reborn in the same old body. And I was told this would be the harder option, as changing while staying the same is way more difficult. I chose the difficult version. Of course.

I was not sure if the message was understood, as I still felt the new body calling me. So I even wrote a letter adressed at my daughter, just in case…

But my choice was heard, cause when I woke up in the morning, a few days later, my whole surrounding felt totally strange to me. At least I changed my incarnation while sleep-time, that´s been a goodie. But still not that funny, as I had lost all attachment and interest to the things that once have been mine. Loosing attachment sounds nice…it´s not in real. I can hardly describe what was going on with me. I doubted if I might have lost my mind. I was so unattached, that I could walk out of me door the very next minute and never wanting to look back, no thoughts and feelings about the old would arise. My birthchart has had lots of earth in it, so this was really weird for me.

The strangest thing was, that all was the same, but I am not. It is really like a new incarnation. Love is the only thing that remained. I will always love my daughter, no matter what body or incarnation or relationship we have. And I love cats and coffee and the starlight. And Love itself of course.

The real difficult thing was that people expected me to be the same, plus even if I had no real attachments, I still had tendencies for some behaviours, that I had to get rid off. That´s why dying is much easier, than staying in the body. When you die everyone accepts that you are not available. But when they see the same body, they´ll blame you for not being and behaving like you are supposed to – from their point of view. But of course, it doesn´t matter what someone expects, we are the ones who have to take ownership of our behaviours…no one else can be blamed for what is our responsibility. So I tried to look as normal as possible, while unbecoming what I am not.

Dying alive was a hell of a ride, while I am in total peace, holding hands and having a melt-in with all of me, loving all of me. Well and of course a million angels, incarnated or not, trying to assist me. Two of them I have chosen to cooperate with for a quantum healing space about abuse. That´s been done to the most beautiful Souls and we need them being themselves again. Whole and complete. Well today Therese offered me spontaneously to have a look, what´s still missing in my field. She´s an awesome healer. Well actually she´s been a midwife today. She´s been handed the last missing piece to be integrated again. My divine blueprint, the innocent baby child …the aspect, that´s still been missing. Dying, to be reborn. Hallelujah.

(W)hole and comp(l)ete

We have to be content within ourselves, becoming whole and complete again. No one can give that to us and no one can take it from us.

Since quite some days my Masterself showed me situations, where the split between the fe/male energies has been seen clearly, to shine the light of my consciousness there.

I saw how we become needy, a hole instead of whole. Or how we did compete instead of being complete. It happens everytime when we expect something from the outside or when we want to overtrump others.

Expectations/needyness is often expressed through the feminine energies and the competitive/fighting energies through the male energies. But all of us have both in us, what already holds the so(u)lution for this problem.

On monday morning my divine self told me to have a coffee in a nearby café and told me where to sit down, to relax and watch the scenery. What happened to be a fighting couple. An older man with a chinese woman as a mate. He told her he is going to have a Thai Massage and she was totally jealous at the woman he wanted to go to, to have this massage. It´s been interesting, as this guy was totally controlling this woman, told her even how to sit or eat. And she allowed that to happen, while being totally out of her mind and really agressive in all, her body, her voice, words and energy, cause she felt hurt and was afraid to loose this man. I watched it, remembering how a guy once played that jealousy trick on me, when nothing else has been working any more, to control me. Of course he was just trying to control his own inner feminine and I wanted to be valued by my inner male. He had also tried to suppress and control me, as a reflection of his feminine, that he feared. Well, and the woman in front of me that I watched while having my coffee? She started fighting, cause the mans behaviour gave her a feeling of unworthyness. No matter how much she tried to please him, she was not enough for him. She was fighting him, because she was fighting her inner selfworth-issues. Why did my masterself show this to me? Well to heal my past, while sending Love and Awareness towards this man and this woman, so for them a space for their so(u)lution opened. Cause, me sitting there having a coffee, opened a different timeline for that couple. My masterself told me, that the woman will end her relationship what will set both free… Many women will refuse their roles. Many men too, hopefully. I deeply honor those, that dare to bring in the change.

On tuesday my stonepeople arrived, as a gift from beloved Muriel Shickman. They introduced themselves as Mr. and Mrs. Stone. Mrs. Stone told me how she has once been made out of soft wood, but hardened over a long periode with the determined spearhead, Mr. Stone. And well, he told me how much he wanted to be embraced by her and admired for his sharpness and how he has over time lost the tip of his stony head, as it has been rounded by the hardened wood. Well I listened to them and then introduced them to their daughter Jade Stone-Owl, whom had already arrived at christmas. How astonished they had been, that a stone can be hard, piercing and round. How he can be shiny, beautiful and flying. Wise, easy and tough.

Today I have been at my office-job. My direct boss is a guy who has been in military and always remembered me at the crazy military guy in the film “Avatar”. He´s proud in never giving in, always having to be the best. Normally I get along with him quite well. Being respectful, but never devote. I learned much about sovereignity in that job. But of course that guy senses the tiniest bit of “weakness” in others. That´s the moment he´ll try to dominate you. I didn´t get much sleep lately and had a little op at my left foot, so he might have sensed vulnerablility. Today I wanted to leave early and while I prepared to leave, he entered my office and said “Here´s todays post. You´ll not leave, unless it is done.” Always good for jokes this guy. I took the letters, put them in my In-Box and said “I´ll go. I´ve got an aching foot and an appointment.” He answered: “Even more fun for someone who enjoys being sadistic.” I laughingly answered, that he´s free to have his fun and I´m going to have mine, too. Took my jacket and left. And that is exactly the reason, why he likes me somehow, although he hates it that he likes me.

The appointment I have had was with Julian La Erosius from Luxury Masters Academy, for recording a session of the Healing of the Heart series, he´s creating. It´s been absolutely amazing, cause Julian went far beyond the warrior male principle and powergames, but he can open his heart truly without loosing the masculine energy. That is still so seldom and so much needed. We went today in this session beyond the fe/male energy split into the integration of all that we are, to be living examples how to leave all old roles and powergames behind, how to truly love ourselves and others.

We have to be whole and content within ourselves. No one can give that to us or can take it from us. When we love ourselves, and also the other, we will never play games that are no fun, we will never hurt ourselves or corrupt ourselves. And when we are whole again, we´ll treat the other the same way. It´s as easy as that.