Everybody talks about love. But what most people mean by love is that they want to have, own, consume something. True Love, the way I see, feel, express it, is something totally different for me and it really scares people. It´s too much. That´s why I have been too much all my life and why I have been hiding my true being for so long.
When I am talking about Love I speak about a feeling that is living inside of me, it is awakened when something or someone reminds my of my essence. Can be anything or anyone. A cat strolling along the street, a toddler reaching out to a flower, a twinkeling star on the nightsky, the laughter of a woman, the smile on a face, the tender touch of a hand, the way someone plays the piano or jumps into a puddle. It touches my heart, the Rose inside of me. I enjoy what I witness, but I do not need to own it, grab it, consume it. I am that I am. Noone can take anything from me, therefore I do not need anything and can enjoy all along my way.
To step into the awareness of my lovelight brings out extreme reactions in people. Some start crying, because they are not used to it to be really seen, loved, valued. It´s a release and surrender into the truth of their beautyful eternal being.
And some start to attack me, searching for my imperfections as they can not accept that they are perfect in my eyes. Not because I turn a blind eye. I´ve got a virgomoon in my natal(ie) chart. I see all, every “imperfection”, believe me. And even more, my pisces venus feels your discomfort, my mercury in aquarius just knows about your judgements. But see, to me all of the above doesn´t matter. It is not what you are, but a momentary state. It´s the way the divine chose to express itself, so I am fine with it. The one attacking me and/or denying himself not. You wouldn´t believe what BS people tell me, why they are not worthy or they look at me and tell me why I am still not good enough to be a master. Says it all, why they can not be a master in their minds eye. And so they go on another rampage, another run, another round of denial and it´s all fine with me. It´s all perfect.
It´s been the reason why I have been hiding my true nature for so long. I wasn´t ready to deal with it, it broke my heart a million times and time just wasn´t ripe before. Now it is, I will no longer hide to make it more comfortable for those that might get a spiritual sunburn, or loveburn. This world needs more love, not less.
I write this to remind you, that you are not better or less than I am. Nobody is. Just be yourself, shine the way the lovelight wants to express itself through you. You are beautiful beyond measure and you are dearly loved. That´s all and it´s all that is.