My Higher Self sended me the last two years to places, that I thought I do not know… and my human self had no idea why to go there. It sended me to Israel, Colorado and Norway. Well, it turned out I knew all the “unknown” places I´ve been sended to. I do not remember much details from my pastlife in Colorado, but the Rockies have helped me to reconnect with a greater eternal power, that I had natural access to in that pastlife. And of course I have been living in Israel. Finally in Trondheim I stood even at our own grave from another century, together with my pastlife husband next to me. Who wasn´t realizing at all, he was supposed to be dead. Too funny. So I learned to trust my Inner Guidance totally, when sended on a task.
This year I have been sended to quite different “unknown” places. Going public and doing group-work. First I´ve been told to do the Monthly Rose Touch Session and now lately I received the topic of a webinar-series to give. Both is group-work of course and I always thought I am not good at grouping. I never fitted into groups and now I should be even the one leading group-sessions?
I can sense energies and therefore the dynamics and hidden intends in groups have always been very obvious and frustrating to me. I saw how people tricked and manipulated each other, how fractions have been builded, destroyed and how goals have been sabotaged. Everyone had his own selfish agendas and all together they´ve been used by their leaders. The many following the ideas and interests of the few, that pretended to know what´s best for all, while moving people around on their chessboard. And of course it´s been energy-feeding of the worst kind. Even when I did not know this terminology at that time, I saw it happen all my life. It was “normal”, like so many distortions on earth…but it has always felt absolutely wrong to me.
I remember being in an urban gardening group and people spoke their mind until one of the leaders spoke another…and all people, believing they are of the new consciousness, just dropped their own thinking in a splitsecond, when the brainbug made a choice they thought to be totally stupid two minutes before. It´s never been understandable to me, how people become in groups totally mindless…and heartless.
I´ve once been a trainee in a company with a very strict boss, whom everyone feared. When the boss disliked a person, noone made friends with the outsider, that would be dismissed soon. I was also often the outsider, but by own choice, being friendly with most people, but staying independent. One day a young woman, red hair, strong, proud Leo, has been sended into the office of the boss. The young woman seemed to have lots of friends in the company and they spend their lunchbreak together, went out shopping and often even spended the evenings together. Well, it broke my heart when this young woman came out of the office of the boss, sobbing like a little child. I would have thought it to be impossible, that she could be broken in an instant by a few cruel words. Well it´s not been the words, it´s been the energy behind them, as I recognize in hindsight. And I was even more shocked when no one of the “good friends” dared even looking at her. I couldn´t believe what I had to witness. I knew I would need a reference from that big boss very soon, but I knew I had to look into the mirror even sooner, so I stood up, went to her, hugged her and gave her a tissue. Than I pulled her out of the room, into the kitchen, to calm her down. No, group-dynamics of the old energy are for sure not for me!
I listen to everyone, as everyone is holding some wisdom. And I love to co-operate, but I take no orders, but those from my own source. I am following the truth of my heart, as the beloved sovereign daughter of the divine. No one is allowed to rule over me and I need no membership to give love and support to others. It is my very nature.
I love to see people thrive. Happy, healthy people make me jump for joy. And more happy, healthy people are the only option for mankind to coexist with Gaia. That´s why I accepted to work with people instead of watching out for a cabin and a cat in the woods.
But of course I am confronted with the old energy herding issues when being present in social media or when working with groups. People often have zero awareness how they are used. They believe to express their own thoughts, while they are manipulated by those that want to be fed and admired. Divide and conquer is still working. And so I had to ask my higher self: “I want people to be independent and free. What the heck is going on that you want me to herd people?! Or why do you want me to deal with the distortions of those wannabeanimportantleadersheps, that feel challenged by me and my unshepishness?” The answer was: “Quite the opposite! These are the reasons why you have been called to do groupwork. No follower, only sovereigns.” The rest came not as a thought or sentence, but as a complex understanding; all the answers at once. Source is multidimensional…to put it in words in a row is limiting for it.
I have been shown my memory from a higher realm, a kind of heavenly meadow, that I have mentioned before: I remember being at a place in perfect harmony with my surrounding and the other beings, each an individual, but all aware of each other and connected on the inside, through our consciousness, but we were free beings. No obligations, no leadership, no agenda, no brainbug. Just being ourselves and coexisting. That´s how the law of nature is working, bringing together the perfect mixture of diversity. I was told while my download that it is also the blueprint of the Age of Aquarius.
And a few weeks ago, a former shadow aspect, that turned out to be a knight, has shown me the picture of a roundtable, where he placed all of my inner aspects. That´s grouping as it should be. At a roundtable all have a voice. One is opening it, but everyone is just as important as the other. They want the best for all, not just for the king or queen, but for the whole queendom, so everyone will be accepted in it, to thrive in it and be worthy and valued for being himself.
I understood that I am among those, that are holding the inner knowledge how to bring in some tools of the new earth. In fact it is not new, but the original creation, before it went into total distortion under the service to self, herding here the human sheps for so long and fooling all people. And in the spiritual community it had been just a bit more sophisticated, tricky and subtile, but it has been just the same mentality. Mind-control and power-games. Someone called it New (C)Age, and there´s much truth about it. All eating the same, dressing the same, thinking the same, acting the same and be lie ving this is their party, while they had de-live-red the food for the wolf, who´s still been herding them.
Total loss of the own sovereign creator self. I know it seems to be not easy, but I know the only way to be a sovereign, is to be a sovereign. In the example where I have dared to comfort the crying woman, I received my reference. I went to the boss to tell him that I need it as I am going to leave and he answered: “Write it and I´ll sign it!” This guy was known to never ever sign anything without lots of changes. So I wrote myself an almost perfect reference, as I knew I have been a real good worker. I went to the office of my boss, he read it and signed it without to hesitate even for a splitsecond. When I came out of the office, smiling and head-high, all came running to me, and almost collapsed when they saw the signature. When I look back, I seldom had trouble with the big boss. They know a sovereign, when they see one. It´s been the wannabethetopsheps, that did cause me trouble. But they are living proof that my work is needed, as people need to reconnect with their original, sovereign being to create a new earth with their gifts and talents.
Whenever you and your truth is not valued, whenever someone else claims to know your path, as they claim to be better, more evolved or holy, than you are fooled. Whenever you have to obey to the rules of others, than you are fooled. Never take others power or give yours away.
The grouping of sovereign beings only occures to enjoy each others beauty, to learn from each other, to encourage each other, while everyone is free to be himself, to come and go by free will. Noone has to be held accountable for others demands, when everyone is able to take full responsibility for the own being.
Whatever someone is telling you, including me, has to resonate with something inside of you. Than you know it is of value for your individual path. And no, you do not have to walk him alone. I am myself much more connected than I have ever been. Your vibe attracts your tribe. And sends the others away.
All of my work, may it be a one-on-one session, the monthly Rose Touch, a webinar or my books and articles have one and the same intend: to assist you on your own journey. Do not follow me, but get inspired to follow yourself. The only reason why I shine my light in the public is to remind you to:
Shine your light!