Month: April 2017

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The transformed warrior

The warrior-energies have brought forth so much pain, destruction and distortions on  this planet, that they have been shunned and shamed totally. But as an astrologer and alchemist of the soul I know that every energy might be expressed in a constructive or destructive manner. So I looked for transformation and found it.

The warrior energies are living within me. I´ve had many lives as a warrior, but as the female side has been deeply wounded by the distorted warrior, I have had trouble with accepting these kinds of energies inside of me. But when I did, it brought huge changes into my life and anchored peace in my heart. And as a beautiful, wise old soul told me lately, my compassion is rooted in these experiences as a warrior, what really made sense. I know I´ve been it all myself, so there´s a deep understanding arising out of these lessons.

In I´ve described that I´ve stopped my own inner war by marrying these both sides of me: my female side has much of a young maiden, she is shy, poetic and innocent. And my inner male side is deep, tough and powerful. Well, together they bring forth my actual persona.

In the past I really had trouble  to accept the warrior energies. I know I´ve done a lot in other lifetimes that is horrible. Inacceptable for my inner female, that´s been deeply hurt by such actions. But I loved the inner male, the warrior, anyway. It´s my nature to love, no matter what. And that changed him, it transformed the warrior. He went inwards, no more fighting against this world, but standing up for own values. Her values of love. They became  the Knight and the Lady, deeply devoted to their united soul path. The transformed warrior is standing his ground. Never giving up, never giving in. The reason why I am writing about it is, that we will need these energies. The transformed warrior has the power of 300, invincible. It is not enough to sing a song and believe in unicorns to change this planet. It really needs much badass braveheartedness to go for the own transformation and to really change deeply.

You will find how this is also the way to generaly heal the male energies on this planet, that are deeply wounded, distorted and feel abandoned and ashamed of themselves. Love, unconditional love will help the male energies to find their inner core and strenght again. The new earth is not only the goddess rising …it is also the unity and cooperation between male and female.

Shine your brave warrior/goddess light!

Why Selflove has to be the Top-priority for Lightworkers

Someone asked lately in a Facebook-group, why so many Lightworkers are living on their own, having went away from their families. There is a desperate hunger for a loving relationship within so many of my kind. I totally understand that, Love is for a lightworker what is honey for bees. But a lot of bees die, because they become ill on this planet. You may run for sweet sugar and find out it is aspartame, as a loving, clearvoyant friend called it.

Well, I´m very truthful and I really want to enable my clients and readers and so I have to tell them some facts, they may not like, but really need to know to get the bigger picure and to spare themselves pain.

  1.  We all have been hurt deeply and need to heal. You need alone-time for that and when you run from one distraction to the other you will just attract what mirrors your wounds. Well, that is exhausting and doesn´t help your healing.
  2. You have to learn to take good care for yourself. Lightworkers are great in caring for others. But you will only be a Masterhealer, Coach or Wayshower after you´ve learned to heal yourself. Taking care for yourself has to be your top-priority!
  3. When you listen to the outer signals all the time, you´ll not be able to install your own inner direct-line. She is the most important thing to install to become a Master.
  4. This world has ugly faces. You will only be able to deal with them, when you´ve embraced and accepted all your own shortcommings. As long as you´ve not managed to become whole, the vampires and wolfs of this world will take adventage of you. There´s no point in playing with the pigs in the mud unless you became the Lotus.
  5. You need free time and space to explore your skills and talents. My Ex agreed himself, that I´d never had written one book if I´d stayed with him, still taking care of all his stuff and being distrated by all his turmoil and distortions. There would not have been the room for all of my creative, healing and spiritual work.
  6. You´ve got to “fill your cup first”, than you´ll be the overflowing fountain of love. But you need free access to your own source before. Otherwise the fountain will run dry very soon.
  7. You did not loose family and friends, you made room for much better relationships. The most important one is the one with yourself. All that really belongs to you stays or returns.
  8. You´ve got to make inner peace, marry your own inner male and female first. Than you´ll be able to live your dream.
  9. We do not see our own blind spots. So trust your Higher Self and your Guides as they know exactly what they are doing!
  10. The more you concentrate on your own journey, while staying open for others, the quicker you´ll evolve.

I´ll be brutal honest here. Lightworkers are often Empaths and they´ve been hurt deeply, as they attract Narcissists and Psychopaths in a row. And the spritual community is like a chickenfarm for this type of person. We can not see and understand the wolf, cause it is not in our nature. I´ve attracted them myself again and again, because of my childhood-imprints, until I´ve installed my “Razorsharp Bullshit-Detector”, as a beautiful, wise and loving goddess called it. Living on my own has been the best I could do for myself.

Your loving guides want you to become your happiest, best version as soon as possible. You´ll recognize that you are healed when you no longer “need”others and when the wolfs start running away from you. Than you´ll start attracting like-minded friends of your own kind, to form again loving relationships of all kinds.

Shine your light!

Mistakes – Finding the chance to change

We´ve got to learn to look at our mistakes without feeling bad about them, cause only then they can provide their chance to change.

One of the biggest obstacles for the change on this planet, for our personal and collective evolvement, is that we feel bad when making a mistake. But when we feel bad about them, we do not look at them and instead of learning, we recreate them until they are a pattern. We are conditioned to see ourselves as wrong, when we do something that turns out to be wrong. We identify with the mistake. To think we shoud´ve known better makes it even much worse.

When talking to a client the ability to look at “the problem” is really important, cause it´s not me giving them a solution to fix their problem, but them find a soulution, what is an evolution in their journey. As it is their souls path, it has to come out of them, I am only there to assist them with whatever they may need for that. And in many cases that is trust and acceptance. People do not feel bad when talking with me about their flaws and obstacles. They feel that I do not judge them what helps them a lot, to not judge themselves. And that is the critical point. The moment we feel bad about ourselves, when we start feeling guilty or ashamed, we are turning our back on our selves. It is easy to see that when I´m talking to others. It is easy to say “You do not have to feel bad about that.”; but we have been trained so long to think that we are bad, not good enough or unworthy when making a mistake, that this is a deep imprint. Yesterday when talking to a friend I recognized a mistake I have made…and more than once. And I felt shame, cause it seemed really kind of stupid. But than I realized, that my shame might have been the reason why I didn´t see it earlier, why I even repeated it. It is sometimes much easier to love others unconditionally than ourselves. It really needs strenght, love and compassion to look ourselves in the eyes and to accept all that we are, with all flaws and shortcommings. And everyone has them, there´ll never be a moment when we are reaching perfection.

There are no errors, this journey is an adventure, we came here to make experiences, to explore and evolve. The only mis-take we can make is to not open up for the gifts that are hidden in our experiences. And well, not even that is a mistake as this multiverse offers endless chances.

Allow yourself to make mistakes and do not feel bad, but stay open and curious, there are so many layers in reality and in ourselves. It is beautiful to explore them.

Feel loved and shine your light!

The implementation of sin

In the bible there´s the story of Adam and Eve and how they had lost their innocence when eating the apple from the tree of knowledge. From this moment on they thought they knew what is right and what is wrong.

Eh? Really? What if they just fantasized they´d know it? What if not the knowledge was the sin, but the false assumption to have this knowledge created distortion?! Eve immediately felt bad about being naked, she suddenly had to hide something. This apple didn´t represent a god-like knowledge, but the loss of the inner connection to creation. Because of the false assumption to know right from wrong, they started to judge everything. What if noone had cast them out of paradise, but suddenly they´ve found mistakes in everything and their resistance made them judgemental? That may ruin every paradise.

Well you remember their sons Kain and Abel? The parents were always picking on Kain, nothing he did was right “in the eyes of god”. Their eyes. Abel maybe didn´t wanted to repeat the experience of his older brother, so he did what he was told to do. Well, with their judgement, they´ve ruined theirs sons lifes. One became a murderer and the other a victim.

And that didn´t stop until this very day. The ones, that do not want to obey to others rules and norms feel bad, because they are “wrong” and the ones that suppress themselves to fit in are also totally unhappy.  And once in a while they change positions, but they will not return to paradise until they let go of the judgements and dare to just relax into their true selves.

Whenever I talked to people that are “bad”, they have been created with two things:

  1. They´ve been victims themselves somehow. They´ve been deeply hurt.
  2. They feel bad about themselves and are acting out destructive to feel a kind of release.

And no, that is not an excuse for distorted actions. But this planet provides the perfect conditions to create dark patterns. And I know that people that feel bad about themselves do not have the strenght to leave these patterns. Love gives that strenght, but how shall they find it, when feeling bad about themselves?

When you love, you will not harm with intend the one you love, may it be yourselve or any other.

Love is my anti-sin-thesis.


Total acceptance

The only way to really change is total acceptance.

May sound contradictory, but to overcome duality, we often have to deal with this contradictions and move beyond their outer opposition, to a higher perspective.

One major reason for the distortions in ourselves and in this world is the inner and outer fight with “what is”. We reject, fight and deny unwanted things in ourselves and in others. That is the root for all kinds of unhappiness and tragedy on this planet.

You might think: “Well, I´ve got to make this world a better place and I´ve got to become better myself. So I have to change the unwanted.” But when you go against the unwanted you actually feed it. And no, I do not want you to go into denial. See things as they are…just do not resist and reject them. Take a closer look. Sense into it. But do not get entangled. The moment you resist, you get entangled, you give your power and your energy away, you feed the distortions and make them stay. There´s no point in that.

Stay as close as possible to your own core, your true self. From this place you do not have to “become better”, just be your true self. All that is not representing your true self will fade away step by step.

Every person you meet has the same divine core. They are just not aware of it. That is the reason behind all distortion you are facing. Do not focus on the distortion, but on their light. Do not deny the dark, but do not get entangled in it, as you would only feed it or even struggle yourself.

Honor and embrace their true self. Always. All their darkness only occurs because they are not aware of their true core, that is eternal and divine.

People feel that when they are with me. You would not believe how much darkness I have faced in my life, how often people told me their darkest secrets. But the moment when I accept the one that struggles with it and do not reject them is the moment I remind them of their core. When they show me the not accaptable and I say: “I see how much you struggle and I can not take your burden, but I love you and I trust we will meet again in the light of your divinity.”, that may change more than all else I could do or say. And no, it is not my intend to change them. It is my intend to see them happy with themselves, so I offer them the time and space to remember who they truly are.

Do not judge them. To face your darkness and to overcome it needs much strenght. Every person I spoke to, that seemed to be trapped in dark patterns was suffering deeply. They totally reject themselves.They believe to be not worthy and not lovable…and that is leading them deeper and deeper into despair. So, if you are truly a lighthouse, you do not deny where they are: In stormy weather. But you will also show them where the warm, safe habor is.

Shine your light!

The next Monthly Rose Touch, 5th of May, 2017

The next free Group-Session in 2017 will take place 5th of May, what is a friday, at 10 p.m. my time (Germany), what is 9 p.m. GMT, 1 p.m. PMT, 2 p.m. MST, 3 p.m. CST, 4 p.m. EST and so on. Here you can find your time zone:

When you can´t make it at the given time, just join at “your perfect time”, as this happens in the Quantum Field.

How does the Monthly Rose Touch work?

The Sessions take place in the Quantum field. At the given time you find yourself a nice place and make sure you won´t be disturbed for at least 30 minutes. Make it a comfortable experience, maybe lit a candle, burn incense, play relaxation music or whatever helps you to get into a calm, meditative state. Breath calm while you focus onto your heart, as it is your gate. Imagine to open your heart and enter a holy place, where you sit between roses to receive the high frequencies of OneLove delivered to you through the Inner Net. (The Inner Net is connecting all that is. You enter it through your consciousness, no devices needed.)

The Rose Touch is a quantum experience and the only things required are your intend to participate, to open your heart and to receive these high frequencies. While the session everybody is adressed as a part of the group, but I am also focussing for a moment on each participant at the end of the session.

If you want to participate put your name under this post or message me. Please don´t put someone elses name to the list, as free will is very important in this case. Sole exceptions are your own children that are under 14 years or your pets, as you are their care-takers. For each month you´ve got to sign in anew if you´ve enjoyed it and want more.

Guided Meditation: For the ones, that would prefer to be guided into the Meditation, I´ve recorded a visit into your own inner Rosegarden to receive the Rose Touch. The sound quality is not good, as I´ve  used a dictaphone and you hear sound in the background, my breath etc., but it is just an extra offer. To download the meditation klick on the colored Link: Monthly Rose Touch Medi

Everybody else may just use his own music and meditation practise. The Session will take place at least 30 minutes, but some people enjoyed it for many hours. Trust your own feelings, how long you want to stay in the field.

A personal statement: I´m honored to be able to hold this field and deliver these outstanding energies. But this is not about me or my human persona. I want to make that very clear. It is the pure Loveenergy that resides in all living beings that is bringing the blessings and healing energy. It is your own essence you´ll experience. As we´ve observed while the last sessions everybody that participates is strengthening the field, although s/he benefits from it. Welcome to the new earth. Let´s love it into life!

Shine your light precious soul!

The son of god is a Master, not a Martyr

One of the most misleaded concepts of the Age of Piesces is that of  a suffering Healer or of Christ as a Saviour.

Noone can save someone else, nor has s/he the right to do so. The free will of each soul is a given. To think we have to save one would go totally against this law of attraction/creation in this galaxy. It is this law that makes out of the human a god himself, a creator. To keep humans away from this knowledge was the true deception of darkness. And even the evil forces had to follow that law, that is the reason why they needed to install a system to brainwash people and to deceive and manipulate them. They´ve stretched this law to the max on this planet, but did all they could to ensure humans wouldn´t find out that they can leave their prison cells. Yeshua Ben Joseph has been a Renegade, not only against the political or religious system, but against all systems that enslaved mankind. That he is the son of god, just alike all of us, that we are free creators has been the true message of the man the dark forces nailed to the cross. And they maliciously turned his message around and even made a true Master a symbol of suffering and victimhood. What a lie!

They misused the humans ability for compassion and empathetic feelings to keep us on our knees. And we think that this is ok, as even Jesus carried the cross. Do not buy that! He showed that we have to fear no earthly forces, as we have the eternal life.

Martyrdom is the shadow aspect of the age of piesces and the totally distorted message that occured out of the crucification of Jesus. I do not want to hurt anyones religious feelings, so I apologize for that, but please recognize that a hanged man on a cross had hurt my feelings, thoughts and inner knowledge all of my lifes for many, many centuries.

How can we worship torture? Yeshua Ben Joseph did not die for our sins, he lived to free our minds from slavery. That is a message that I have to write on this Easter, that also is Passover. He embodied the christ-consciousness and was born into the jewish culture. But no free spirit is bound by any religion. Most of his brothers and sisters, in all cultures, in all religions, are still slaves in their minds until today.

All that are working for the light can only offer an option. Who takes it and who doesn´t is not our business. As lightworkers we are just delivering this option. Endlessly. Not out of martyrdom, but in honour of our free will. With love, joy and compassion.

Shine your light!

The seeds of love

Our mother Gaia is wise and strong beyond messure. She is sending her most beautiful seeds between the weeds, as she loves them all and is the Mastergardener.

Once there were two woman, dying in the Nazicamps. So one came back as a german and the other as jewish. They are now bringing peace and healing to this planet, working together.

Once there has been a little boy, being abused and going into despair and destortion. So Gaia, the most loving Mother of all that is, sended her daughter to show him true love. Saved the lives of many.

Once there was a woman committing suicide out of a broken heart. Her Mother sended her back, to help those with broken hearts.

Once there was a Soul going deep into darkness. Gaia took her in her loving arms and sended her back to seed the Light.

Mother Gaia is wiser than a human mother. She´s not afraid one of her children might get hurt, she makes sure all of her children will be healed.

May it be!


Darkness helps the Lightforces

Darkness is in its core the not conscious. We fear it, but we don´t have to. What is life all about? We came to make the unknown known. Darkness was only allowed to seemingly take the earthly reign for a while, to bring more light and consciousness here. Darkness always helps the light on the long run. There are not many really evil humans on this planet. The average human can not even stand to do something evil and therefore has to be fooled and manipulated into madness. The bad guys are normally believing to be the good guys and that they have to fight “the other”, for whatever reason they believe in. Even the ones that are fighting for the dark army, in most cases believe to be the good forces, while suffering from and expressing immense pain inside of them.

Very few people have willingly decided to be evil. And well, after a while even they find they are just helping the light. Goethe wrote about that frustrated forces of darkness and made the devil Mephistopheles confess: “I am part of that Power which would the Evil ever do, and does the Good.” Yes. On these earthly realms duality creates movement and evolvement and the old earth has had an enormous density. It needed some extreme forces to move here anything at all. But it is getting lighter now.

Today the christians celebrate “Good Friday”, a name that puzzled me, cause behind it there´s a story of betrayal, suffering and a mighty earthly power punishing a man, that dared to insist he is not a slave, but the beloved child of god, a Master. And he was right. So his consciousness infused others with Love´n Light. His message was that we all can do as he did. Indeed. May it be!

Shine your light!