Month: December 2016

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Find the hidden treasure

Every seemingly difficult lifesituation has a hidden treasure in it. As long as we focus on the problem and get hypnotized by the “story” we can´t see it. But it´s there. Always!

Every storm takes away the dust and every rainshower waters the land. Accept their existance and don´t resist them. You can´t avoid the storms, but you might become stronger, wiser and more self-confident with each and every one you went through.

There is an absurde idea living inside us: The idea a good life would be a life without challenges. That´s just not true. We came here to make experiences, to explore life and to grow. From this standpoint every difficult life-situation is in our favour.

With this point of view you´ll stop clinging on the problem, but search for solutions. You are working with life, not against it. That´ll spare you a lot of pain and energy. When life is bringing us on our knees, it might be a good opportunity to observe the ground. Maybe there are interesting things to find. Or you realize you have really good friends, that´ll help you stand up again. When there´s noone, than it might be time to learn about independency.

Ask yourself: If my soul had chosen this situation, what could be the reason? Trust your inner voice. If you don´t find it, try to see your situation from a distant perspective, as if through the eyes of a stranger. Often the observer sees it quite clearly. Have patience if you shouldn´t see it instantly, but be assured there´s a hidden treasure for you. Even to know that helps already and hands back your own power.

Let life be in your service. Even people trying to bring you down are unknowingly working as your servant, may they know it or not. Life is conspiring to work for you.

Shine your light!


One of the most destructive energies on this planet is a low selfworth. And everybody seems to be infected by this virus of distortion.

Who can truly say to love and accept themselves fully? Not many. The closer you are to mastery, the more you will. But beware, the idea of being better than others, to be spiritually more evolved, isn´t a sign of selfconfidence, but of the ego, coming in through the backdoor masked as the spiritual ego. In case you should spot it, don´t pick on yourself as it´ll lower your selfworth, therefore your ego will blow itself up….that´s a cat endlessly hunting the own tail.

Its not possible to convince someone to let go of the idea to not be good enough, until they are ready to accept the own imperfections. Ít´s like a madhouse. Men know it quite well. When they tell a woman, they like the red dress, she´ll assume she looks fat in all the others. When you tell her blue doesn´t suit her, she´ll get a nervous breakdown and will ban even the blue sky out of her life. Guys, she´s just unsure. Love her and stay calm. Do the same with your own imperfections. Just love and accept yourself.

And yes, I´m so selfconfident, that others call me sometimes hightoned or arrogant (that´s just their pissed-off ego). Shows just cleary I´ve got to stand tall and brave. The ones cursing me, need the black sheep the most. But of course I´m also struggeling with my selfworth sometimes. The reason why I´m able to write about it is, that´s been a huge issue for me, as I´ve never been “good enough”. Made me try to become better. Didn´t work. Now I try to be me, no matter what. Works much better 😉

We´ve been teached through thousands and thousands of years of distortion that we are never good enough. No matter how good we are doing, we shall never pass paradises gate, to just be happy and loved.
To judge what is good (enough) and what is not brought us in big trouble. That´s the core behind all sins.
It doesn´t matter if it´s been through religion or through unspoken cultural laws: We´ve been endlessly teached we have to reach, own and be something, that we are not. Therefore we are never good enough.

Well, what helps? Accept it.
“Oh, I´m imperfect? Okay, let´s enjoy life!” Stop reaching out for perfection.
I will never be loved for being a skinny role model. Guys can´t pimp their selfworth with we me clinging unsure at their arm, while all the other guys begrudge them. Nope, Won´t happen! And I´m glad, cause these guys could never stand the strong woman that I am. It´s perfect they are sorted out this way. All our imperfections are for some reasons perfect in this very moment. God created you in his own image. There´s a reason why things are the way they are. You are fighting reality. Won´t work! Out of a human perspective we just can´t know why things are like they are.

Try to love and accept yourself. Every day a little bit more. Cause your low selfworth is the sneakiest thief you´ll ever find. He´ll steal your money, as you won´t dare to reach out for the well-paid job. He´ll make you spend money on things you don´t need. And the worst: He´ll steal your time and our incarnation won´t last that long. He´ll make you wait for something. To be skinny or rich or become good enough to get the good Job.
And guess what? Even when you´ll reach that, it can´t make you happy, cause the low selfworth remains inside, makes you watch out for the next imperfection to overcome.

But your low selfworth is not only a thief, but he´s a murderer of the peace on this planet. He´ll murder your inner peace, he´ll hunt you day and night, till your last breath. He´s the enemy on your inside. And he´ll make you fight yourself and others. You´ll fight everyone who´s not perfect – well of cause your personal unfailing idea of perfect. Everyone who doesn´t match into your idea of perfection becomes the enemy and you´ll fight him, giving all your energy and often even your life for this madness.

As long as we have this low self-confidence, we´ll be a perfect sheep, grouping in sheep flocks. And it´ll never come to our mind that our shepherd is the one not only guiding us to green grass, but that he´ll shear us and sell us to the butcher. What makes humans even worse than sheeps is, they not only follow the rules of others, but they´ll make sure everyone else does also. Cause when they spot someone, who starts to become more selfconfident, they´ll attack him immediately. “Did you see the dress she wore? A woman of her age! What does she think, who she is?!” “Did you hear, he´s writing now. Didn´t know we have a new Yates beween us!” Everyone who dares to be himself will be attacked, laughed at and casted out.
Might be the reason why I´m often hanging around with the outsiders, as I see their potential. Between the black sheep you´ll find the ones closest to the point to be themselves.

All our movements to bring peace in the world are great, but we have to work on our inside as well, as it is the root of all distortions. Bring peace to your heart. Accept others and yourself in all their and your perfect imperfections. And in case, you might become more selfconfident, get ready others will blame you for that. Don´t give in, they are just prove the world needs your confidence to be yourself.
You´re great. You are unique, cause the universe is too creative to produce copies. It loves diversity. It couldn´t resist to create you, just the way you are.
Shine your light!

Filters of perception

Noone on earth has a clear point of view. And the closer you are to the object, the less clearer the overview. You´ll only focus on one small part of the whole picture. That´s the reason why we see the issues of others so clearly, but at the same time struggle with our own.
To make things worse, we all have our personal filters. They are, like a pair of glasses, totally changing what we see. If you ever tried to watch through colored glasses you´ll agree that seemingly stabile reality changes totally when you change glasses/colours.

The problem is that noone else can change the glasses but the one on the inside. Trouble is most people aren´t even aware of their strange perspective, as they are so used to it, that it seems normal to them.

And, as I had to experience often, noone is able to assist someone, unless this person is ready for it. As long as one isn´t aware of his problem and gives intend to find soulutions, noone is able to help this person. They will blame others, destiny, karma, god, society and of course you for their problems, but they´ll never watch the one in charge: themselves.

Everyone who has witnessed a mate or a child to be somehow stuck knows it very well. You might try to assist them, encourage them as much as you want, it´ll just drive you mad and cause disagreement. They won´t even understand that you want to help them, but think you are picky, want to belittle or restrict them. All you say or do has to pass their filters and therefore will be misunderstood.

As hard as it is to witness this with a loved one, there´s only one thing you might do: Care for yourself and let go!
If someone chooses to take poison, there´s no use in joining him. Choose to stay healthy yourself as you are only responsible for one person and that is you.
And in case they would ever choose your help, you´ll be strong and stabile. Tell them you´ll be there, when they are ready, but don´t help before they ask you to. It´s the planet of free choice and even if someone would insist to go through their own kind of hell, as in cases of an addicted child, you´ll have to let them.

Interestingly enough if you choose to care for yourself, things change on the outside quite often. Sometimes even instantly, as you take pressure out of the system, when you let go.

Noone ever teached us, but being selfish enough to care for ourselves, might encourage the other to do the same for himself. And it´s the loving selfcare that might change the situation for the better, as it opens for soulutions.

Shine your light!

How to deal with emotional loss

We all have to face it in our lifes: Someone is dying or leaving us and this loss is creating a feeling of heartbreak and emotional pain.

The word heartbreak describes a strong feeling of pain, that seems to tear our heart apart. It´s because we can´t stand this two different perspectives. The one perspective of beautiful memories, mirroring our feeling of love totally collides with the perspective of the loss, often sharpened with elements of tragedy, betrayal or abandonment. We can´t bring together these two different points of view and therefore our mind and our heart can´t process the information, as we asume only one might be true.

It is and it is not. On the physical realm all is in constant change and therefore nothing lasts forever. All things born are going to die. But only their physical forms do so. From the souls perspective nothing is ever seperated. There´s not even a bond that could be riped. Souls aren´t bonded, they are part of one creation. Every love we experience is part of the one love that is the only eternal that exists.

You are the one, chosing the perspective. As the physical realm can´t be denied, make room to process this feeling of loss and pain. Don´t suppress your emotions, but know they are like the clouds in the sky. Coming and going, changing forms and fading.

While the process of grief try to stay centered and aware, don´t run away, but don´t loose yourself in self-pity. Give yourself the comfort of compassion. Compassion has a loving, assisting quality, that will carry you. It´s the water to wash and heal your wounds with love. It´s a total different quality as pity, which weakens you and would make you drown in a flood of muddy water.

Love yourself enough to give yourself time and space for this transformative process. Nourture yourself with everything that gives you the feeling of comfort, may it be a walk in nature, the starlight, a cup of tea, music or creating arts.

And than let go and change to the bigger perspective. No matter what the circumstances are, the eternal truth of the soul is love.
I´ve been working with people with a quantum healing form of family constellations. There has never ever occured one tragedy where the involved souls haven´t shared pure love with each other, no matter how extreme the circumstances on earth have been. Try to honour the shared path, that now seperates for a while until we all reunite. After giving room for the grief, now give room for the love. Be thankful for all you´ve shared with each other. Than honour the others souls path and let go. Pay respect to your own souls path and let go.

Don´t resist and don´t fight reality. It is as it is. The involved souls agreed to do so, otherwise reality would be other. You can´t know the reasons for it, as you are in human form. Our earthly perspective can´t grasp the souls path. There is absolutely no reason to stay in misery. Beauty and love isn´t lost, but still alive, inviting you to rejoin them. Have faith and trust and move on.

Shine your light!


The little owl

The little owl

Once upon a time, there was a little owl, working in mag(net)ic service. She was working for the Prayer and Ordinary Orders Registration Office, also known as P.O.O.R.
To be honest, she didn´t like her job very much. Nor did she like the jokes her family-members made about her, being a poor owl, earning a poor income.

Every day tons and tons of all kinds of messages arrived, all sounding very urgent. The little owl worked really hard, but it never went better and she and her co-workers had often to work overtime.
But although it´s been a lot of stressfull work, the little owl recognized she was bored after a while. The messages were so often the same: „If I would have just more money…“, „Lord, make him love me.” or „ Oh please, please let this day soon be over.” Oh no, the last sentence made an echo in her mind!

The little owl started to make mistakes and one day she was called into the office of her boss. Her boss said: „Have a seat. It can´t go on that way! Do you know what you did? You´ve sorted Sarah Johnsons: „Fuck you!” she pointed at the guy, taking her parking lot, under „Relationship Arrangements“! The little owl, starred down at her owl-feet and mumbled: „Just took her literal. People shouldn´t say things they don´t mean!“ Her boss looked at her and stated: „You don´t like your job much, hmm?“ „Well, how could I? The prayers became less, but the ordinary orders are flooding our office. What are the guys at the Ordinary Order Parcel Service doing? OOPS, we didn´t reach you?“ Why don´t they deliver what people need? I´m really cheesed up with all the neverending incoming orders.“
„Hmm, you guess it would be more fun to deliver orders?“ „Of course it is. Must be beautiful to give all this beautiful gifts to the people.” „Well, don´t forget, we deliver what they need, not what they´ve ordered.“ „But, isn´t that just amazing?! By the way, seeing it that way, Sarah Johnsons order was sorted perfectly. She´s overworked and…. you know. She ordered exactly what she needed.“ Her boss starred at her and the little owl wasn´t sure if he would burst out with laughter or anger. But he took a deep, deep breath and sighed. „You are a really nasty little owl. Well, as everything is always working out heavenly perfect and you´ve got to make your experiences, I´ve got to tell you that they are looking for new owls at the Divine Delivery Department.“ The little owl almost couldn´t believe it. She fluffed her feathers in exitement. „I´m going to work at the DDD? That sounds already like singing.“ „Well, fill in this formular and after lunch break you´ll go the the Devine Enhanced Apprenticeship Terminal Hall. The little owl hooted again and again: „Thank you! Thank you, so much.“ While she left the office, she already started to twitter to her family and friends, she´s going to be a DDD-Owl soon.

The education for the DDD turned out to be way more difficult than the little owl had expected, cause divine deliveries are very special. Of course the ordinary parcels were heavenly perfect also. All brought what people needed and therefore there was love in every parcel, even when it came in karmic wrapping paper. But the DDD parcels came at a special point in peoples lifes. They arrived when they had worked it out and created a huge potential to really express their true self. The DDD delivered opportunities for huge changes in their lifes.

At her first working day the little owl looked at all the beautiful gifts she had to deliver and her eyes began to shine. So much love in each one of them, so many beautiful potentials. She almost couldn´t await to deliver the first parcel. Before she started her tour an angel showed up and handed her a little beeper. „Call me, if you need me. This job is more difficult than one might assume.“ And he was right. You wouldn´t believe what the little owl experienced. People denied to have ordered at all, didn´t receive any reminder and other claimed the gift should be bigger or have more gold on it, to show the importance. Some said they couldn´t afford it, although she said it´s for free. Others insisted to not have enough space, the parcel is too big. Almost nobody took his parcel instantly. Not to mention they would be happy about it.

One reason was that they didn´t understand what they received, as they looked at it with human eyes and only saw stuff. You don´t know what you don´t know. One guy got a little scratchbook, not knowing he would use it one day when his mobile wouldn´t work, to write down an idea that would change the whole planet. The pair of shoes a woman refused, she would have worn, to stumble with it and bump into the love of her life. The DDD Parcels brought change and people are afraid to change. And they wanted their issues to be fixed for them instead of solving the core of it themselves with heavenly support. They felt overwhelmed. They didn´t trust heaven and didn´t trust themselves.

At the end of her first day the little owl sat at a huge amount of refused opportunities and felt sad. She had lost a few feathers and sighed. The beeper angel showed up next to her. „Why didn´t you call me?“ „I´m a failure and didn´t wanted to bother you.“ The angel hugged the little owl. „No, you´re not. You´re doing great. And you don´t bother me. To assist you is my divine job and I love it. Not to ask for help doesn´t make sense. When you thrive, the DDD orders can be easier delivered.
While the angelhug the owl started to relax. „It´s harder than I thought.“ „It is, but you´ll learn to deal with it. Just don´t take it personal. That´s the same mistake the humans make, they take you for the DDD, so they bless you or curse you, while you are just doing what heaven wants you to do and what is needed. And you´re showing up at a difficult point in their lifes. Before the new arises, the old is torn apart. They have lost their old lifes and can´t see the new.“

The angel helped the owl to bring the parcels to the storehouse. The owl asked: „When there are so many refusals and lost opportunities, why isn´t this house bigger?“ Oh, the parcels are stored at a multidimensional level, there´s no time and space.“ „Why not?“ „Well you wouldn´t believe how long it sometimes takes to deliver them.“ „But does that mean all will be received?“ „Yes all…sooner or later. But to heaven it´s always now.“

It´s never about you

It´s often said, that people do to themselves what they do to others. That sounds quite aloof, but it´s not. It´s a profound truth and you might take these things literally.

The one fooling you, is fooling himself.

The one betraying you, betrays himself.

The one belitteling you, feels small himself.

The one fighting you, is fighting himself.

The one rejecting you, is rejecting himself.

The one oppressing you, oppresses himself.

The one abandoning you, abandons himself.

The one limiting you, is limiting himself.

Of course the majority of people is totally unaware of these patterns. But if you understand this principle, people are very easily unmasked.

The reason why this projection is taking place is, that most people don´t refer to your real being. They are totally self-absorbed. Everything else in the world exists only in their context. To them you are just an externalisation of their inner picture of you in a role as their friend, husband, wife, boss, child etc. They are just looking at a mirror, blaming him for the reflection he offers. It might seem as if they´d attack you, but they don´t. How could they? They have never dared to reach out to connect with your whole being, with all your many facettes and dimensions, that is living in an astonishing wonderland behind the looking glass, just like Alice.

Shine your light!

Move and Change

I´m about to move my blog over the next days to wordpress, as this offers more possibilities. I should have done that from the start, but wanted to make it more comfortable for someone else. Life is so funny and all about changes and lessons.

2016 has been the year of clean-ups and surprising truth, so I bet we all had lots of lessons.

1st lesson: Sometimes we care for others, that don´t give a shit. Is that bad? No, everybody just expresses their truth. Stay with yours.

2nd lesson: Don´t believe words. Watch the actions.

3rd lesson: Don´t let others actions or words hurt you in any form. See through it to the core and become invincible.

Each lesson has also blessings and I´ve experienced a lot this year. When we don´t resist all is serving us and I am grateful for the enormous growth, love and joy I´ve been offered in 2016.

Each clean-up wipes away the dust and brings forth the true colors.

My colors: I am glad to be your soulutioner, to bring inspiration, insights and perceptions to the ones, willing to evolve and grow on their souls journey. I´ve been prepared for my mission in many lifetimes and I am all about love, joy and happiness. I am very grateful for my connection to others of my own Kind, that accept me the way I am, without trying to control or “fix” me. Feels like coming home.

So I enjoy even this move, although it takes a bit time. But it´ll prepare for 2017. The year of new beginnings.

Shine your light!