Day: December 7, 2016

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One of the most destructive energies on this planet is a low selfworth. And everybody seems to be infected by this virus of distortion.

Who can truly say to love and accept themselves fully? Not many. The closer you are to mastery, the more you will. But beware, the idea of being better than others, to be spiritually more evolved, isn´t a sign of selfconfidence, but of the ego, coming in through the backdoor masked as the spiritual ego. In case you should spot it, don´t pick on yourself as it´ll lower your selfworth, therefore your ego will blow itself up….that´s a cat endlessly hunting the own tail.

Its not possible to convince someone to let go of the idea to not be good enough, until they are ready to accept the own imperfections. Ít´s like a madhouse. Men know it quite well. When they tell a woman, they like the red dress, she´ll assume she looks fat in all the others. When you tell her blue doesn´t suit her, she´ll get a nervous breakdown and will ban even the blue sky out of her life. Guys, she´s just unsure. Love her and stay calm. Do the same with your own imperfections. Just love and accept yourself.

And yes, I´m so selfconfident, that others call me sometimes hightoned or arrogant (that´s just their pissed-off ego). Shows just cleary I´ve got to stand tall and brave. The ones cursing me, need the black sheep the most. But of course I´m also struggeling with my selfworth sometimes. The reason why I´m able to write about it is, that´s been a huge issue for me, as I´ve never been “good enough”. Made me try to become better. Didn´t work. Now I try to be me, no matter what. Works much better 😉

We´ve been teached through thousands and thousands of years of distortion that we are never good enough. No matter how good we are doing, we shall never pass paradises gate, to just be happy and loved.
To judge what is good (enough) and what is not brought us in big trouble. That´s the core behind all sins.
It doesn´t matter if it´s been through religion or through unspoken cultural laws: We´ve been endlessly teached we have to reach, own and be something, that we are not. Therefore we are never good enough.

Well, what helps? Accept it.
“Oh, I´m imperfect? Okay, let´s enjoy life!” Stop reaching out for perfection.
I will never be loved for being a skinny role model. Guys can´t pimp their selfworth with we me clinging unsure at their arm, while all the other guys begrudge them. Nope, Won´t happen! And I´m glad, cause these guys could never stand the strong woman that I am. It´s perfect they are sorted out this way. All our imperfections are for some reasons perfect in this very moment. God created you in his own image. There´s a reason why things are the way they are. You are fighting reality. Won´t work! Out of a human perspective we just can´t know why things are like they are.

Try to love and accept yourself. Every day a little bit more. Cause your low selfworth is the sneakiest thief you´ll ever find. He´ll steal your money, as you won´t dare to reach out for the well-paid job. He´ll make you spend money on things you don´t need. And the worst: He´ll steal your time and our incarnation won´t last that long. He´ll make you wait for something. To be skinny or rich or become good enough to get the good Job.
And guess what? Even when you´ll reach that, it can´t make you happy, cause the low selfworth remains inside, makes you watch out for the next imperfection to overcome.

But your low selfworth is not only a thief, but he´s a murderer of the peace on this planet. He´ll murder your inner peace, he´ll hunt you day and night, till your last breath. He´s the enemy on your inside. And he´ll make you fight yourself and others. You´ll fight everyone who´s not perfect – well of cause your personal unfailing idea of perfect. Everyone who doesn´t match into your idea of perfection becomes the enemy and you´ll fight him, giving all your energy and often even your life for this madness.

As long as we have this low self-confidence, we´ll be a perfect sheep, grouping in sheep flocks. And it´ll never come to our mind that our shepherd is the one not only guiding us to green grass, but that he´ll shear us and sell us to the butcher. What makes humans even worse than sheeps is, they not only follow the rules of others, but they´ll make sure everyone else does also. Cause when they spot someone, who starts to become more selfconfident, they´ll attack him immediately. “Did you see the dress she wore? A woman of her age! What does she think, who she is?!” “Did you hear, he´s writing now. Didn´t know we have a new Yates beween us!” Everyone who dares to be himself will be attacked, laughed at and casted out.
Might be the reason why I´m often hanging around with the outsiders, as I see their potential. Between the black sheep you´ll find the ones closest to the point to be themselves.

All our movements to bring peace in the world are great, but we have to work on our inside as well, as it is the root of all distortions. Bring peace to your heart. Accept others and yourself in all their and your perfect imperfections. And in case, you might become more selfconfident, get ready others will blame you for that. Don´t give in, they are just prove the world needs your confidence to be yourself.
You´re great. You are unique, cause the universe is too creative to produce copies. It loves diversity. It couldn´t resist to create you, just the way you are.
Shine your light!

Filters of perception

Noone on earth has a clear point of view. And the closer you are to the object, the less clearer the overview. You´ll only focus on one small part of the whole picture. That´s the reason why we see the issues of others so clearly, but at the same time struggle with our own.
To make things worse, we all have our personal filters. They are, like a pair of glasses, totally changing what we see. If you ever tried to watch through colored glasses you´ll agree that seemingly stabile reality changes totally when you change glasses/colours.

The problem is that noone else can change the glasses but the one on the inside. Trouble is most people aren´t even aware of their strange perspective, as they are so used to it, that it seems normal to them.

And, as I had to experience often, noone is able to assist someone, unless this person is ready for it. As long as one isn´t aware of his problem and gives intend to find soulutions, noone is able to help this person. They will blame others, destiny, karma, god, society and of course you for their problems, but they´ll never watch the one in charge: themselves.

Everyone who has witnessed a mate or a child to be somehow stuck knows it very well. You might try to assist them, encourage them as much as you want, it´ll just drive you mad and cause disagreement. They won´t even understand that you want to help them, but think you are picky, want to belittle or restrict them. All you say or do has to pass their filters and therefore will be misunderstood.

As hard as it is to witness this with a loved one, there´s only one thing you might do: Care for yourself and let go!
If someone chooses to take poison, there´s no use in joining him. Choose to stay healthy yourself as you are only responsible for one person and that is you.
And in case they would ever choose your help, you´ll be strong and stabile. Tell them you´ll be there, when they are ready, but don´t help before they ask you to. It´s the planet of free choice and even if someone would insist to go through their own kind of hell, as in cases of an addicted child, you´ll have to let them.

Interestingly enough if you choose to care for yourself, things change on the outside quite often. Sometimes even instantly, as you take pressure out of the system, when you let go.

Noone ever teached us, but being selfish enough to care for ourselves, might encourage the other to do the same for himself. And it´s the loving selfcare that might change the situation for the better, as it opens for soulutions.

Shine your light!